Lag Induced Transparency

Laura made some chocolate chip cookies yesterday. We also had a nice salad with some kind of vinaigrette dressing, nits, chicken, and probably something else, but I don't remember. I don't know if it sounds weird, but it was pretty good. The cookies we had after were very welcoming too.
Today I tried out the new OGX Tea Tree Peppermint conditioner I got yesterday. I also tried out some of this hair product I've been saving since before I cut my hair a year ago. Instead of typing out the name, I'll just leave a picture of it below. My hair wasn't long enough for a while to try it, but it is now. I blow dried my hair and it came out soft and smooth. I almost bought some other hair products, yesterday, but I'm glad I didn't waste the money. It seems like I don't need anything else after all. I don't know if it's because of the conditioner, the product, or both, but my hair doesn't have a ton of static like it did before.

Here is my hair today.

I have been using the OGX Coconut milk conditioner for a long time up until a few days ago. I ran out, and I've been using Garnea Fructis 2 in one Shampoo and Conditioner since then. It just doesn't do enough for my hair, so I had to buy a new conditioner.

Oh yeah, here is the other hair product I used today. I think I like it a lot.

I kept this in my hair stuff for a long time without using it. I think it's pretty cool now.

 This is the conditioner I got

I don't do much on Tuesdays anymore since I quit being scheduled. I guess my new manager just doesn't feel like a lot of people need to be scheduled on Tuesday anymore. I used to make ice cream on Tuesday mornings, but now I do it on Saturdays, and I help customers too. I made waffle cones and bowls on Thursdays. I didn't blog a lot after I started working at Coldstone Creamery, so not a lot has been said on here about my job. I'm going to do a job history post soon. It's been a wild ride, and it's worth writing about.

The most eventful thing to happen to me today besides a good hair day, was having to listen to Natalie go through her emotional problems and anxiety. She doesn't know how to control her emotions very well yet. She struggles a lot with some of the same issues I have like OCD, depression, anxiety, and PTSD which I can't relate to a lot. I've never had PTSD to my knowledge. Maybe a bit from losing friends, but she has it worse. I won't give any details beyond this because that would be rude. I just had to write something because it's hard to deal with sometimes and this blog is one of my coping mechanisms. She has a lot of negative energy sometimes and it gets to me. Sometimes I just want to tell her to shut up, but I know that isn't the answer at all, so I'll never do that. It's been a lot harder for her since she turned 18 as well. I know what it's like having a lot of doubts and being confused with adult life.

Heck, I'm still confused with adult life and I'm 30. Haha.

So, I won't say anything bad about her, even though she drives me nuts sometimes. The rest of my day wasn't too eventful. Everyone else went to a choir concert but Natalie and I. I stayed home and played games on Roblox. Yes, I am an avid player of Roblox. I love spending time on there. I have spent less time on there lately because I'm trying to spend less money. I love building houses in Bloxburg and supporting my favorite developers. Also, I struggle a lot socially and being able to spend time having fun in games helps me a lot. It’s simple, and helps me keep my mind off of negative things.

We had tacos for dinner tonight, and after I got on Roblox and my inernet was being stupid while I was trying to play Epic Minigames. Anyway, I had a really cool lag induced bug that made my avatar go transparent. I also got stuck in mid air.

After a few minutes and one disconnection my internet was fine again. I didn't end up playing for a long time. I got off to play some old DOS games on various websites. I played a little Skyroads, and some Ken's Labyrinth. I grew up in the 90's, so I love playing DOS games.

I'm currently watching YouTube videos. This is all for now.

Rainbow Haired Angel

A few day ago I got my angel accessories at Zurchers. I think it’s a party store, but I’m not sure because that was only the 2nd time I’ve been there. The first was when I was with Laura and one of my nieces getting their Halloween costumes.

I also got a rainbow wig to go with my angel accessories and today I got white fishnet gloves as an extra accessory.

My wig was pretty cool, but I sometimes forget just how itchy these cheap wigs can be.

I didn’t go anywhere special today. After I went to Zurchers, Laura and I bought Halloween candy at the store. I got airheads and Reese’s candy, and she got a few other things. Not much happened after this. I just stayed at home, helped make sugar cookies with Laura, helped hand out candy to trick or treaters, and listened to Halloween music.

