Journey

Remember Quizilla and AOL journals? That is where my blogging journey began. Sadly, both of those old journals from high school are gone. I wasn’t able to salvage either because by the time I wanted to they had been shut down. Quizilla changed a lot after Nickelodeon took over. I joined before that happened.

Both were pretty much just about high school and boys I liked. Silly stuff like that. I think my AOL journal talked more about high school than my Quizilla journal, but I don’t remember clearly sadly. I’m not super sad about my Quizilla journal being lost, but my AOL journal was a loss to me because I had more written in it.

So that is where my blogging origins are. That was clear back in 2006 when I started being a heavy internet user and was a senior in high school. Time flies really fast!

Almost 10 years ago in August 2008 I created my first WordPress blog. I think I created it on another account than what I use now though. I blogged on wordpress for a couple of weeks only I think. I moved to Xanga not long after I started blogging in the same month. I had a little interest in Xanga before WordPress, but it wasn’t until I checked the site over a second time that I discovered I liked it more than I thought.

Xanga was my favorite blogging site and I’m still sad that it is what it has become. I blogged on Xanga from August 2008 all the way to when it had it’s terrible reboot. I tried other blogging sites like tumblr, the old version of blogger, livejournal, WordPress again and a few others. In 2011 after Google re did blogger and made it better I started blogging on both Xanga and blogger. I nearly left Xanga a whole bunch of times, but I always came back. I think one of the reasons why is because people read what I write. It was easy to be discovered on Xanga. I even made it onto the front page a couple of times! Also, they had this really cool feature where you could upload audio. I used to do Audio blogs on there too.

My username was Empathic_Heart, those were good times. I’ve been on blogger ever since I lost Xanga. Same blog, different place. I didn’t import to my new wordpress because I consider this blog to be my private blog now and I have a desire to start over with my blog on wordpress. That is an entirely separate blog. A lot of things happened last year and I didn’t write at all. I feel like I should leave that era of my blog in the past for the most part. That is why I am mostly not writing on here much anymore for now. I might post here and there.

Anyway, I’ve tried a few of the newer blogging sites as well, but I just decided to stick with blogger and WordPress. I’m happier that way.

And now onto another era of writing. I can’t wait to see what I make of this.

Sanctuary

I'll just admit here and now again that I mention and express things on here that I normally would feel a little nervous about saying out loud. That is what this blog is for really, to fully express myself and share my life with others.

When I started blogging on a regular basis it was back in 2008 and it was on a now sad site called Xanga, that is now only a shadow of its former self. I had done a few entries on other sites here and there, but Xanga was by far my favorite site to blog on for years. I used to write on AOL Journals, wordpress, and Quizilla in high school, but only a few times. I miss the days of having a regular following of people that read my blog. Blogger is great, but it can be difficult to get a big audience sometimes.

I want people to know my feelings, poetry, experiences, regrets, times in my life when I did things in not proud of, and struggles I've been through. People need to know they aren't alone and there are people that have been through depression, social issues, lack of confidence, motivation issues, etc. You are never truly alone and I've been through a lot, that is why I write. I write here so that I don't feel alone and I feel heard and so I can help others, and share my creativity. I hope I can inspire and uplift and encourage others to have dreams and get out more.

This is my sanctuary, but it can also bee a sanctuary for others if they wish.

A new Beginning

Sorry I am late, I was waiting for Xanga to launch.

Xanga is back, the timing of this is just perfect. I started school again last week. I am taking Word Civilization part two and Basic Writing 2 this semester. This last week hasn’t been that eventful school wise anyway. I basically just got introduced to my classes, and got my textbooks. I have actually sent my textbooks to be converted to audio. I will still have the actual textbook when they are finished, but I will also have a copy I can listen to as well!

Actually a funny thing happened when I was going to give the Accessible technology office my text books. I was on my way to the school store to buy something so I could get cash back to use on the bus and I saw this lady that had a cane. I was carrying mine (raed below) and I said hi and she said her name was lisa and she was heading to the AT office as well. I told her that I would see her there after I get my money. Anyway so I did that and then went to the AT office and gave them my books. The guy that took my books needed my first and last name and I told him my last name and over to my left I hear Lisa say “No way that is my last name as well!”. The funny thing about this s that my dad has a sister named Lisa. To make this even more funny My dads name is Robert, and guess what Lisa’s husbands name is? That is right it is Robert. So My dad has a sister named Lisa, and this woman I met in the hallways earlier that is also named Lisa has a husband named Robert. Strange coincidences happen every day and this one was one of the funniest ones I have come across. Not to mention that she is also visually impaired and uses a cane (sometimes) like me. That was a fun trip to that office.

I have started taking the bus to school this semester. I really don’t know why I didn’t start this sooner. I feel like I have a lot more freedom now that I have a bus pass and can just go wherever I want to via bus. I accidentally missed a bus last week and was late for school. That is probably the only drawback I see so far. I have also noticed that a lot of the same people get off and go onto the bus, I have a feeling I’m going to be making a lot of bus buddies. I have already met some really interesting and sweet people. I love how the bus has more than one stop at school, so I don’t have to walk from one end of the campus to another. I had to wait two days from Monday for my bus pass to activate, I just picked it up somewhere at school and just brought cash and quarters with me for those two days. I also used those two days as an excuse to buy stuff from the school ice cream store because that is how I got my cash. I think I might have an addiction to Chex Mix Muddy Buddies haha.

