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Tuesday, July 26, 2011

For the Dreamers

I just wrote this song a few minutes ago. I hope you guys like it. I want to hear your opinions! I was listening to Freedom Call, it is my favorite band and it just came to me. I often get inspiration when listening to music.

EDIT: I should also add that this is by no means the final version of the lyrics, I would not spoil it like that. I'm probably going to have to change around the words a little so I can properly fit to a good piece of music.  I will make sure it is even better than it is now. :)

© 2011 - Liahna

 

Blessed dreams of night

ignite my imagination, see me take flight

the fires within me soar into the skies

my spirit escapes me, no more confinement

once blackened by nightmares

the light of heaven now shines

the iron chains that once bound me

now loosed for all time

my wings spread into eternity

watch me soar into the sky

into the starlight night

I embrace the skies

watch me fly, let my dreams take flight

 

Nightmare be no more

I hear the song of eternity

calling my name once more

Chains of iron bound me

hellish nightmares confined me

no more no more

I will soar into eternity

into the land of dreams

become what I want to be

I will soar into eternity

into the land where there are no boundaries

there is no return, there is no return

I am a dreamer, this is where I belong

 

I watch the sunrise a thousand times

ever changing, never fading

a glittering fantasy lies before us

cast off the veil of lies

there are no boundaries

we can be what we want to be

a glistening diamond called eternity

waits for us, she wants to set us free

lead us to the path of dreams

across the rainbow, beyond the seas

into the sun kissed clouds

spread your wings and believe

fly on the wind of hope

dream on dream on

forget your fears, forget your tears

euphoria awaits you, just believe

 

Nightmares are no more

I hear the voice of eternity

calling my name once more

chains of iron bound me

hellish nightmares confined me

no more no more

I will soar into eternity

into the land of dreams

become what I want to be

I will soar into eternity

Into the land where there are no boundaries

there is no return, there is no return

I am a dreamer, this is where I belong

 

beyond the stars, beyond the desert

across the void of mind and thought

I see the light I see the light

I hear her song, the sun lit song

calling my name, I soar beyond

cast off the chains, evolve

hear destiny calling, have faith believe

soar on, soar on, take flight

take the hand of eternity

find your endless dreams

 

Nightmares be no more

I hear the song of eternity

calling my name once more

chains of iron bound me

hellish nightmares confined me

now they're gone, now they're gone

I will soar into eternity

Into the land where there are no boundaries

there is no return, there is no return

I am a dreamer, this is where I belong

 

sapphire skies alight, emerald earth below

silver starlight, golden sunlight

you will find something only dreamers know

the diamond gates of eternity

where the dreamers go

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Searching For New Music

Today has been all about music for me. A few days ago Pandora released the new version of their website to people that are Pandora One members / premium members. I am one of those people, I use Pandora a lot and I have been a premium member for almost 10 months now.

I really like the new website design, it is easy to navigate and makes use of the whole page. I have been spending a lot of time on Pandora today finding new music, surfing the website, visiting people's profiles, and looking up lyrics on Google. It has been pretty fun. I like to do this every once in a while. I pick out a day every few weeks or so and I just look up music, listen to CDs I haven't heard before, and find new bands to like. It's pretty fun really. 

I just thought I would share some of the music I like today for this post.

 [youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DmDDqRlhWH8]

 

[youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Lgw8RkL-ik]  

 

[youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CCnn7WEQIDI]

 

  [youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xleo0Hpsxvg]

 

 

[youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ouQNjgaBTPk]

 

 

[youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FDTbPDbJQ44]

 

 

[youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rFXlCWJSC9k]

 

[youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xzir1B43I3E]

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Abandoning Plans

I had this crazy idea today, I was thinking of making a second website. I looked around on Google Search for places where you can build a website. I looked at Webbly, wix, and finally webs.com.

I got started fairly quickly. I started early last night at midnight, actually past midnight. I worked on my home page, told a little bit about myself, and put a picture of myself on the font page. After I woke up today I began uploading pictures, organizing pages, and starting my blog on the website.

