Self Image

Today I did another video. This time it was about self image and how my eyesight affects this.

Last night someone from work asked me to cover for them for just two hours today. i gladly accepted because I needed as much time as I could. More work hours means more work experience and I really want that. I helped make cinnastix and cleaned up a bit, it wasn't too busy. I did accidentally give myself eyestrain when i was making the sticks though. I sometimes forget to relax my eyes when I get occupied and that causes me to have eyestrain sometimes. It happens if I am reading for a long period of time as well when I am not careful. Other than that Mikayla was at work today, I'mjust mentioning this because she was actually closing for Coldstone today. I thought that was interesting because she used to work for Coldstone a few years back for 5 years. I guess I'm not surprised they would let her do that. They usually don't let us work on both sides, but I guess her experience makes her the exception.

Anyway, nothing much more than this to tell. If i forgot anything which happens sometimes because I am a bit of a space case I'll talk about it in another post. :)

White Cane Tips and Customization

Continuing the subject of my eyes, I talked more about the tips that go on my white canes.

those mint brownies I brought home last night were a complete hit. They were gone by this afternoon. I really want to get more sometime. I didn't do much today, I just hung out at home and took it wasy pretty much.

Talkin Bout Eyes Again

I know I've been going off and on about this subject for a while, but every once in a while sometimes I just feel like ignoring my eyes. I feel like ever since I went to California two years ago to visit Linda I have been avoiding my vision and my white cane. It's pretty easy for me to do that because I am only legally blind and I function very well.

My vision is a very important thing however. I have n plans on dwelling on it again, but sometimes it is nessicary to talk about it so people understand. I don't talk about it too much though because even if I want you to understand it, I don't want to make a big deal out of it. Here is the video I did today. I talked about my vision and my white canes. I don't use my cane mostly because I actually don't need it most of the time and using it gives me anxiety because I don't like the attention I get.

Anyway, other than that I got my basic doctor visit doe today. Mom needed something signed and we couldn't get it signed by my doctor unless if I had an appointment. Basically I usually never go see him because I've never needed to. I had my blood checked too though I'm pretty sure everything will be fine. I'm not afraid of needles, so I just watched the nurse stick it into my arm and draw blood. To me medical stuff like that is fascinating. It was a pretty simple visit. Blood pressure, heart and lungs, questions, etc.

I was going to go hiking with my ward today, but it started getting cloudy and then the rain came, so we decided to cancel. We are going to go up to Stuart Falls some other time. We went to the bishops house instead tonight, watched basketball, played pool, other games, and ate snacks. Bishop Luke got some brownies and ice cream from BYU Creamery. I love mint brownies, but I also love the fruit snacks he got as well. The ice cream was Tin roof Sundae and the second one was vanilla. I didn't watch basketball much, but I did talk to people and play pool. I actually think billiard games are pretty fun. The rain stopped while

Anyway, so I brought home one of the boxes of brownies and a couple packages of fruit snacks after we were done. Two of the brownies out of nine are already gone, so those are a hit at home. I'm just going to relax and play games until I go to sleep. Today was an interesting day and i can't wait until we reschedule the hike.

Southern Banana Pudding

Tonight we had southern banana pudding. We celebrated Kayla's (Paul's wife) birthday which is actually tomorrow. We just find it easier to get together on Sunday so we usually do this for birthdays. Southern banana pudding is basically pudding, bananas and vanilla wafers layered. It's so good and I recommend you try it. I think the pudding flavor is banana.

For dinner we had texas beef skillet with chips and cheese. There was a salad, but I only like salad for lunch so I skipped out. I took a nap earlier and went to church of course. It was just another relaxing Sunday.

Card Declined

Today wasn't as busy as I thought it would be. R.C. Willey was serving free hot dogs and drinks today before work. This Saved me the trouble of having to look for lunch. I had Western Family Magic Stars cereal for breakfast. It's a generic brand of Lucky Charms pretty much. I was a bit stumped on breakfast and so I did that as a last resort. I wasn't looking forward to having to think up lunch later, so what happened was good.

