Moving Like the Wind

       Someone once told me that every person has a red sting of fate. This string of fate starts at the heart and leads to the heart of the person they are fated to be with. I wonder where my red string of fate leads sometimes. I think I have figured it out, but life is so unpredictable that I have no idea what kind of road it is going to throw me onto sometimes. I have a feeling that someday soon my life is going to find itself on another crazy road, but I know I can make it just fine. I have always been a strong person even if it took me a while to figure this out. I have always thought of myself as a phoenix. I am always reborn from the ashes of defeat no matter what. Every time I rise from those mystical silver ashes I become stronger and stronger. I want to spread my wings with someone else someday. I believe everyone has a soul mate, it’s just some of us don’t know where to look sometimes.

My attachment to the sky has gotten even stronger as of late. This is probably because Ronnie loves the sky as much as I do. No matter where we might be, no matter how far, the same sky connects us. No one can take this sole fact away from us. He is the moon in the sky and I am the sea. When he is happy I am happy, and when he is sad I always feel like I have to do something in order to fix it. If I had the power I would do so much more for him than I have. If I knew how to live on my own I probably would have moved closer to where he is already. Apart from my family I don’t really have any strong attachment to very many people over here. I know someday I will get the chance to spread my wings, and when that day comes he will be the first person I fly to. I want the question answered, and I want to know if he is the one for sure. I hope fate will allow our strings of fate to cross someday. Knowing that he has been a lot happier lately has really made me feel a lot lighter. I hope he can hold onto his new found happiness and find the right path for himself.

I feel like I have been a lot more balanced today, both in body and in mind. I noticed it when I went to my yoga class at school for the last time today. We had a two hour class where we went through all the poses in the primary series. We did all the standing poses, the seating poses, and the closing sequence. It took us about an hour and 45 minutes to do everything. When I first came to the class at the beginning of the semester I couldn’t even touch my toes, but now I can put my hands underneath my feet now. I have gotten more fluid and focused and I have mastered the breath we use. I am nowhere near being perfect at the poses in the primary series, but I have improved a lot this semester. It was nice to be able to go through all the poses. We have never got all the way through because the class has always been too short. Usually the class is only an hour, so we have only gotten to do so much every day. I came out of class today feeling very relaxed and energetic. I am going to miss my class, but my teacher teaches at a studio somewhere near here, so I am probably going to get a membership at the studio he teaches at some time soon.

My morning was normal, I just hung out and did my usual, got dressed for yoga, listened to music, read a little, watched some anime. I had 3 tangerines for breakfast. You aren’t supposed to eat very much, if at all before yoga usually. I get carsick on a completely empty stomach though, so I had to eat at least that much. I have an incurable addiction to tangerines. I went an hour early to school and just walked around campus before yoga. I didn’t want to get thirsty during class, so I walked to the school store and bought a Sobe Lifewater. I walked to my yoga class right after this. I always like to be early for yoga so I can get a good spot. I put everything I brought except for my jacket and my purse outside the door of the classroom, grabbed a mat and went in. I carefully wiped off my mat with a Clorox wipe, wrapped my purse in my jacket, and then did some stretches and waited for class to start.

After class I was starving, so I decided to go out to eat. There is this place called “Rocking Robbie’s” on campus that I have taken a liking to. Today was only the second time I have gotten food there. I can’t believe what I have been missing by not eating there. Last time I went there last Friday it was the first time I went there. I had no idea what to expect, but the food sounded good. I ordered a grilled chicken sandwich combo with a strawberry shake last time, and this time I ordered the crispy chicken combo but I didn’t get a shake this time.

They always take a few minutes to prepare your food and it always looks and tastes good. Their shakes are made fresh and have big slices of fruit in them, and they always taste great. I have been to a lot of fast food places, but this one is probably the best one I’ve been to so far. I am not very big on fast food, so this is really saying a lot.

Anyway, today was much like yesterday. My parents had another tabernacle choir rehearsal and I just chilled at home and watched anime and made the best of my time. I am going to have to pick up my book again later sometime, it is getting interesting. In high school I was pretty famous for always carrying a book with me. I love to read a lot, and I think I haven’t been reading nearly as much as I should lately. I have a nice long list of books that I need to read and I intend to finish it off.

I went upstairs today and my sister was watching Star Trek again, it is a pretty common thing here for me to go upstairs and find it on all the time. I grew up watching Star Trek, I am also a big fan of it. I have to admit I still need to watch the original one. I miss the days when Star Trek was on, it was always such a big thing for my family. We never seem to get bored of Star Trek.

I know one of these days I’m going to need to do something other than just sitting around and watching anime and reading, but for now it’s nice.

Updates Are Done

I just finished posting the entries I hadn't posted to Xanga about an hour ago. July5, 6, 9, 12, 13, 16, 18, 21, 23, and 26 are all up now. I will double check my stuff in Google docs later to make sure I didn't forget to post anything. If you ask me I think you should read July 9th's entry, it's pretty long but I worked pretty hard on it.

Nothing much has happened today, I finished watching Star Trek Deep Space Nine though. Most of my day was spent on that, and Xanga.  It's been a pretty nice day today. Nothing else comes to mind right now so I guess this is going to be a short entry. I'm sure now that I am caught up on my entries I will become less lazy about posting.

If I forgot anything I will make sure to add it tomorrow. For now I just want to relax and watch a movie or something.

EDIT: Read "For the Dreamers", and "The Hourglass (time)". as well. July 9th's post is here in case you want a shortcut.

Saying Goodbye Sucks

So it's been about 2 and a half weeks since my sister and my nephew came here to visit. Today they left, it was pretty sad. I had been dreading this day for the past few weeks because my nephew is so cute and I love it when my sister comes here.

It's been really nice having them here. My nephew is so cute, he has these bright blue eyes, and he just started walking. It's fun to watch him walk around and interact with people and toys. He takes 3 naps a day, he slept in my parent's room for the first few days because they were on Tabernacle Choir Tour. Once the got him though my sister and Jax started sleeping in my other sister's room. Sometimes my sister would being him downstairs to the place we made into a little living room. We had toys downstairs and he would walk around saying hi to everyone and was being so cute. I have gotten used to having him here so when he had to go it was really weird.  I already miss when he would talk to people, make noise, and interact withe the TV, that was really cute.

Anyway, so today has been pretty dull for the most part. Earlier I said goodbye to my sister Jax, and Justin. We all gave each other hugs and said goodbye. I remember the defining silence that ensued in the house after they left, it was SO quiet, and a little creepy as well.

I just went back downstairs like usual and did my thing. I have been starting to watch Star Trek again the past few days. I am currently on TNG, I'm actually saving the original series for last. It's been fun watching it again.

Other than that I just did the usual, read, listened to music, surfed facebook, got on Destiny Online, talked to friends, etc.

I am still typing up the entry about my ward activity, I don't know how long that is going to take me to finish. It should be up by the time I get this entry up finally though. it should be right below this one if you see it. I type all my entries in Google docs first because sometimes I don't have time to post them right then, or I feel a bit lazy.  I should really work on that bad habit of procrastinating ha ha.

I mostly kept to myself most of the day, going upstairs only about 3 times to eat something.  It is really weird without my nephew being here.

You haven't really missed much between the time I got home from my ward activity, and today. Just the usual has been happening, family stuff, hanging around the house, etc.  I'm really hoping to go to Harry Potter when it comes out, I hope I don't have to wait long.

Anyway, I guess that is all for now. Knowing how lazy I feel right now I probably won't post this for a couple more weeks probably. Sorry if that really does happen. I will make sure to change the date on the entry and put it in it's proper place though. I like things to look natural like that.