The thing is that pretty soon I realized I would have to pay an outrageous amount of money to get more storage space for my pictures and other things. Sure, if I went premium on webs.com I would also get a domain name, and a few other little things but it wasn't really worth it as I soon realized once I compaired to Xanga.  When it came down to it, I wasn't satisfied with the fact that they had no unlimited photo uploading. That alone made it so I didn't feel like making another website anymore. I suddenly started to realize that Xanga has a lot more to offer, and it's cheaper, and easier to manage than a website from scratch.  I don't plan on going on webs.com anymore. I think, if I remember correctly, I might have tried that website before. I see I don't like it any more this time than last time.

Anyway, so I've pretty much solidified the fact that I'm probably never going to be more satisfied with another website like I am with Xanga. I've been on here for a long time now.

Monday, July 18, 2011

Into Silence

So yesterday I decided I am going to stop talking to Dylan. Today I decided to do the same for Darik since that is fair. I have been in this endless loop of drama with those two for so long it's insane. Most of the drama comes from the fact that I have a lot of regrets when it comes to my friendship with Dylan. Anyone that has seen posts like "Shattered Illusion" which was about Dylan know how I feel about him, at least a little.

I have tried explaining how I feel about our friendship so many times to Dylan. I don't think Dylan really wants to deal with it so I decided to just leave him alone. I made the mistake of not trusting him and not being myself around him. I was pretty scared and I really liked Dylan a lot. Unlike Darik, I had classes in school with Dylan, so I became attached to him in a different way. This kind of attachment made me afraid to lose him. I was afraid if he found out my flaws he would become more distant. As I see now that happened anyway because I wasn't honest.  I should have been a little more brave when it comes to our friendship. I also see that if I had done this I could have seen if he is really a true friend, or if it would have fizzed out anyway. now I'm stuck with the fact that I will never know. I don't know him as well as I thought I did anyway. I don't think it would make much of a difference anymore if I just quit talking to him.

the reason why I have held on to Dylan, is mainly because Darik and I have a pretty decent friendship, at least from my point of view. Darik and I get along pretty well, and while we only talk a little more than Dylan and I, I feel like I can talk to Darik about anything and be myself around him. This is the huge difference in our friendship, besides the fact I just feel more comfortable around Darik, and a little closer. The way I see it it is either try to get along with both, or just stop talking to both.

I'm at the point where I have become really tired of trying to get attention from either of them. I don't really feel like talking to them now very much. I decided that I am just going to back off a little from both of them and give them, and myself a little space. I have been needing this for a while. I feel like sometimes I feel pressured to try and talk to them. This happens because I don't have very many opportunities to do this. I think I will be happier if I do this for a while. They are away from here working in another state anyway until September so this is the perfect time to do this.  I'm not sure how long I will stop talking to them but I will just take if one day at a time.

I really hope things work out with this.

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Went to HP number 7 P2 Today

So sometime between the day before yesterday, and yesteray when we saw the movie,  I was informed that we were going to Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2. I usually don't bother to remember such things so I can't remember when exactly I heard this but I was pretty excited.

We left to get in line sometime around 8:30pm. When we got there, there were a few guys in the lobby making sure the place didn't get really crowded. They weren't letting anyone that was going to the 10:30pm show make a line yet. There were already lines for the other shows and they didn't want the place to get over crowded. One of the guys told us to come back at 9:30pm. We decided to go to Deseret book and spend some time there while we were waiting.