World Civ (history) is the same as last semester. The professor mostly just gives a lecture the whole entire class and the only homework we have is 1 paper, a project, and just the basic reading. I knw the drill pretty well now so I am sure I will do a lot better this time.  We started where we left off last semester, around the time of the renaissance times.

My English or Basic Writing 2 class hasn’t been hard so far. We only have class 2 times a week and the rest is online. The first assignment this last week wasn’t that hard, we just had to write a short about me paragraph in MLA format. I have to admit that I always get nervous with English at first. I think everything is going to be fine though as long as I keep up and do my best and don’t over think. My english class and my History class are on opposite sides of the campus, I usually have to walk or run pretty fast from English to History every time.

I am also taking Christian history at the institute

I missed the school food during the break. I am going to cut down on eating at school, but it is nice every once in a while. My favorite places to go to are Jamba Juice, Pizza Hut, Subway, and Rockin Robbies. I probably go to Jamba Juice the most out of all of them. They are actually building a Taco Bell on campus right next to Jamba Juice. I am not sure if I am going to eat there or not, it depends on how good the food is, I think it depends on who is preparing it. I guess we will have to wait and see. I am probably going to pack a lunch most of the time, but I will undoubtedly frequent those places from time to time.

I have been taking my cane for a trial run this week. I think using it on campus is a great thing. I don’t really use it anywhere else besides the bus. I feel like people have a right to know that I have bad vision and that is why I carry it, well that and it helps me with all the steps and stuff on campus. I don’t have to use it, but for school it makes things easier. It’s still a bit weird carrying it around sometimes just because I don’t use it that often. I don’t really use it for general mobility, it’s more of a depth perception issue. I haven’t gotten any negative reactions from anyone and I don’t mind answering questions either. I have gotten a few questions from people at the bus stop this week.

I was sick for this whole last week. My whole family was sick actually, we all had colds. It wasn’t anything particularly nasty though, just a stuffy and runny nose, a little cough because I had crud in my lungs. I felt kind of bad, but not horrible except for maybe the 2nd day. I made sure to take lots of vitamin C and eat stuff that had it as well. I took a lot of other vitamins as well to make sure my body had a lot of support. My immune system is pretty good and that just made it a whole lot better. I am pretty much over the cold, just have a little bit of coughing left, but not much. I am glad it went away fast because I would have hated to have to deal with it for a second week.

Everything has been going smoothly and the weather has been nice. I’ve been playing a lot of old computer games from the 90′s lately. It’s funny how even after 20 years I still love the games of my childhood. I have been playing games like Ken’s labyrinth, Skyroads, Prince of Persia and some others. I have always been fond of DOS games and was really lucky to find a newer version of Ken’s Labyrinth that words on my computer surprisingly enough. I am trying to make a Let’s Play for that game  currently.

I have a lot more stuff to share with you guys, but for now this will do, no use rushing.

 

Xangaville Drama

Today I was caught in the middle of some drama over at the Xangaville group on facebook. I accidentally worded something wrong and offended someone there because they misunderstood what I said. It doesn't matter what it was about, so I won't say on here. Things quickly got ugly and people started to defend me and... I guess you could say the person got in a bit of trouble for being harsh. It didn't last long, and it wasn't really the person's fault that things erupted. I sometimes have a hard time with wording things. The drama only lasted for about 5 minutes and then it was done, but it was interesting. I held nothing against the person and quickly owned up to my mistake and things are fine now. To lighten the ominous mood that has been sweeping over the facebook group over the past few days I posted a picture of Discord from My Little Pony and said "Blame it on Discord". I think a few people got a kick out of it.

I didn't get a whole lot of sleep yesterday because our loud dishwasher was running. I think I got probably 4 or 5 hours I think. We need to fix it or something like that. I have pretty much been tired all day. Church is pretty early, so I had to get up at 8am and find a ride and get ready and stuff. I kind of zoned out at church a lot and couldn't concentrate, I'll probably read some talks or something later to make up for it.

I am a huge Minecraft fan and have been working on a house for the past few days in the game. Today one of my favorite Minecrafters is doing a live-stream (generikb). I have been listening / watching his live-stream on twitch.tv. I think he is doing it until 8pm GMT or something like that, might be a little off on the time. I will make sure to put pictures of my house when it is finished. I tried live-streaming once on this laptop, my computer can't handle playing Minecraft AND live-streaming it too. It went up to 99 degrees celcius pretty fast. Someday I will definitely live-stream when I have a different computer however.

I went to Costco yesterday and bought new glasses, they should be here in a few days, my family also bought a bunch of groceries. We were getting a bit scarce and most of us have been too busy up until today to shop, so it was nice. I am definitely going to have to stretch my money this month because of my purchase today, I think I will be fine however.

When we were bringing in the groceries yesterday I felt something wet on my shirt when i was carrying the bag of lemons in the house. Being a bit puzzled I lifted the bag up and looked closer and there right before my eyes was a REALLY moldy lemon, it was so unbelievably gross. I laughed at it later, but it made me gag. No one wants moldy lemon juice on their shirt or clothes in general.