We probably sold a bit faster today at work than we usually do, but other than that it was pretty quiet. I got hungry again pretty fast though. It was so hard not buying something from work for my shift. We just did normal stuff today like roll out rolls, keep stuff stocked, dishes, and other stuff. It felt like time slowed down today though. It rained during my shift and I wonder how this affected the people at Summerfedt because it stopped by the time I got there later. I guess I'll never know, though I bet if someone was selling umbrellas they got a lot of customers.

I think I was excited to get off my shift for the first time ever. I think it was the combination of how slow the last hour of my shift was and me being hungry. I actually almost asked if I could leave early, but I got through somehow.

Today the owner of Cinnabon here in Utah stopped by. There is really only one in Utah and that is ours. I was out cleaning tables and stuff in the lobby and he noticed that there were no classic rolls out in the display. He tried telling me this, but I wasn't looking at him at the time so I didn't register who was talking to me. I was daydreaming and didn't realize that I accidentally ignored him. I thought he was just a customer and so I didn't say anything to him and walked by. I thought he was just a normal customer and let someone else reply because they were talking care of it. When he was leaving he asked me if I knew he was the owner and I said yes. He then told me to not walk past him when he is talking to me and I actually was really confused and at the time I had no clue what he was talking about. I half thought he was joking actually. I plan on apologizing via text as soon as possible.

After work the fun started. Well, half of what happened was more dramatic and exciting than fun. It all started after work when I tried to purchase a center of the roll and an Oreo chillata from work. I was buying it but for some reason my card was declined. I was confused and I tried it 3 separate times. I was actually worried at this point as well and when I called mom to see if she was picking me up I told her about what happened. She was worried too at this point and so when she picked me up we checked my bank account. At first I thought everything was okay, but I looked more closely at the two top charges. They were for $9.47 at the Channel Inn. Channel inn? I had no idea what that was. I googled it and found out it's an actual inn and not just something I forgot I purchased under an unrecognized name. Funnily enough that did actually happen to me once.

I called the bank after telling mom I thought it was suspicious. Plus it was from today and I had made no purchases today. I got it straightened out, confirmed other purchases and am planning on taking extra safety measures in the future. The guy I talked to got me through everything over the phone really smoothly. It's going to be kind of annoying not having a card for a few days, but it is probably for the best. I need to use cash more anyway.

Later tonight I went to Summerfest with Laura, Natalie and Kayla. The rain made it a little chilly this evening, but not too much. It had stopped by the time I got off work and so we didn't have to worry about it there. Laura and Kayla rode on the spinning strawberries, Natalie and Kayla rode on the Sizzler, and Natalie and Ben rode on the Ferris wheel. I didn't go on anything because I was too hungry to want to. I did enjoy watching all the different color changing lights on the sizzler ride. Each line took a long time, at least a half an hour. Ben met up with us when I was in the line with Natalie for the Ferris wheel. I let Ben go with her and I went to Laura and Kayla and waited for them at the strawberry ride. The fireworks were going on during this time and they missed some when they were on the ride. Natalie and Ben got on the Ferris wheel just in the nick of time because it closed soon after that.

We went to a nearby McDonalds after everything was done. I had a chocolate sundae, chicken nuggets and a chicken sandwich. The food wasn't bad. I usually hate McDonald's but for tonight it was okay. We went home after this.


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Holding it Up

Wow, today at work was crazy.

My day started out just like any other. I slept in today, cleaned up for work and went to Costco with mom after playing some games on my phone. I was going to go some other places with mom before work, but we had to take our groceries home before we went anywhere else so i decided to stay behind and walk around the mall. I had grilled cheese at Melty Way today. I got pepperjack cheese, pesto sauce, and chicken. This is my favorite combination. I ate this right before I went to work. The drink was lemonade.

When I got to work 3 minutes later I realized that Jan was the only one there. I was expecting someone else to show up, but no one did. There was a lot of work to do, this became aparent just by looking around. Jan asked me to roll out some cinnamon rolls and seeing that there were none in the display besides some mini cinnamon rolls and none in the proofer I knew I had to be speedy. I'm not the fastest roller at work, but I got the job done in decent time. I started out with 4 classics and two minis.. Each dough sheet does two pans of six classics. To do the minis you just cut the dough sheet in half and roll them up separately. Rolling, buttering, cinnamon, proofer, and oven. That is the basic gist of how we made them. The minis are 18 in each pan and one dough sheet makes two pans. Or at least I think it's 18, I don't pay attention. I felt very much in control and like I was holding things up and it felt so good.