My dad has this bad habit of being really outspoken, even in situations where he probably shouldn't. We were walking past these two or three smokers and he so boldly went up to them and started telling them what they were doing was wrong. I wasn't about to stand there and watch him embarrass himself in front of them. There are some situations when you should just keep out of it not only for your sake but for the sake of the people that are with you as well. needless to say every minute he was there it was a terrible embarrassment for me and my sister that was with us.  I actually told him to stop talking to them a few times and actually told him he was embarrassing us (I did this from the bookstore, peeked my head out the door and shouted it his way).  I quit paying attention to him after that.  I think my sister got him away from those people. I'm not exactly sure what happened between the time I stuck my head out the door and shouted at him and the time he actually came into the book store, and personally I don't really care anymore. I'm just glad he wasn't beaten up or something. Sometimes it's just better for you to be quiet. angryshocked

Anyway we were in there for abut 45 minutes just looking at books and talking to some people. I looked at some CTR rings that they were selling and found one I really liked, I didn't get it though. It was an LDS bookstore so they sold stuff like that.

By the time we were done in there it was almost 9:30pm. We thought we were early, but it turns out the line started 5 or 10 minutes earlier than they said it was going to be starting so there was a pretty good line already. We still managed to get a pretty good place in line. We weren't TOO far back in line, it was actually a pretty good spot. We were in line for probably 25 or 30 minutes. I just spent my time reading the Star Trek wiki while I was waiting. I did this on my iPhone of course.

They let us in at about 10pm. We were seated by 10:04pm, I remember this because I did a status about it on facebook.  I got some popcorn and an Icee from the lobby not to long after we found our seats. I had brought my own drinks, and a little bag of popcorn but I decided to buy my own anyway. I didn't bother to buy candy because I had my own. I had bought 2 energy bars from the health food store earlier. They taste pretty good, I love Cliff Energy bars. I got a macadamia nut white chocolate one and a mint chocolate one. They were both pretty good, and healthier than candy obviously.

The movie started at 10:30pm. I just played on my iPhone while I waited for it to start.

It was pretty good all around. There were a lot of places I didn't like as much as the book but that is to be expected of most people I guess. I liked the movie, but I don't think I want to see it again. I would rather read the books than watch the movies any day. I like listening to the books on audio the most. The ones that are narrated by Stephen Fry are my favorite. 

We talked about the movie after it ended, we didn't compare much of the scenes to the book though because my dad hasn't even read the books yet and we didn't want to spoil it for him. 

I was very tired by the time I got home. It was around 1am when we got home, some time around that.  I watched a little bit of anime before I went to bed and checked Xanga once. I went to bed after this, I fell asleep fairly quickly.

So that was my experience going to Harry Potter. Other than that I did go to the store earlier yesterday as well. We had to buy some ore Butter Buds and something else I don't remember. We made a stop at "Sunflower" first, it's a health food store. We found one thing we were looking for, but they didn't have Butter Buds so we went to the health food store my mom works at "Good Earth". I went in and bought the butter buds and the Cliff bars that I ate at the movie later.

Nothing much happened other than that yesterday, just my usual stuff, reading, talking to friends, etc. I might have forgotten 1 or two things but oh well.

By the way butter buds are like powdered butter, they taste just like butter but they are healthier. My dad can't have too much fat so he uses other stuff on his home made popcorn. :)

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Saying Goodbye Sucks

So it's been about 2 and a half weeks since my sister and my nephew came here to visit. Today they left, it was pretty sad. I had been dreading this day for the past few weeks because my nephew is so cute and I love it when my sister comes here.

It's been really nice having them here. My nephew is so cute, he has these bright blue eyes, and he just started walking. It's fun to watch him walk around and interact with people and toys. He takes 3 naps a day, he slept in my parent's room for the first few days because they were on Tabernacle Choir Tour. Once the got him though my sister and Jax started sleeping in my other sister's room. Sometimes my sister would being him downstairs to the place we made into a little living room. We had toys downstairs and he would walk around saying hi to everyone and was being so cute. I have gotten used to having him here so when he had to go it was really weird.  I already miss when he would talk to people, make noise, and interact withe the TV, that was really cute.

Anyway, so today has been pretty dull for the most part. Earlier I said goodbye to my sister Jax, and Justin. We all gave each other hugs and said goodbye. I remember the defining silence that ensued in the house after they left, it was SO quiet, and a little creepy as well.

I just went back downstairs like usual and did my thing. I have been starting to watch Star Trek again the past few days. I am currently on TNG, I'm actually saving the original series for last. It's been fun watching it again.

