Nothing

My life just seems a little pointless right now. I'm not going to school, I'm not going to work, I'm just staying at home playing games on the computer.

I can't drive so i can't go anywhere, the only place i have to go is the fantasy world where I am a hero, Destiny Online is the only thing i have right now which is a total drag. All i do all day is just play and play and play. I feel like I'm doing something, like I'm accomplishing something in that game, I feel like I'm worth something. If i strip if all down however, if the game were to be shut down, it would have been all for nothing. 

So sad when you're life may be shut down someday. So sad when your life is a game, when your life is at the mercy of a group of people that control everything, create everything, etc. (isn't life sort of like that?)

My life is pretty pathetic, I could be doing housework all day but that just isn't worth it for me, I want something more, I want to become the best at something, and the only way i can do that is by playing this game right now. I have no way of going back to college right now. 

That is how i feel right now. I have no friends to hang out with (nor do  want anyone to hang out with in real life because its just a bothersom nuisance because I'm used to being alone). 

That is how i feel.