My nieces and my sister got back from a weekend camping trip, it seems like they had fun. I haven't been camping in a few years, but I love it. In my church girls from 12 to 18 usually participate in a 4 day camping experience every summer. I went for all 7 years and had a blast every year I went. We played games, roasted stuff over a fire, told stories, learned songs and medical stuff like CPR, went hiking, and a lot of other stuff. I still miss doing that every year, I hope I can get on the planning commitee some day so I can be a camp leader and go again. The camping sites varied, my first year we slept in tents, my second year we slept in these weird triangle cabins that were SO dusty, I hated that one. For the rest of the years I went I went to this really nice camping site with pretty nice cabins that had wooden bunks. Out of all 3 sites i went I think the first one was the best. We had to sleep in tents, but the scenery was beautiful and there were SO many places to explore, it was wonderful. I will have to find pictures sometime for you guys. I have plenty of stories about when i went camping, but I'll save them for another time, no need to tell everything right now! :)

Anyway, it is still pretty early right now, so I'll most likely update this post later, and probably maybe re-post it. :)

Xanga Armageddon

Yes, I know the title is very ominous, but that is what the atmosphere of the site is like right now. It seems like we have already given up. Personally I will be fine either way. If Xanga closes I will be sad, but if it doesn't and it changes I'll be okay with that as well. I understand some of your frustrations, but don't lose heart so fast. I know they have said a lot of things about how things will probably be if they succeed, like there would be paid blogs and stuff. You never know however for sure what will happen if they actually do succeed in getting money. Xanga might change, or it might stay the same, the future, despite what we have been told is still up in the air at this point in time. The fact of the matter is, no one knows what will actually happen at that time. The team has made plans, but plans change with different events, so I see no point in pretending like there is a meteor coming towards Xanga right now. Enjoy it while it is here!

I apologize for my absence this year, I know you guys love reading my blog when I do post. I haven't been around a whole lot this year due to trouble in school and such. It has taken me some time to recover from that nightmare, a whole month in fact. I have been relaxing watching anime and catching up on various TV shows. I've been working on jump starting my DeviantART, have been reading, spending time with family, and playing games like Minecraft and Destiny Online. Don't worry about missing stuff, I can always tell stories about stuff you have missed later. I used to feel quite bad about making you guys wait, but whatever you have missed I can still tell you about.

All this drama reminds me of an experience I had a long time ago. I used to blog on AOL Journals back when they existed. I think that was my first blog I ever had. Sometime around then after a few months I created this account, it wasn't until 8 or so months after I started blogging there however that I created this account. I didn't use Xanga however until a year later. Somewhere in the time I started becoming inactive on AOL Journals and started going on Wordpress, and Xanga and stuff like that I lost EVERYTHING on that blog because AOL Journals had closed and I didn't know about it at all. That was a huge tragedy for me, I am still sad about that to this day. I really hope no one has to go through the same thing I went through. I don't want this place to close because somewhere, someone will come looking for their blog unaware of what has happened to the site. I'm sure if people lose their blogs they will be stressed about it. For me, from my point of view, Xanga possibly changing really isn't as important to me as just preserving people's history.

This is no longer my main blog, even if things disappear you guys will still be able to find me >>> HERE <<<  My blog will always be around, no matter what, it is just in my nature to want to write what I think down, even if i do occasionally disappear (which I know is probably a bad idea to do again because it probably would have helped me with school and staying sane this past semester).

Anyway, these are my thoughts for right now. I will most likely post again later, or tomorrow, or something (who knows).

You guys do your best to have a good day (or night). :)

I usually don't ask this if you guys, but please rec. <3

 

End of the World

So today is supposedly the end of the world or something. I am LDS and we have different beliefs, but that doesn't mean I haven't had fun reading all the news and hype. It's been a lot of fun following all the craziness. I remember back on New Years Eve 1999 I really believed in the Y2K bug. I thought the world was going to end for real back then or something. I was 11 I think back then and was a little ignorant of this kind of stuff. I used to watch the news, and believe in a lot of crazy things like that. I look back on that and I can laugh a lot. 

Since it's past 11:11 now I guess we can all safely say it was a false alarm. I don't think anyone will be able to predict the end of the world. I think the end of the world will be unexpected. I believe in signs, but even with signs it will be up in the air just when it will happen. I believe that God will choose the right time. 

I have taken a liking to The Huffington Post as of late. I like reading their articles, even of them are ridiculous sometmes. I know it isn't the best news site, and a lot of the stuff I read I try not to take too seriously, but it can be fun, and I have other family members that use it as well. I have been following them on facebook for a while, but I never went to their website much. I like how they have a lot of different sections. There is usually at least one thing I am interested in reading. I think my favorite section is the good news section and the weird news section. I loved reading all their articles about the end of the world as well, some of them are really funny.
Today was Ronnie's birthday. I'm not sure what he did today though. I know he went to a concert, but that is pretty much it. I really hope he had a good day today, it is his birthday after all. He turned 28, he is almost 5 years older than me, but that doesn't matter to me in the slightest. I really hope his Christmas holiday in general turns out better than he thinks it will. I wish I could give him more than words, but we live so far away from each other.