Other than that I just did the usual, read, listened to music, surfed facebook, got on Destiny Online, talked to friends, etc.

I am still typing up the entry about my ward activity, I don't know how long that is going to take me to finish. It should be up by the time I get this entry up finally though. it should be right below this one if you see it. I type all my entries in Google docs first because sometimes I don't have time to post them right then, or I feel a bit lazy.  I should really work on that bad habit of procrastinating ha ha.

I mostly kept to myself most of the day, going upstairs only about 3 times to eat something.  It is really weird without my nephew being here.

You haven't really missed much between the time I got home from my ward activity, and today. Just the usual has been happening, family stuff, hanging around the house, etc.  I'm really hoping to go to Harry Potter when it comes out, I hope I don't have to wait long.

Anyway, I guess that is all for now. Knowing how lazy I feel right now I probably won't post this for a couple more weeks probably. Sorry if that really does happen. I will make sure to change the date on the entry and put it in it's proper place though. I like things to look natural like that.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

The Hourglass (Time)

Something I wrote for Sam.  :)

I will tell you more about him sometime soon.

Not sure if I'm going to read this one out loud or not since it's supposed to be the lyrics to a song and not just a poem. I'll decide later. :)

 

Looking through the hour glass 

frozen time when he is near

i can see him on his white horse

whispering sweet songs in my ear

the never ending dawn

reflects within my soul

I feel like I could live forever

when you are close to me, when you are near

 

The sands of time shift

Watch the Hourglass shatter

As he comes into view

one step at a time

time is but an illusion

a golden mirage

in the shadow of loves power

 

a lovely heart caught under ice

ignited now by loves sweet spark

just the light no more dark

a frozen clock on the wall

the golden sand on the floor

caught within the angelic gaze

watching as her prince steps near

time stops no more fear.

a blazing fire, all she can hear

 

the sands of time shift

watch the hourglass shatter

as he comes into view

one step at a time

time is but at illusion

a golden mirage

in the shadow of loves power

 

the hourglass turns

the hourglass falls

golden sand spilled on the floor

footsteps echoing

her heart beating faster

just watch as time shatters

see as love ignites

there is no greater power

 

the sands of time shift

watch the hourglass shatter

as he comes into view

one step at a time

time is just an illusion

a golden mirage

in the shadow of loves power

nothing can stop it

nothing can hold it

time is nothing

in the shadow of loves power

it shines forever

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Ward Summer Activity (long)

I will inset the pictures later. I just want to get his typed up. :)

So this week was pretty crazy but I finally got some time to relax. Every year my church has an annual ward activity. We do some kind of big activity and use up some of our fairly good budget.  I always look forward to our ward activity every year, it is always fun. it came at a perfect time this year too. I have had a hard time with all the crowds and stuff that I have had to endure this week so getting away was really nice for a change.

I woke up at around 10am on Thursday morning. As usual I had trouble sleeping, it happens a lot when I am really excited about something.  I re-packed my suitcase a little neater, walked around the house and made sure I had everything. I packed everything I didn't pack the day before like my toothbrush and my towel, stuff I was using like that.  My dad made pancakes an hour after I woke up. I wanted to have a good breakfast before I left because I knew the drive would be long. I get really car sick if I have an empty stomach. I ate an apple as well and had a glass of milk. I re-checked everything and made sure I did not forget anything. I grabbed my sleeping bag and stuffed my pillow and my pink blanket in the blue bag I was carrying it in. I dragged my stuff upstairs and set it next the railing after this. My suitcase was pretty stuffed, and it was kind of heavy.

I went back downstairs and made sure one last time I did not forget anything. I grabbed my sunglasses, and put them in my purse, then I headed upstairs.