Anyway, after rolling I helped with some other things like customers, making samples, putting together the cups of cinnastix, restocking the dough sheets in the fridge, and later making packs of rolls with Miranda when she got there. It was exhausting work but I loved every miinute of it. Miranda and I did some more rolling after we did the boxes. I think e got along really well today which makes me happy. Oh, and the person that didn't show up (I forgot her name) couldn't come today because she had to take her son to the hospital or something. I did pretty great today and I'm very proud of myself. i got to stay an hour later than i usually work. Mom came in and I told her I was going to do more rolling. Orem Summerfest is going on tomorrow and today so we had to work extra hard today of course. I guess we are selling rolls tomorrow at the parade or something. I'm not sure exactly what, but something like that. I thoroughly enjoyed this shift and I hope tomorrow is just as good. I was so ready to go home hen I was finally off work though.

I hung out at R.C. Willey and was going to get a drink there, but the cafe closes after 7pm I guess. I did random stuff on my phone sitting in a comfy chair until mom and dad picked me up. I knew I was hungry, but didn't know what I felt like eating at the time. I thought about making a banana or orange shake, but ended up eating the last piece of pizza from Monday. That was good enough I guess.I was tempted to make a banana split as well, but decided not to. I am just finishing watching Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix right now.

UPDATE: I caved. haha.
Banana slices, vanilla ice cream, chocolate, butterscotch, caramel, marshmallow sauce, nuts, and whipped cream. Marshmallows on the side.

Live Streaming Fun

I was planning on staying home and not doing much. I was true to my spontaneous nature today though. It's actually all a bit of a fast blur though. I got ice cream right after I go to the mall. I got it from Farr's Fresh Ice Cream. I like Coldstone, but I find that Farr's gets their flavors a little more accurate. I got a waffle cone with licorice and root beer ice cream swirled. I had marshmallow on the bottom because I love that one too. I put coconut on the top and it tasted good actually! I got an herbal tea passion lemonade from Starbucks after this. That just sounded so good at the time. Before I went to the mall I went to Harmon's and walked around while I was waiting for the bus. There was this woman that was giving out samples of hummus and crackers. I loved the spicy one, it was Boarshead brand. Im going to probably go back for it sometime. This somehow made me crave Cafe Rio and even though my plans changed, that was my first plan. I love their food so much. When I got to the mall it was so hot that I just had to change my mind.

I decided to try out the live stream function on Facebook. I wanted to see if it is worth using and I'm pretty sure that it is! I didn't get a whole lot of viewers, but it was still fun because the people that did watch it are some of the people I consider to be true friends. I just walked around town and went to Barne's & Noble and stuff. It was rather random. I did do another live stream when i was walking back home after riding the bus home, but no one watched it, so I just decided to delete it from facebook. I Did get chicken strips, potato wedges, mac & cheese, a cookie and V8 juice before I went home because I wasn't sure if there was going to be dinner. Most of us were gone today so I decided to not chance it. I haven't done much since I got home, just been watching Netflix. I think I am really sick of sugar now after today. I might give it up for a few days. I am not even going to try to do it permanently because I always mess up when i do that.

Questions & Answers

There is this new social network named Kiwi. It is basically built around asking people questions and answering questions. You can upload photos with your questions and make status updates. It's a pretty simple and I've been having fun on it. I still prefer more professional websites like Yahoo Answers, but for now it's okay. I've already answered around 100 questions since yesterday. Some people get creative.

Today was another laid back day. I don't know why but like I think I've said before this week just seems to be perfect for staying home. I went to the store and got some Q tips and cereal and looked at all the cleaning supplies. I realized I probably don't know enough about them to really be buying any. I think I should just leave that to mom primarily. Today was blistering hot and I'm surprised I even had the motivation to go to the store. My favorite Western Family brand cereal "Magic Stars" was on sale today so that is the one I got.