We had our yearly ward church Christmas party. I fell asleep and ended up being thirty minutes late however. When I woke up I quickly got ready, got my jacket, and went upstairs. I wasn't worried about being late, but I would have liked to be on time. My dad apparently was at the store while I was asleep and came home with a LOT of groceries. We moved some of the groceries inside before he took me to the party. I don't think I would have been on time to the party even if I had woken up early because of the store trip. 

When I got to the party everyone was just sitting around in various places and talking. Since the party had started a half an hour earlier everyone had already gotten their food and sat down. They had various kinds of soup, and they also had chocolate cake and salad as well. I am not even sure what most of the soups were, but I know they had cream of broccoli, chicken noodle and chili. I had a bowl of the cream of broccoli, it wasn't quite as good as the one my mom makes, but it was still very good tasting. I also got some salad with ranch dressing and chocolate cake. I sat down at a table, but didn't really know anyone at it that much so I moved to an empty table because a lot of the tables were full. Some people at a table asked me if I wanted to join them. I knew a few at the table so I decided to come over there. We just talked an ate, I didn't talk a whole lot, just mostly listened, but I still had a good time at the table. 

After everyone ate they started to walk around the gym the party was in. Only half of the gym was occupied with tables, the other half had tables with candy, sprinkles, gram crackers, and other stuff for making gingerbread houses. The seats were occupied so I just looked at people's houses and snacked on some of the candy there. There was also a table for making ornaments, a table for writing letters to missionaries, and some other table, but I am not sure what that one was for. 


I didn't really feel like doing any of that stuff at the moment so i just watched and walked around and just observed in general. I know that is incredibly boring, but I am just this way sometimes. I was feeling a little jumpy and didn't want to hold still or sit down and do one thing so I just walked around and watched everything that was going on to satisfy my jumpyness. 

After the party was over and everything started to wind down, they let me bring home some of the pretzels (I just noticed I left them in the car as I type this). I just hung around helping with the cleanup a little for a while, and then I called my sister for a ride home. 

I had been playing games and stuff on my phone a lot while I was at the party, but for some reason near the end the 3G signal quit and I couldn't get online, it kind of sucked a little. I tried to get it back, I even went outside when the party was over while I was waiting for my ride, but for some reason the signal wasn't reaching my phone, it was weird. I gave up after a minute and just went back inside and waited. It didn't take long for my sister to get to the church where the party was held, I went back outside right before she got there. 

When I got home I just ate some chips, went back downstairs, and started watching The Lord of the Rings the Two Towers somewhere online. I am usually pretty good at finding stuff I want to watch, I can find almost anything.  I snacked on some of the chocolate I bought yesterday and on occasion went upstairs to see what everyone else was doing. I am just watching old cartoons on youtube and just hanging out. I'm going to wait until tomorrow to watch the third LoTR movie. 

Experimenting

Hey guys I know it has been a week. I have been so wiped out and sore and stuff this past week from all the things i have been doing and from working out. Let me explain what else has been going on first.  I am going to tell you all the things I have been up to but not yet. I need time to type that all out because it is going to be a lot.  I don't want to type it all at once.

So in the past if you have been following me for a while or my previous account hotpinkstarberry, you know that I have had big gaps in my posting sometimes. Since I came back to Xanga over a month ago I have been seeking out solutions to this problem and have been experimenting on new ways of posting. In the past I have just posted at night and typed everything at once. As much as I love to write though, this get's old for me very fast because I have a problem with seeing some things as being chores after a while of repeating them too much. In the past this has been my reason for getting sick of posting. Before this past week you have probably noticed my incredible consistency in posting on my blog. This was able to happen because instead of trying to type up everything at once I typed it as the day went along. I have found that I am a whole lot more patient and have a lot more fun doing it this way and I remember a lot more.

A few days before I went missing again I went back to my old style of posting and you can probably see I got sick of it again. I wanted to compare, so I let this happen. I am back now though.

Now for the other reasons. I have also been working out a lot the past week and this also contributed to my absence. I got super sore as you know and I could not even move my arms very much for a few days.

The third reason is that after I am around a LOT of people I can be a little internally exhausted. I am introverted and my brain works like an introvert. I get really stressed out and tired if I am around a lot of people for a long period of time. This happened on my birthday. I always lose my motivation to do anything social for a few days after a situation like this. I am fine now though.

Anyway this is all I am going to talk about today. I'll have the happenings of last week up until this week up soon.  I have to take it slow though or I'll get impatient again.  Nothing much has happened today. I have just been hanging out doing the usual. I have actually started re-watching the Sailor Moon anime since yesterday. Nothing more of note for today. I'll write more later.

By the way I am going to keep posting regularly while I am working on writing about the last week.  See you guys around. :)

How has Xanga changed or impacted your life?

Well, I guess it's changed my life in the way I actually have at least one place now where I feel like I am not only heard, but that now I have a place that I feel like I can write anything. I feel like I am more able to express myself freely without worry than on other sites or blogs for some reason. I have met a lot of cool people on Xanga and have had many experiences here.