I left at about 10minutes before noon. Everyone is usually late so I expected to be the first one there because I was early. It's always like that when we have some kind of activity. I am usually the first one or one of the first people to be there. I checked facebook on my iPhone, and just walked around for a while outside the church building where we were meeting. It took about 5 minutes for more people to come. I was the first one there, then slowly everyone else showed up. We all moved under a pavilion that was across the parking lot after a while. The sun was pretty hot on Thursday. We sat down at the various tables and started talking to each other. I didn't talk much, if at all but I listened. I don't exactly remember what we talked about, but it was a good time passer to listen to the various conversations that were going on.

Someone decided to pull out some nail polish to pass the time while we waited for our Bishop to arrive. I'm not going to use a name, but she told us we could use it if we wanted. Various people, probably just the girls, started painting their nails. My red and blue Nail polish I had on had chipped off and was almost gone. I used some of her nail polish remover to remove the rest. I proceeded to paint my nails a hot pinkish kind of color.

Our bishop arrived not to long after we started doing this. We had a little devotional, talked about some gospel related stuff, it wasn’t too boring, a few people told stories. We grabbed out stuf after this and put our luggage into the trailer that had come.

We all got into groups and chose a person to ride with. I’m a little bad with names but I think the person I was riding with was called Brandon. I was with 2 other people besides him.
The car ride was about a little over 2 hours long. On the way we stopped at the convenience store and I bought some treats for the people I was going to be sleeping with. The girls and boys are naturally separated.  I got some Pringles, some Starburst, almond Joy’s, Chex mix and some Reeses Peanut butter cups.  We also got some gas and then we went on our way and started driving again.

Like I said before it took about 2 hours to get there. We were the last ones to get there. We were all a little worried that we wouldn’t be able to get a good bed in the apartment, just us girls that were in the car. The boys had their own place to sleep at the main house.  

I went to check if there was any beds left in the apartment. I remember I was feeling really glad that I had brought my sleeping bag just in case something like this happened. As it turns out they had not even opened the upstairs apartment in the barn yet so no one had picked beds at all.  I just walked around for a bit and waited for the bishop to come with the keys to open the apartment. We all went upstairs and I ended up getting the bed I wanted because I was one of the first ones to enter the apartment.  I set my trats and my purse down on the bed to mark my territory and then went back outside.  I went to check if the trailer had come yet, it hadn't come yet so I just went back upstairs to the apartment.  I just walked around for a bit and ate some of my treats. I went back and forth from outside and the upstairs a few times seeing if the trailer was there yet. I mainly hung around with some other people that were in the apartment for about a half an hour or so, and just watched people get acquainted with their room buddies and unpack.

After a while the trailer finally got there and I got my stuff and brought it to the room where I was sleeping. I put my sleeping bag down on my bed and pulled out my pillow and blanket. I only brought one little blanket because it gets really hot at night. I usually never end up having to use the blankets they have. I usually bring a sleeping bag for extra comfort. I usually just sleep on top of it.  After I got my stuff set up I just lied down on my bed and listened to music for a while on my iPhone. I made sure to bring my good headphones. I dozed off for a little bit and was woken up my one of the people that came. We had a quick devotional, I don’t remember what was talked about but it was some gospel related stuff.  After this people were playing volley ball and just hanging around. Some people were playing foursquare as well, and others were playing basketball I think as well. Not so sure if I am remembering that one correctly.

I’m a little blurry on what happened between the time we got there and dinner time. I remember at some point I went back upstairs and started listening to music and was daydreaming and I fell asleep again. I was woken up again by someone telling me it was time for dinner.  We had Hawaiian haystacks for dinner, watermelon, and salad. Someone brought pink lemonade as well, I have always loved pink lemonade.

We started the water activities sometime before sunset, after dinner we all got into our bathing suits and went back outside. We had a slip slide going down a hill and we inflated a pretty big pool and put it at the top of the hill. We filled the pool with water using the hose we were using to make the slip slide slippery. We filled some big containers with water and soap to use for the slip slide instead. It took a while for the pool to fill up just using the hose and it was REALLY cold as well. It was funny watching people go down the slide, I didn't go down though because I didn't think it was hot enough at the time of day it was to be drenched in freezing cold hose water. I lost the feeling in my feet just putting them into the pool, I did not want to become an ice cube.