I ate 3 pieces of pizza for lunch. I don't intend on ever repeating that again in the future. I love pizza, but I can get a bit reckless with it. Same thing goes for sandwiches and burritos. It's so easy to overdue those types of foods. Oh yeah, and pasta, can't forget that one. We had tuna sandwitches for dinner tonight and I can tell you right now I am so sick of sugar and am glad I had something different. I had marshmallow ice cream for breakfast. I am crazy with my food choices sometimes. I have a bag of starlight mints next to me on the left as I type this but I don't think I'll touch them tonight. That is almost unheard of since I eat at least one every day. I love them so much.

Maybe I'll go make some herbal tea... hmm...

Solving Cases

I've been playing Criminal case on my phone and on facebook since yesterday. I don't really think it's for everyone obviously. The game is a murder mystery game and has a lot of detail like blood and stuff. I grew up watching murder mysteries and have never been all that blood squeamish at all. I love mysteries and even better I love solving them, so the game is appealing to me. I have somewhat of a hero complex I guess. I love defending people whenever I can. I would have loved to be a surgeon, a police officer, or something like that if my vision was better. I think that helping people through psychology is also a heroic career too and so I haven't strayed too far from my dream.

I would have loved being a super hero.

I went to the store today for breakfast and got chicken and rice soup, a roll, an M&M cookie and some pineapple juice. I nearly left my soup at the register. I've done that once before in the past though I don't think I wrote about it. I think it's pretty funny that I didn't notice.

Hmm, let's see what else happened today... I started cleaning out the photos on my phone though I didn't get very far to be honest. I watched a few more episodes of this show called "Good Witch" though I am starting to think it's incredibly boring. I just mostly have it running in the background if I do want to play it. The show is fine if you are doing something else and perhaps even more interesting when you are only listening to the audio but it's hopelessly dull if you actually try to watch it. I like having background shows every once in a while. I usually like having something playing in the background a lot of the tie when I am playing a game or something. Though it usually isn't netflix to be honest. I usually play Harry Potter or something. I really do need to get more audio books.

Three Boxes of Pizza

Today I started catching up on this blog again. Some of you might read this far enough into the future that you won't even realize that I quit writing for 2 and a half months. This is because when I do that now I go back and fill everything in to the best of my abilities. I just really cherish my memories and they get lost in the chaos of my busy mind a lot. That is why I do this pretty much. That, and I am pretty much a mysterious person and this helps people understand me.

I went to Jamba Juice, and to do some Tax stuff with mom. I made an appointment with my doctor because for one I haven't seen him for around two years, and mom needs him to sign something. I kind of figure even though I don't really need to see him all that much I can at least do my normal check up once a year like I should. Every doctor deserves to see and easy healthy patient. Like I said before I went to Jamba Juice and got a fruit bowl. I don't really know what they used in the smoothie part of the bowl, but it was bright purple with bananas, granola, coconut, blueberries, and strawberries.  I also got a pretzel and both things were pretty great.

Later tonight I went to a stake party where we played various lawn games and ate pizza. There was blue Gatorade as well and even though I don't really believe it's healthy I did drink quite a bit. That stuff really is great when it is ice cold. I won a nike sack pack from a raffle and didn't play any games really. I would normally play games, but today for some reason I've just felt like relaxing and walking around and stuff. I just wanted to be laid back and relaxed. This week for some reason just seems like the perfect week for that. I'm really not eager to go anywhere this week actually. I suspect this is because I did so much last week.

I brought home three whole pizzas after the activity, I'm sure my family will thank me later. There was so much pizza and they were literally telling people to take whole boxes and so I did. I brought home a pepperoni, a cheese, and a Hawaiian pizza.

Match Three

Today was a very chill day full of naps and watching stuff on Netflix. I did go to church of course and I've been having trouble with falling asleep and not concentrating again. I really need to work on that. I really do love church, it's just never been easy to listen. I actually don't remember even a week in my life when I was able to completely do it. I guess that is what happens when you are a chronic daydreamer. i think now that I am an adult I can do something about it.

We had hamburgers and I made chocolate pudding tonight. I love Sunday because we seem to have our best dinners on Sunday. I am just going to go back to playing games on my phone after this. I've been playing Bejeweled Stars, Angry Birds Pop, and Angry Birds RPG. I might get rid of the RPG maybe, it is fun, but I'm a bit tired of match three games. Bejeweled makes it fun, but others are just really annoying.