   

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Ultra

i spent a lot of time today on Tetris. I actually beat my old high score on Tetris Ultra twice today. I played a little bit of Arena too on Tetris Friends, played a little on Tetris Battle on facebook as well. I actually ranked down today in arena. I was rank 10, but had 0 points and I lost a game, so i ranked down. It is pretty normal for me to roller coaster between 9 and 10 though, so I'm not worried at all. I really enjoy doing Ultra, Ultra is a mode of Tetris that is 1 player. You just try to score as high as you can in 2 minutes. I really enjoy all the modes, but this one is really good for practice in the 2 player, 6 player, and Arena modes. I suggest if you are reading this and you haven't played on Tetris Friends, or Tetris Battle on facebook you go try it. I have been playing Tetris since I was 3 and the only thing I haven't mastered yet is the T-spin.

 I watched a little bit of Phineas and Ferb today. I didn't get to watch very much Netflix on the TV upstairs today because the remote went missing, and my nieces were watching something before that. My family was using it for the rest of the day watching Kyle XY.

 My mom made tuna casserole today for dinner. She made 2 different kinds. She made a gluten free one, and a regular one. We didn't get to use as much cheese as we usually do because we ran out and we didn't know we were out of cheese. It was still really good as usual however. Everything mom cooks is always great in my opinion. She also made lemon icebox pudding, it was fantastic. I think I had 2 helpings of that.

 I have been manually importing my posts from Xanga to blogger. I have to manually do it because Xanga has no import / export feature. I am doing this because I want to be able to export to Wordpress as well if for some reason i decide to. I am exporting one month of blogs every day. For example: I exported my blog entries from August 2011 today. I'm going to be going backwards from there.  I have blogs on Xanga all the way to 2008.  I still prefer Xanga to any other blogging site, even here. I am even going to be getting my own personal URL there soon. I tend to want to quit blogging when I don't blog on Xanga. I have always had a lot of fun on Xanga despite my occasional lazy moments.

 I changed my theme on Xanga today. I have had that previous orange, yellow, red, and black theme. I figured I would go for something a little cooler this time.  The name of my background is "Swept away". The background came from colourlovers.com. I colored it on my account (Starberry).

 Anyway, I think this is going to be it for today, other than me changing the color of my profile picture after this. It's pretty late and I don't think anything else will happen today.

Guess who's baaack? FAST FORWARD!

So instead of painstakingly going all the way back to August of last year and trying to insert all the blog entries I have missed, instead of writing individual blog posts for each day I have missed and trying to pretend like they were always there I am just going to summarize everything that has happened in the last year since last August when I started being slow about blogging. Here we go.

 

August: I introduced my first baby picture to facebook, cleared up things with Dylan (I was just being dramatic), I wrote a poem called "You Are" which I will show later, I came up with my motto "I float, I fly, but I never touch the ground. I started walking more, I started taking a serious interest in empathy and my empathic abilities, had my mom's and my nieces Birthday, went to Los Harmonos for my nieces birthday, went to the eye doctor (I am still legally blind). I started watching the Twilight zone, I discovered Minecraft, but didn't start playing yet, I went to a back to school church BBQ, I started doing heavy edits on some of my pictures for fun, went to Lagoon (amusement park) with my ward for a church activity, and became really active in Yahoo Answers and Tetris.

 

September: Got into brain exercise sites like Lumosity and others reached my half way point in weight loss, got a haircut, started reading the Glass Mask manga, continued playing Tetris (that never really wore off remember that). I started walking to the store alone, I joined the Hard Drop Tetris community, got interested in doing T-spins in tetris, did some sunset photography, played a giant game of twister with my church mates, I started using this blog, started using Instagram seriously, listened to my first football game all the way through, it was a really great game. saw Darik and Dylan for the first time in 4 months, got into mines and living statues, got into Masterpiece theater anime, got accepted to uVU, became more conscious about my health and stopped drinking pop, did a whole bunch of tests that helped me figure out what I wanted to do, started playing Minecraft, and had my sister's birthday.

 

October: I dressed up as a golden queen for Halloween, I gained a few pounds from candy back, I seriously started playing Minecraft, I bought Minecraft, started exerimenting with night time themed nails, started making custom My little Ponies for fun, got into My Little Pony Friendship is Magic in general, lost my liking for all Zynga games after I started playing Minecraft, decided i did not want long hair anymore, nearly destroyed my other creations in Minecraft when I was just trying to destroy one of them with TNT blocks.  LDS general Conference, I got over a little case of depression and finally decided I wanted to go into Psychology instead of English, my motivation and happiness went up this month in general. I also kicked some bad habits.

 

November: I renewed my subscription to Pandora One, my dad started seriously making bread, a new Tetris app came to the app store, I made my first reading list, celebrated Thanksgiving, started seriously thinking about using my white cane, had my first facebook profile picture that was me as a baby.

 

December: The power went out for a little bit on the first, cut my hair and regretted it, played my first 100 games in a row on Tetris Friends and won exactly 25 of them, also had one of the luckiest games I have ever played. We started remodeling, tore out all 3 bathrooms and re-did all of them, made an extra room downstairs, painted, did new carpeting, got rid of our ugly brick wall downstairs, got rid of the creaks in the floor, got a new storm door, celebrated Christmas with the family and new, years, everyone caught the flu after Christmas except for me, i only for a minor cold and was lucky. Saw Sam and started to think about letting go of him, switched to the new timeline design on facebook, went to a ward, church Christmas party and brought home lots of candy and stuff. Bought muppet Christmas Carol off of iTunes, finished remodeling the house (upstairs only) Got a new bed set, and moved everything back into my room again. We didn't get the Christmas decorations up until the day before Christmas because of the remodeling.