I did play some Roblox and Minecraft. I also watched some YouTube videos.
The sugar cookies turned out perfect. Laura is great at gluten free baking. We decided not to frost them after they were done.

My Pixie Cut Is Back

Long story short, I cut my hair.

I’ll be honest. There is some regret. I’m not too worried however, because my hair grows pretty fast. I do like my pixie cut, but I don’t think I’ll keep it.
I made the mistake of trying to ignore my hair the whole time I grew it out. Because I did that I never got used to it. I ended up just getting annoyed with it in the end, so I’m starting over. I’m going to make sure to have fun with my hair this time around.

October Recap 1/2

Time for an October recap. I am just too busy to want to write right now. I feel like my English class is sucking the writing motivation out of me. I will save the thoughts and details about school for the end of the year though. I expect I'll have a lot to say in a couple of months.

I've been looking over my blog notes and I noticed I wrote something about wanting to try a Zero candy bar shake. I really should do that sometime for sure. I think Zero andy bars are my favorite. It's a shame they don't get handed out at Halloween so far as I know. I've never seen one so far, but maybe if I am lucky I'll get... well lucky! haha.

I think the big event this month so far was getting my hair cut. This is my last haircut unless if I REALLY need one in the future. I am going to grow my hair out super super long this time.

Here are a couple of pictures I took at the beginning of the month.

I went out on the day I took these photos. Here is a necklace I got! This was conference weekend.

I also went out for ice cream on that day. I went in between the Saturday sessions of General Conference. Getting a treat on General Conference weekend is a bit of a tradition for me. I also made a trip to Sally's Beauty Supply on this day and looked at hair stuff. It's nice to plan ahead.

I will talk more about LDS General Conference some other time. I want to show you thehaircut I got a little over a week ago. I kind of miss being able to put my hair in a ponytail, but this cut was needed. Something tells me I'm going to have to get my hair modified though down the line.

That was a fun day, thought on my way home I ended up getting hot chocolate at the store because I froze myself at the bus stop! I really shouldn't wait for the bus outside.Oh yeah, I at at Panda Express on the 6th as well. I feel like this month so far I've been eating too much asian food.

I am still rooting for Evan McMullin to win Utah in the elections. I really think he can do it. I don't really like Trump or Hillary. I am glad I have someone I like. He probably won't become president, but he deserves my vote nonetheless. Have you seen the news lately about allies of Putin in Russia threatening or warning the USA that if they don't vote for Trump we will probably end up in a war with Russia? That is crazy and I won't be bullied into anything. I refuse to vote for someone out of fear. I don't think anything will really happen, but on this planet you never know. Things are so unpredictable.

Have you seen that they are toning down the appearances of Ronald McDonald because of all the crazy clown appearances all over the world? I feel so bad for Ronald!

If I forgot to mention anything from the past two weeks I guarantee you will see it later in the future. 

The Tree

So every six months my church (I’m Mormon / LDS) has this thing called General Conference. It’s this thing where we get guidance from our church leaders for two days. they give talks in 5 two hour sessions. The first three happen at 10, 2 and 6. The third one is just for the men. The other two happen on Sunday at 10 and 2. The women do have their meeting but ours is the week before.

Anyway, so the first thing I did today was listen to General Conference and do a bunch of random stuff on my phone. I ate some Cafe Rio that I got with dad yesterday night because I didn’t finish it. I don’t have much to say about conference right now really. My attention span isn’t the best and I want to give that stuff it’s own post after I re listen or read the talks later.

After the first session I needed to go put my check from work in the bank, so I got ready. I decided to wear my hair up in a pony tail. Something I haven’t tried since I cut my hair a month and a half ago. I got most of it up and I just pinned the rest down with about 11 hair clips I think. I don’t really mind all the hair clips. I put everything into my little purse and then I was off! While I was waiting for the bus it rained however, but thankfully it wasn’t too long or too heavy. The bus came soon after and I got on it. I took this picture of my hair when I was riding for a friend.

That strand behind my ear came loose when the wind was blowing. I’m glad more didn’t come out.

So I went to the bank and deposited my check. the buses only come every hour on Saturday, so I decided to just go to themall and get this necklace from Claire’s that I’ve been wanting for a while. I was tempted to buy more, but my funds are limited, so I decided not to.