I've been a bit preoccupied with cleaning this week. I am always careful to not let myself go to OCD level though. I used to be really unhygienic and I've realized how gross I've been. I guess the realization has been a little bit of a shock and so my brain is going crazy with realization. I would be stupid if I listened to the part of me that wants to try and protect everyone from germs. I am a hyper aware person, so I had to make sure to squash that from the start. I know that they are everywhere and that there isn't any way I can protect everyone from everything.

Anyway, that is all for now. 

Will Against Willl

Today was one of those days where I felt like I had to assert my will a little more. I didn't really talk that much as usual, but asserted myself more in action. Today wasn't all that busy at work and I did what I could but there was this moment where I had to make it clear I am not going to give anyone a reason, especially my fellow employees to want me to leave. I had to get crative after Elis suggested that I leave when we weren't all that busy. I promptly decided that I would tell her no and that I would also find something to do. It is my job and there are plenty of things to do. Thankfully Jan made it so I can get creative on quiet days. I will miss having her as a manager. I always like to make sure that I don't get stuck standing around doing nothing. Basically I cleaned the windows and the bathroom and organized the stuff on top of the shelf above the sink we clean the dishes in. I always find that there is something to clean at Cinnabon, it is a food service place after all.

I don't think very many people realize that there really isn't any way you can really run out of things to do. Sometimes this means getting into things you don't want to do. This is from my viewpoint of course, but I think I may be willing to do some things that other people I work with aren't. I don't mind getting dirty and cleaning everything. That makes me wonder what the bottom of all the tables look like at work. I've never thought about that and typing this makes me wonder. I think I'll make a point to look next week when I am there. Anyway, sometimes it can be hard to work with some people. I am pretty quiet and I feel like my personality clashes with people. Maybe they don't know what to do, or what to say around me. I am pretty much aware that I am most likely misunderstood by people at work. Thankfully Elis is the only person I've ever had anything like an argument with. It wasn't really an argument I guess, more like a minor squabble. Our wills and personalities seem to clash a  little. A couple of weeks ago we disagreed about whether or not it is mandatory to put receipts in the bags of people that buy packs of rolls. I still insist that I am right and we should always put receipts in the bags of people that buy rolls but I'm not going to argue with anyone, especially Elis. I am right, but causing a stir just isn't worth it in the end. I can always put them in when I do it and that is what I'm going to do for sure. Jan said we should do it at the last meeting we had in march and no one is going to convince me otherwise. We decided to do this because it makes people with complaints easier to deal with and provides proof of purchase. With roll packs this is important.

Honestly, sometimes I feel like people at work don't take me seriously which is both sad and annoying.

Not much to tell other than this today. I just went to Costco with Mom today and ate samples before work.We also went to a jewelry shop to get some of her stuff repaired. it was fun looking at all the fancy stuff and seeing what her jewelry was made of and stuff. Also, my phone is still okay from yesterday thankfully. Hopefully the broken ear speaker should be fixed soon. The water dive from yesterday didn't do anything thankfully.

New Work Shirts!

today when I went to work I was pleasantly surprised to see we got new work shirts! Also I got another check this week. Sometimes instead of every two weeks we get checks a week apart. It really depends on the positioning of the month.

I like the new shirts better. They are more comfortable and I love the colors and the design on the back. Today was a good day at work. i got to roll some rolls out, clean, help customers, more of the usual. Today I was working with Mcayla (I might be spelling that wrong cause I don't pay attention much). Out of anyone she is probably the person I enjoy working around the most. I actually like working with her and she is easy to talk to. I don't feel like such an outsider when we work together. People like her are one of the things that make me like this job so much. I just felt like I should be honest about that. I'd go crazy if i didn't have people like her to work with. I love the job, don't get me wrong, I just don't have the best relationships with my coworkers as I've stated before in the past. I feel awkward a lot of the time. I definitely have bad days and good days.

