Sugar Low

Ugh! Its that time of year, the time of the year when i have my sugar low, the WORST sugar low I have all year. I can say to you right now that I do feel like crap. I feel dead, and I don't really feel like doing anything else but sitting here telling you about it because it really sucks.

I'm not really that fond of sugar i the first place so I only eat it on holidays and special occasions.

Do you ever get sugar lows? particularly bad ones on holidays and halloween?

I just feel dead, lazy, and I can't even look at anything sugary without feeling sick almost immediately

Morning Stress

Some people look forward to the morning, a start of a  new day. Sometimes I look forward to them, but most of the time, they turn out to be stressful. You have no clue how many days I have woken up to screaming children, or my dad and my sister arguing, or my sister arguing with someone else. Or my sister complaining about how her life is miserable, or my sister and / or my dad screaming at my nieces to get ready for school, or yelling at them because they didn't get dressed. So many things happen in the morning. The mornings are always the most negative here at my house.

Its really pretty sad. I wish I could have more peaceful mornings. That however is not realistic right now. My family deals with so much drama all the time. I've never told them how I feel. I don't want to be a burden, another complainer, someone else they have to worry about. But because of all this negative crap that always goes on in the mornings I have come to dread them. Sometimes I go to bed really late, so I'll wake up really late and I won't have to deal with that crap. They drive me nuts and I wish they would stop. I know my sister has some medical problems that make it so she has trouble controling her emotions, its not all her fault. I really blame it on the over reaction of my parents, mostly my dad.  He's sometimes really fire headed, and stubborn and he gets mad easy from the stupidest things. he's always in a rush, and tries to do everything fast, he never seems to be able to slow down from my point of view on this. He has his good points but I really hate him causing drama with my sister. Him and my mom are sometimes bad about that. 

I know they try but it drives everyone nuts. I just wish we could make mornings more peaceful. We don't even get my nieces properly fed in the morning before school its so dumb. 

this also gets on my nieces nerves, they start getting cranky and angry, and then they get really annoying. In all seriousness my niece Natalie is the most annoying, loud, obnoxious child yo could ever meet when she is cranky, angry, or hyper. I do love her but she gets on my nerves a LOT. yes, my nieces do cause some of the stress too in the mornings.

this really drives me nuts, no one should have negative mornings.

Bad 20th Birthday...

Not something you want to hear from someone that had their 20th birthday yesterday on the 4th. but in all honestly it SUCKED! I would just like to take a moment and tell yo what has been happening to me the last couple of weeks.

Okay so 2 and a half weeks ago my mom and dad went on a choir tour. I had 12 days of piece without having to worry about my loud, annoying, jumpy (sorry if that's mean), nieces. to say the least I really enjoyed it. This Tuesday they got home and i discovered that my mom and dad both got the Swine flu while they were gone, My mom is still feeling the effects because her immune system has trouble taking that sort of thing. My week was pretty normal, the same old same old. I played Destiny Online, watched a few movies chilled back and relaxed, etc. 

If you told me that the Swine Flu would prevent me from having a normal birthday a few months ago you would probably have me staring at you with a crazy look. 

No I did not get the Swine flu
But my mom getting over the swine flu made it so I had to basically throw all of my plans out the window for my birthday. I wanted to go places and see stuff. 

I didn't want to go without my mom because I just wouldn't be able to enjoy it without her plain and simple. I just settled fora  movie and fireworks yesterday and decided to just quit thinking about all the stuff I could have done. but in all seriousness I am really disappointed and sad that my birthday didn't turn out better, I've ad better birthdays in the past. 

I know the world does not shift in my direction when I want it to. i never as for anything, I never want anything, I'm not a really wanty kind of person that thinks everything should go her way. I just wanted this ONE thing to go in my favor. I am grateful for the fireworks those were fun and I got a video (which I'll post later). but I was a little melancholy the whole day, and bored which no one should feel on their 20th birthday. :(

sometime in the future I'd love to go to an amusement park, the museum, go shopping, go to my favorite restaurant, etc. I think that would more than make up for the sad, dull disappointment that my birthday was. 

I'm glad Xanga is here, this is one of the few places I can actually express how I am really feeling when I really need to express it. I always keep my feelings to myself most of the time, its nice to vent.

I'm So Disappointed in Walmart

they should really look more into the games they get for the store. I've been turned off by one I just recently tried.

Its this game that has 50,000 games on it. Sounds pretty good but its not. When I installed this game it had SO many trojan agents it was crazy! The games were there but so were the viruses. I was just like staring at the many pop ups that came up when my AVG anti virus caught those little buggers. I got rid of the games on the computer and uninstalled them after that and then told everyone in the house about it.

As you can probably guess I am a little turned off from buying games from the store now. You never know what you're really getting. I've downloaded games from the internet that were cleaner than this. 

As I said earlier stores should really look more into the items they stock on the shelves. 

If I can find the Walmart page for it or a picture I'll put it up later. I'm currently looking for it. Its just called 50,000 games.

American Horror Films Suck.

Man! do they suck. After you've seen a Japanese horror film US films will seem like trash to you. I've forgotten how much I hate US horror films. I just attempted to watch one that my parents rented and we got like 20 minutes into it (it was miserable for all of us but we thought it would get better. When I remember the name of the movie or go look at the title later I'll edit in to this post but I cant remember what it was called (funny eh?) I'm not that surprised.

this movie lacked plot, good camera work, it had too much swearing, it was rated PG13 but I think it would have been better off if it was an R film because that is what it seemed like to me. IT SUCKED! I have never seen such a bad film in my life since I was War of the Worlds. Or course this is just my opinion but I don't really see how anyone could like such a crappy movie. 

There's a Japanese horror called "Reincarnation" and another one called "Suicide circle' just watch those and you'll never be satisfied by a US film again. (have to warn you about the second one I mentioned it stays true to the title not for minors at all).  

Aren't horror films made to scare people and give them thrills? well I don't think they're doing such a dandy job of it.  I hardly get a thrill out of anything that is made in the US these days. I know this isn't limited to just the US I'm sure that other countries TV shows, and movies suck as well. 

Anyway thats all I have to say about this right now if I think of anymore i'll edit this.