 

I love trees, so I’m probably going to be wearing this a lot. I like how it’s on a black rope instead of a chain. The chains at Claire’s tarnish and fade. I’ve never liked them very much.

I got some ice cream after this at Farr’s and got cheesecake mixed with marshmallow. I could have just gotten ice cream at Cold Stone, but I love the flavors of Farr’s much more. I put sugar wafer and pretzels in it. The whole thing was fabulous and while i ate I was actually listening to the second session of conference.

I also took a bus and back to Sally’s Beauty Supply to see what hair stuff I’ll need later for when I grow it out. It wasn’t very long, but I’m glad i went. I decided not to stay over there because I didn’t want to get stuck without a bus home. If I’d stayed on that side of town I would have had to get a ride and I hate asking people for rides. When I got back to the mall I hung out for a while and looked at more hair products, this time at Regis Salon. I thought about buying some hairspray and shampoo, but decided to wait.

I took the bus home not too long after this. On my wa home I stopped by the store and ended up getting cheaper hairspray and shampoo. I also got a candy corn flavored chocolate bar and candy corn M&Ms. I walked home and finished off the rest of my Cafe Rio burrito while I watched random videos.

Busy Rollin

I had stress management class today and we talked about experiences where we got to show ourselves compassion. I haven’t written mine yet, but I’m going to soon and when I do I’ll let you read it. We had snacks in class. I know Ritz Handy snacks aren’t the most healthy things in the world, but they were a fun change of pace. I originally brought some chocolate granola and sweet potato crackers from home to snack on, but I’m glad I ate a couple of those. The day started out pretty fun. Nothing much happened before school, I just got ready for my shift that was tonight.

I really need to see the French tutor soon because I am really starting to struggle a lot in French. I’m sure and hour with him would solve all of that. Sadly i forgot to ask about that today after class and I headed straight for the mall without even thinking about it. I don’t really know why, but for some reason even though I had snacks in my backpack already I chose to go buy a Subway club. It was alright, but I think when i cut fast food next week I’m going to not miss Subway so much. I prefer Firehouse subs to Subway any day. My only issue is that they are expensive so I don’t eat there often.

I cancelled the hair appointment I made yesterday at Aveda and scheduled one at my regular hair salon with my regular stylist. My next cut is just going to be preparation for me growing out my hair. Oh, and I also got this cookie as well when I was at R.C Willey a bit earlier.

It was kind of cool because it was that periwinkle color but underneath there was actually a layer of light purple icing as well. I got that right before work.

I only had to sample for half of the time today. The other two and a half hours I rolled and helped clean up. I truly felt like part of the team. We ere busy preparing for LDS General Conference. I guess a lot of people buy cinnamon rolls around this time. It was a fun evening and i am glad things went well. I got a mixture of creme brulee ice cream and butter pecan ice cream for my shift meal from Coldstone after work. When mom and dad picked me up we also went to Cafe Rio and i got a bean, cheese, rice and chicken burrito. I didn’t really finish it, but I’m going to tomorrow.

Hard Hair Decision

The main struggle of the day was my hair. I haven’t been able to decide whether or not I want to cut it. I thought about cutting it and I thought about growing it out. I was really stressed about it today. I’m glad I only had French today at school because I needed to do some deep introspection. I’ve found out the answer, but first I’ll tell you a bit about what I did today.

Well in a non complicated nutshell I chose to skip the gym today and went to Cafe Rio while I was walking around town. I got an enchilada style steak burrito.  How I managed to eat the whole thing I’ll never know.

Oh, and earlier in the day I got an oatmeal with banana and honey with a coconut berry blast smoothie at Jamba Juice. So today has been great for food. I went to the local health food store where mom works and hung out there for an hour with her after she got back after her lunch break. She helped me pick out a protein powder for later. When she got off we went home.


Well anyway, my hair was a hard decision. After asking people and introspecting a lot I’ve decided to grow my hair out. I posted a bunch of photos and asked people what they thought. That helped, but the thing that really helped me decide was when I realized that I’ve been sub consciously picturing myself with long hair in my day dreams. Usually I only picture myself as the person I want to be so I knew the conclusion of long hair was a true one. When I picture myself with short hair if feels off. I’m going to do everything in my power to grow long hair.  I’m going to pull every skill and piece if knowledge I have to do it. I used to have long hair, so I’m no novice. Anyway. Here are some cool avatars I made when I was still deciding. 