I also got a new hat at Harmon's today, though I'm going to wait until Sunday to show it. I went out for bratwurst just outside of the store. I love bratwurst, and they gave me chips and a cookie as well. The sad thing came after when I found out that the ear speaker on my phone is broken so I can't haer people when they talk to me. the speaker at the bottom works fine so i can still use speaker phone, but I want to get it fixed. Everything works just fine. I'm kind of worried I might have broken the ear speaker when I was cleaning it off with soap yesterday. I was really careful, but I guess not careful enough. That is nothing compared to me dropping it in the toilet tonight though. So much panic went through me and I thoroughly cleaned everything and dried everything. My phone is okay thankfully, I also used the cool setting on my blow dryer which comes in handy by the way.. The only parts I didn't get to clean were the headphone jack and the charger port, but I think I'll be okay. It'd probably be dumb to try and put soap or disinfectant in those areas. I was moving stuff around the counter and accidentally knocked it off somehow I guess. I am usually pretty careful about not dropping it or knocking it off of places. I guess it had to happen once though.

Anyway, I'm going to leave it at this for today. I've shown you the thing I primarily wanted to show so I'll leave it like this.

Bathing Suit Hunt

I was going to go to the gym today, but changed my mind and decided to go look for a bathing suit instead. I was tired of the red one I have and wanted something that was simple and a two piece. There was a few one piece's at Big 5 Sporting goods that I liked, but I decided later after trying them on today for a second time that I wanted something different. I searched in quite a few places today. Sports Authority, H&M, Macy's, and probably 5 other stores. i finally ended up getting one from Walmart. i even made a trip to Target. I also originally wanted something colorful, but I don't like any of the current patterns this season. Black is good enough for me for now. I might get another suit, whi knows, not yet though.

I originally packed the duffel that Tim gave me to go to the gym, but changed my mind and brought my sack pack instead. I know I said that it kind of annoys me, but for today I am glad I brought it instead. I can try out the gym duffel that Tim gave me yesterday some other time. I had fun going out in the sun and getting a tan. Also when I was first going out I forgot to fill my water bottle and so before searching for a swimsuit besides in Big 5 Sporting goods I tried looking for one of those drink machines that has all those drink options. I wanted vitamin water really bad. I eventually found one after searching for one in Wendy's, Arby's, Arctic Circle, and a couple of other places. I remembered that Firehouse Subs had one and they have great sandwiches anyway, so I ate and drank there for lunch. I got the lemon flavored vitamin water. That stuff is pretty good and it's ingredients are pretty good.

I almost got that missing math book that I've been meaning to get for a while, but I decided to wait another couple of weeks. I want my money to build up a bit more.

Anyway, I've been watching Phineas and Ferb, we also had Turkey burgers and veggies for dinner tonight. It was a pretty great day today, though I definitely have a sunburn for sure.

Gym Bags

It's been a while since I went shopping for a gym bag. Today after dong some cardio at the gym I decided instead of going home I was going to do a lot of window shopping. Today I window shopped for three things. A bathing suit, shoes and a gym bag. In the end I didn't end up buying anything today because Tim got me a free gym bag / gym duffel. I do have a great idea of what shoes and swim suit I want. There is this blue, green and pink bathing suit at Big 5 Sporting Goods that I am thinking of getting, or the black, orange and pink one. I haven't decided for sure. I am going to go shopping again tomorrow and see if I can make any solid decisions. I also found these really cute yoga mat themed shoes that are apparently very popular, and some glittery sandals. I will get pictures some other time. I'm pretty sure I'm going to get those sometime. Before Tim told me that he could get me a free gym bag I almost got a red Under Armour brand one. The one I got from Tim tonight is a green Adidas one.

 Today at the gym I just ran, weight training and spent time in the sauna. I kept it simple.

Anyway, other things that happened today. I found out that eating carmel pretzel NuGo protein bars isn't a very good idea unless if you like having trouble chewing things. The bar was good, but I had the hardest time biting off pieces. It's covered in chocolate, so it makes it messy as well. I don't know, I suppose if someone has better teeth than I do it'll be fine, but for me it just doesn't work. Because of my four prosthetic front teeth it is kind of hard to bite into sturdy stuff like that.

After I was done doing things out and about I went home, but ended up getting some chicken and rice soup, a roll and some pineapple juice for dinner from the store. I don't think anyone really felt like making dinner tonight.