 

January: New Year, Dyed my hair again, did some family pictures with everyone, finished carpeting and everything else downstairs (I remember that we finished this month, not last month). My room was finished last month though, also the upstairs obviously.  Started my first semester of college in almost 4 years, took Student Success, choir, psychology, and 2 institute classes (teachings of the Living Prophets and Dating and Courtship), got a new laptop, got my textbooks, did a brain drawing in psychology, worked in a group successfully in psychology for the first time, got off to a really great start in school. I found my favorite study spot in the library, started going to Jamba Juice regularly on Mondays at school. Started eating at school for lunch, went shopping, lived off of 94 dollars this month it was crazy after all the shopping I did. Had my first conversation with a complete stranger over lunch. When i was crossing a street my phone fell out of my pocket, when i realized it was gone I retraced my steps and found it without a scratch on it. It was a busy street.  Got used to reading Textbooks, and memorized the university campus.

 

February: Got into a show Called "Merlin", pondered how silly Groundhog day really is, finally officially lost interest in Sam, started looking up 5K plans for running, kicked my habit of not drinking enough water, started using the Calorie Count website, went to Cold Stone Creamery and got some Mint Ice cream. Celebrated both my brother's birhdays,  nothing much happened on Valentine's Day except for FHE (family Home Evening) we made valentines, I didn't really make anything that great, I just fooled around mostly and listened to people talk, I think I remember going to the store that day and getting chocolate for fun. I listened to Nightwish's new album for the first time and got hooked on it for a few weeks,  I found out my intense love for stars is called "Astrophillia". Finally got my feelings for Dylan back, I had been numb for a long time after I lost my best friends.  I bought all of Jane Austen's books, joined Pinterest, my ward did a murder mystery night it was fun, and I went back and watched some old Sesame Street videos I liked and thought about the past. I also did some poetry this month but I will post that later. School was doing great this month.

 

March: Got out my old Marble collection and set it out in the open in my room again, bought some Miyazaki films like Nausicaa of the Valley of the Wind,  and the Cat Returns. Had spring break it was kind of borig being out of school.  Started reading the bible but slacked off half way through the month, started looking for 90's cartoons I hadn't seen in years, went to Costco a few times, did not wear green on St. Patricks day due to not having anything green, made a magical girl anime list for some of my friends, bought a digital psychology textbook to help me with memorizing, also bought a 1 year subscription to MyPsychLab. Started eating Sixlets again after a long time, made home made pizza with some friends, I think general conference happened at the end of this month too. I was a little nervous at this time because finals were close in a few weeks.

 

April: Got my own Netflix account, realized how many times i got to text someone but end up not saying anything a lot of the time, started to get a little sad about school ending soon, finished my last homework assignments, did my psychology final, and gave my final presentation in Student Success, did a choir concert, signed up for fall semester classes, got straight A's in all my classes, was a little nervous about the final for psychology at the beginning of the month but it turned out perfect. I finished my psychology final a week earlier than everyone else it was open book and online. Joined Khan Academy, told everyone about my former phobia towards mirrors, finally learned how to take screenshots with my phone. i had never really bothered to learn before. Started jogging / walking a little, but kind of slacked off a little.  Said goodbye to Darik and Dylan for good, it ended really awkwardly which is sad but there is nothing I can do about it now. I'll probably never see them again and even though i do have regrets I will have to deal with it. I learned that expressing myself to them isn't a good idea because they just don't get it. We celebrated Easter and I rally aggravated a few of my teeth with all the candy and nuts. I started using xylitol toothpaste and mouthwash to help my teeth more, before I had been using floride toothpaste and stuff.  Realized that staying inside or inside my room makes me a little crazy and irritable so now I have stopped staying in my room 24/7. one of my friends brought me cupcakes, did a hobo dinner with some friends for an FHE activity one evening it was awesome. We roasted a whole bunch of stuff over a fire and made banana boats as well, we chilled our drinks in the nearby river it was cool. My grades became final, got straight A's for sure.

 

May: Started reading the book of Mormon seriously, went to my brother's graduation, mentioned how I am glad I only have to be out of school for a 3rd of the year, minecraft came to Xbox 360 I do not own an xbox though. I took picture of m goalball trophies and uploaded them to facebook to share with everyone, joined soundcloud, went to seven Peaks a few times, bought a season pass to Seven Peaks,  went to Trafalga with a few of my friends for an FHE activity, went to a party at my friends and swam in her Venice themed swimming pool, also made smoores, and watched a movie as well. went to the Rec Center nearby once,  got my nieces into Phineas and Ferb,  watched Redwall again.  had to cut more branches off our apple tree, found out our next door neighbors are moving.  Got a new wall clock.

 

June (so far): Went shopping for some new clothes, just new shirts. Got a new chair for my room, my family got a new fridge yesterday, I reached episode 85 in Xena, all caught up in Phineas and Ferb again, Made it to Mosiah in the book of Mormon,  Started attending the Temple Prep class in church,  went to Seven Peaks, became really active on Instagram again, roses have bloomed and I took pictures. I went to this place yesterday called the Pizza Pie Cafe and ate pizza, pasta, salad and breadsticks like there was no tomorrow. I also went to a movie (Mirror Mirror) it was fabulous. I had thurch this week, and got all the way to Alma in the Book of Mormon, i reached season 6 in the Xena series, been spending time with my nieces, became really active on Experience Project until someone with a gross picture started following me. I got turned off after that and left. Decided to go back to Xanga, and this is where I am now!