Here are the longer ones I made after I decided I waned long hair.

I am stress free now and happy with my decision!

Chopping Off the Locks

Today I went to vocational rehab again and was actually stuck there for nearly two hours while Judy typed up all the info to send to the government so I can get help for school. Book money and stuff like that. She had to know my financial status, and a whole lot of personal info. I brought her my grades like she asked from spring semester and also brought a new book list, tuition cost paper, and class schedule.  To be honest I still have my doubts about taking French this semester, but I’ll try my best. She said I could drop that class if it becomes too hard for me.  One thing I’m anxious about is that I have to do the pell grant SAP (satisfactory academic progress) appeal so I can get the pell grant to pay for school. I have to at least try and fix my inelegebility for that or vocational rehab can’t pay for college. They want the pell grant to pay as much as it can and the. They do the rest. I’m a bit nervous because I looked at all the stuff I need for the appeal and I don’t understand all of it. I failed my first two semesters and then had to withdraw from one in fall 2013 so that messed up my pell grant elegebility and vocational rehab has been paying every semester, but this time I guess they need me to try to get the pell grant. I think things are getting more strict there or something.

Anyway, after all that stuff with Judy and waiting for everything to be typed up I finally got to leave. I have to go to school tomorrow and ask about the requirements for the pell grant appeal. I get that I’m supposed to tell them what happened with those three semesters I had trouble in and what has changed, but the rest I’m fuzzy on. I hate paperwork…

Mom and I actually got to go to one of the local outdoor shopping centers to look for Pokemon. There is this shop that sells toys, games and candy that I think is the cutest thing ever. Mom loved it and thought it was charming as well. I found out about it when I was out with friends last year. I’ll have to get pictures sometime.

After I was done at vocational rehab I ate a B-UP bar (cookie dough flavored) for a late lunch and since my hair appointment was at 6:30 and it was 3 hours away I had mom drop me off at the mall. I wanted to show off my new shirt anyway.

I just walked around for a while and eventually got my haircut! One thing I really like doing when I’m at the mall is checking out all the rings at S.L. Sorry I have to omit names, I do it for privacy. It’s basically a little jewelry kiosk. I got my ears pierced there a year ago. I’ll have to get pictures of their stuff sometime. I also made a stop by work and got a frozen lemonade. I got the raspberry one. I was planning on staying away from sugar again, but I really wanted a lemonade. Anyway, I am glad my hairstylist Brenna is back from maternity leave. She is the only one I trust with my hair. She did a great job tonight Here is is below. It took about an hour for Brenna to do it.

I am happy with it and it’s so easy to manage! Oh, but one thing I forgot to mention when I was talking about walking around the mall is that my favorite grilled cheese place Melty Way closed down! I’m so heart broken. Stuff like this happens on a regular basis at the mall. It really is a tragic thing to say the least.

Anyway, dad picked me up and I went home and got to show off my new cut.

Just Like Fire

 

 

I don't feel like I need to put much effort into today's post. I only have one thing of note I wish to tell you today besides the fact that I am freaking out about school on Monday (I"m so excited!)

 I re-dyed my hair today, red of course. I was careful not to spill any of the dye on anything but myself. It went pretty well, I have a feeling I won't be doing it myself anymore after this time though. I don't think my parents really like it with our new carpet, and bathrooms and all. I don't really like doing it myself anyway to be honest. Hopefully I will be able to find someone that will do it for me in the future.

 I am missing my sister, and my family being together already, it's only been a few days since my sister and her family left and went back to California.

 Anyway, Not really in a writing mood today much. I might and might not write for a few days depending o how I feel. :)

Hair Cut

So my mom cut my hair yesterday. I used to be really picky about how long my hair was. Back in the day I hated short hair, I always had my hair long. Somewhere along the way though I got tired of it and started cutting my hair every 2 and a half years. I have donated to Locks of Love 2 times in the past. Usually when I grow my hair out I let it grow all the way to my shoulders. I cut my hair sometime last year, I think sometime in the fall. I usually let it grow out but I didn’t feel like it this time. I have also started dying my hair red lately. It is a lot more expensive to dye hair when it’s longer and it takes more time. I decided to cut it again to just above my shoulders. I no longer hate short hair. I actually think I’m a bit more creative with my hair when it’s short. I tend to have a lot more fun with it when I don’t have so much of it to worry about it. When my hair was longer it took forever to brush and blow dry. Now it’s a lot easier and takes up less time.

My mom cut it yesterday. In the past I usually got nervous when cutting my hair but yesterday I had her do it without a second thought. I have been thinking about it for a few months now. 

It took her about 45 minutes. One thing that happened was that I hadn’t drank anything or eaten very much before she cut it. On top of that I was locking my knees. I started to feel really dehydrated and dissy and I actually turned white while she was cutting my hair and I freaked her out ha ha.  I think I was locking my knees. I had to sit down and recover, I also drank some water and ate an orange. I have never almost passed out before it was a weird sensation. I’m glad I didn’t pass out that would have been bad.

When this happened she was almost done anyway, so it didn’t interfere with much. She had to got to work so she did the basics and worried about the details later yesterday night. She just had to fix my bangs a little and my taper yesterday evening it wasn’t much really.

My hair is so much easier to manage since I cut it shorter I love it a lot. I am planning on getting it dyed again soon. I really prefer having it red.

Also, yesterday my brother and his girlfriend came over and made ministroni. I’ve always loved that kind of soup it’s always great when my mom makes it. It was great this time too when my brother and his girlfriend made it as well. I think they did a pretty good job doing it. I think I had 2 bowls.

My mom made beef skillet I think 2 days ago. We usually have that over chips or on a tortilla. I love beef skillet as well. I actually had that for lunch yesterday. Having Ministroni after that was just great since both are delicious.

Speaking of food, since I got off my diet I haven’t gained any weight, I’ve stayed pretty steady. I’m super happy about this. I’ve been being really careful about what I eat and how much I eat. I would hate it if I gained weight that would be bad. I don’t think I will though as long as I keep this up.

Anyway, I guess this is all. I don’t think I forgot anything.

Family Stuff...

So, I haven’t talked very much about my nephew since he was born. His name is Jax, he is totally adorable. I haven’t seen him in person yet, but my parents have. They went up to California for a few weeks in August after he was born.

We did a web cam chat sometime last week. I don’t remember talking about it. It was pretty cool though. I can tell he is attached to his mom though, he has gained weight but it only made him cuter.  Heh, I think he was a little fussy when we were doing it, we had to give him back his bottle multiple times.

Almost my whole family was there when we did it, minus my 2 brothers that weren’t present. We took turns getting into the view of the camera. I’m not very fond of cameras but I made an exception to get in front of it this time. :)

It was a pretty good experience all in all. We are going to do it again soon sometime.

Oh and a day before, or maybe 2 his hair came off the top of his head while they were giving him a bath. it didn’t come off of the back so he has this really funny hair now, it looks cute though. He looks like captain Pecard from Star Trek. Maybe they should dress him up and take photos as well.  :p

Bad Sunday Hair!

slept like a baby yesterday but always have a hard time getting up in the morning. I just like to lie there listening to the radio usually. Sunday’s are different. I had to get ready for church so i couldn’t do that.

After blow drying my bangs they wouldn’t behave at all. I usually have my mom do them. I have no clue how to do my own hair. I ave never really had anything to manage before I got bangs. I have long and straight hair and most of the time I was just happy brushing it out and leaving it that way or putting it up in a pony tail. I keep it back in a bandana now so my bangs aren’t always in my face all the time. I like them but I don’t like to keep them down all day.

Today is another rainy day *groan* I really don’t like it at all. Even worse the chapel was freezing and that did no bode well with me.

They talked about the story about Eli and Samuel today in church. That is one of the things i remember the most. It is a good story.I’ve never read the bible so thi was fairly new to me. I have a short attention span sometimes so I’ve probably heard it before but wasn’t paying attention last time.

Yeah so other than being tired and falling asleep for 10 minutes one time church was pretty good today.

I just had some jelly toast (strawberry) it was pretty great.

It’s my sister in laws birthday today. It seems we both have our birthday on sunday this year.  We are going to have dinner at her parents house. I’ll tell how it went when i get back.