 

I think I am all caught up now. if i forgot anything I will come back and edit this.  Now I can start blogging normally again. :)

 

by the way if you have a blogger also I am also going to be updating that one as well.  (eternalstarryskies)

Moving to Blogger

I will still be on Xanga, but I am not going to be updating again until I get things all set up over there. I'm in for hours of blog post moving since Xanga has no import / export tool. Sorry for my laziness the past few weeks. It seems stuff constantly comes up when I mean to come back and update.  I've been feeling kind of tired and stuff lately. I'm dealing with a lot of stuff lately. I feel really good about this move though, I think it's what i need. I don't like sharing my Xanga with family and close friends for some reason. Blogging on a second site again will bring my spark back and enable my family and friends to read my blog as well. When I am done I will add all the stuff I didn't add on here from the past month. I have already started doing that on my blogger since I am going to be working backwards where post moving is concerned. Newest to oldest is the way I am doing it. 

Anyway there isn't much on my blogger yet, but follow me if you want. I will have all the stuff up pretty soon. I will have the stuff I haven't posted on here on there first since I am working backwards from newest to oldest, so check often.

Here is the link

Starry Skies

Moving Stuff

I will be working pretty hard to move everything here from my Xanga blog. I have been posting on Xanga since 2008, I have quite a few entries on there. I used to also post on Tumblr a while back but quit because they had no adult content filter and I got tired of running into trash. I am not quitting Xanga or anything like that, but moving all my stuff here will enable me to be a little more flexible. Like for example if I ever wanted to start blogging on Wordpress it's really easy to move posts from blogger to Wordpress. You can't do that with Xanga, they have no import tool at all. I am going to have to move my blog posts from there to here 1 at a time. I think it is totally worth the time however though.

I wonder how long it will take, probably 2 days or something like that. Oh well, I guess time is irrelevant when it comes to this issue.

I Wish it Would Never End

So it's been a few days since I started reading a manga called "Glass Mask". From the very first day I started reading it I fell in love with the story line. Glass Mask is about a girl that loves acting, the whole manga is absolutely brilliant in every way, very creative, inspiring and the plays it portrays leave you on the edge of your seat. Today I reached the latest chapter, that is I am caught up in the manga to the most current chapter.

There are 2 things I hate when I am reading a manga. First when one ends, especially when I really liked reading it. The other thing I hate though is waiting for the next chapter to come out. Most of you know the experience of wanting to know what happens next in a book, or TV, it's the same thing here. Lucky for me and other people that read manga that there are a lot of different manga so when I am waiting for the next chapter to come out I can just go read another one.

My sister made chocolate chip cookies today, it's been a while since she did that. She is allergic to gluten, so for a while we didn't do that. I don't know anything about making gluten free cookies, but the ones she made tonight were good. I think I must have eaten like 4 or 5 of them (haha). While in the process of eating the cookies tonight we also dwindled our milk supply down the 0% sadly. I guess I won't be eating chocolate cereal tomorrow for breakfast after all. I guess I'll have to improvise.

Today's sunset brought an impressive display of pink and orange clouds. It was very pretty and yes I did get a picture of course.

Speaking of clouds it did rain a little bit today as well. Some time in the midst of the rain or after it rained Darik snapped a picture of a rainbow on his phone and uploaded it to Instagram. It's a really pretty picture. Here is a link to the picture.

Rainbow Picture

Anyway, the rain made the air smell heavenly, i was outside for about 20 minutes I think taking pictures and smelling the fresh air it was amazing. Sadly I did not see the rainbow that happened for myself, though I wish I had seen it. I think I was inside trying to finish the last few episodes of the "Glass Mask" anime. "Glass Mask" is also an anime by the way.  I did end up finishing it by the way, and it was a really great anime, even though they never did finish it completely.

I know I've been a little absent on Xanga lately. I have trouble with procrastinating a little bit. I seem to be doing that a lot lately, i should really stop. I suppose me starting to blog on blogger as well will open an opportunity to catch up and fill in the blanks on both of my blogs. It wasn't to too long ago actually a few hours ago I started setting up my blog on blogger. I'm really looking forward to having my blog in 2 places at once again. Some of you know I used to blog on Tumblr, but quit because they have no adult content filter and I was tired of running into stuff I did not want to see.

I was thinking of going to Harmon's for fun a few hours ago to get some stuff to eat, I changed my mind though.I was going to get some chicken and potatoes and macaroni and cheese, but I decided to just stick with what I had at home. I think that was healthier than going to Harmon's anyway. I don't think I have been eating healthy today anyway so that was smart.

Anyway, I'm going to go play Tetris for a while before I go to bed. I usually always do that, it helps me sleep better.

I guess that is all for now. Nothing else has really happened today. If I forgot anything I will just mention it in a future post.

Oh, and if you see posts appear that are of an earlier date that means I have begun moving my blog posts from Xanga to here. Pretty soon it will look like I have been blogging on here for the last 3 years. You won't even be able to notice I just made this blog today. :)

A Day Late

I know I'm a day later than I thought I would be. I am still preparing everything so I can post the stuff. I'll get most of it up today, it will probably be later though. I was a little worn out yesterday because I went to sleep late the night before. I probably slept more than I should have in the day yesterday ha ha.

Nothing much happened yesterday or the day before. In fact nothing much happened on Tuesday also besides me starting my diet again though. I'll post about those things later though and put them in their proper places. Monday was fun but I won't spoil it, I'm going to put the pictures and video up later.

I'll update this post as the day goes when I add new stuff. :)

EDIT: Posted the actual entry that I meant to post on Monday. It's below the post where I said I would be coming back yesterday. I still have to add pictures and the video. I fell asleep again earlier today so I didn't get as much done as I meant to. I will add things one day at a time, I decided this earlier. I think if I try to do everything in one day I'll just get lazy again ha ha. I'll get things updated soon, but in the meantime I'll just be posting regularly like I was before. If I add anything I'll make sure to tell you in that post. I still have a few things I haven't posted, I'll stop trying to rush myself though. I still have a problem with procrastination haha. When I rush it just get's worse.

Anyway, today was nice, the weather has been great. I started playing this game on facebook caled "Feevo". it's made by the people that made Tetris, I think it's super cute and fun.

Got my SSI check in the mail yesterday, I'm not longer completely broke yay! Planning on doing my hair again tomorrow, getting my bangs again, dying it and stuff. I miss having them, it's been about 4 or 5 months since I last cut my hair. It's been about two months since I dyed my hair, it has really faded.

Anyway that is all for now. :)

 

Good News!

Yeah, good news. I will be back on the first of the month and I will be adding all the stuff I haven't posted. Quite a few things have been happening since I decided to takea  brak and I have been thinking about what I want to write about.  I am looking forward to a new month! Sorry this is so short. I'll tell you about everything you have been missing when I get back. For now thought I will just leave it like this. :)

Need Some Time

So I was going to post a few days earlier but I need some time to re-charge. I get this way sometimes. I will catch you guys up in a couple days. Sorry for suddenly becoming inactive again over the past 8 days. I wasn't going to do this, but my mind needs some time to re-organize and stuff. I'm sure you will understand. I won't be gone for too long. :)

Nothing that spectacular has happened this week, and I am still taking my time writing about the events of last week. I should have that up really soon. :)

Nothing Much

Today was my mom's birthday. We didn't really do anything but we had hotdogs, and this chocolate dessert, I think it was pudding, not sure though. I didn't eat that stuff, but everyone else did. I'm not breaking my diet until Thursday when I go to the amusement park.

Pretty unventful day today, I have just been reading stuff on Psychology Today's website, and watching anime. I went to church today too as well.

My sister in law came over again with my niece, I am always glad to see her. :)

I really have nothing to say today, Sunday's are sometimes like that for me. I am sure I will have more to tell tomorrow. haha. I didn't want to not post, I guess I could have but I would have felt weird.

I have some thoughts I want to write down, but not tonight. I'll save them for another day.

Updates Are Done

I just finished posting the entries I hadn't posted to Xanga about an hour ago. July5, 6, 9, 12, 13, 16, 18, 21, 23, and 26 are all up now. I will double check my stuff in Google docs later to make sure I didn't forget to post anything. If you ask me I think you should read July 9th's entry, it's pretty long but I worked pretty hard on it.

Nothing much has happened today, I finished watching Star Trek Deep Space Nine though. Most of my day was spent on that, and Xanga.  It's been a pretty nice day today. Nothing else comes to mind right now so I guess this is going to be a short entry. I'm sure now that I am caught up on my entries I will become less lazy about posting.

If I forgot anything I will make sure to add it tomorrow. For now I just want to relax and watch a movie or something.

EDIT: Read "For the Dreamers", and "The Hourglass (time)". as well. July 9th's post is here in case you want a shortcut.

Abandoning Plans

I had this crazy idea today, I was thinking of making a second website. I looked around on Google Search for places where you can build a website. I looked at Webbly, wix, and finally webs.com.

I got started fairly quickly. I started early last night at midnight, actually past midnight. I worked on my home page, told a little bit about myself, and put a picture of myself on the font page. After I woke up today I began uploading pictures, organizing pages, and starting my blog on the website.

The thing is that pretty soon I realized I would have to pay an outrageous amount of money to get more storage space for my pictures and other things. Sure, if I went premium on webs.com I would also get a domain name, and a few other little things but it wasn't really worth it as I soon realized once I compaired to Xanga.  When it came down to it, I wasn't satisfied with the fact that they had no unlimited photo uploading. That alone made it so I didn't feel like making another website anymore. I suddenly started to realize that Xanga has a lot more to offer, and it's cheaper, and easier to manage than a website from scratch.  I don't plan on going on webs.com anymore. I think, if I remember correctly, I might have tried that website before. I see I don't like it any more this time than last time.

Anyway, so I've pretty much solidified the fact that I'm probably never going to be more satisfied with another website like I am with Xanga. I've been on here for a long time now.

Accent Challenge

Forgive me for not doing a vlog! I am not to fond of cameras right now (being in front of them). I will do one for you sometime in the future, just not now.

 

Hope you guys liked it! :)