It had been pretty cloudy the day we got there all day, but it never rained. We did hit some rain on our drive there but it never actually rained while we were there. After the water activities we got dressed, some of us took showers, I wasn’t one of them though because technicly I only got my feet wet. I would have gotten wet if it had been a little hotter. I had taken a shower earlier in the morning anyway, I didn’t feel like I needed to again. I had also dyed my hair a few days earlier as you know and I didn’t want to make it fade.  

We had another devotional about an hour later, the sun had set by then. We brought our chairs around to the hill where we had the water activities and we listened to various leaders of the ward tell some life stories and some more gospel related stories, mostly about the temple that was near by.  It was starting to get a little chilly by this time, I decided to go and grab my jacket. It get’s a little chilly at night where my bishop’s in laws live sometimes, even in the summer.  It wasn't really cold but it was chilly enough to make me fill uncomfortable.  I came back with my jacket and just stood there at the top of the hill. I didn't feel like sitting down very much.

After the devotional we all started doing out own thing pretty much. We built a fire in this little fire pit someone brought. There was a lot of space, a lot of concrete and nothing was near that could catch fire. A while before this, sometime during the earlier part of the day a few people had gone to the store and bought a few things for the activity, one of these was a large amount of candy. They bought fruity candy, chocolate candy, stuff for smores, etc. It was pretty amazing seeing all that stuff there in a pile on the ground. We moved all the stuff onto a table and we made smores over the fire and sang songs. Various conversations started and some of the people were playing Volley ball again like they were earlier in the day. There was pretty good lighting where we were so even though it was night, about 9pm we could see pretty well.  

I went off on my own and found a chair. The sky was clouded over completely, I could see lightning off in the far distance it was really pretty. I could also hear thunder as well. The night air smelled heavenly and there was a perfect breeze. I just sat there in that chair daydreaming and thinking about various people I care about, watching the storm off in the distance and just enjoying myself all around. I wanted to be alone at that time, it was too peaceful at the place where I was sitting for me to leave. Everyone else was off at a place in the yard where I couldn't hardly hear them at all. The yard was pretty big.  

I just sat there for a while and went off in my own world. Sometime in the course of this time I went inside quickly and grabbed my ear buds, and iPhone and went back outside. I turned on Pandora Radio on the New Age Mix station and listened to pretty music while I was watching the lightning storm off in the far distance.  It as a wonderful night.

I did eventually join the others in marshmallow roasting. I also tried roasting starburst as well. i don’t know if anyone anywhere else does this, it’s kind of a tradition here though. I didn't talk, I just mainly listened to everyone. Part of the time I was just daydreaming and thinking of new stuff to write.  I made this really large smoore it was pretty thick, i did it kind of as a joke, everyone thought it was great though and they thought it looked awesome.  that smoore was so filling I had trouble finishing it. I’m sure part of that had to do with the fact I’m not to fond of marshmallows in large quantities as well.  

Things started to quiet down around 11pm, we started cleaning things up, putting out the fire and getting ready for bed. Some people stayed outside,  like the people in the tents (I forgot to mention that some people chose to sleep out in tents because it was so pretty outside),  and a few others. They were chatting for a while. I don’t now what they were doing besides that  though.  Some of us went outside a few more times just for the heck of it. I wanted to be along for a little bit longer so i started watching the storm off in the distance again.  We usually do stargazing, but the sky was clouded over. What I was doing was just as fun in my opinion though.  I went inside after a while and read for a while. Various people were getting ready for bed, and talking. I didn't say much as usual, I just listened a little and ate candy. i was pretty worn out when I finally went to sleep. That was the first day of the trip.

It had been pretty hot in the room all night but we had the fan on and 1 or 2 of the windows open so there was a breeze as well. I didn’t realy use my blanket at all, I was pretty sure this would happen.  I picked out a new shirt and put on some capris. No one was awake yet so I just uploaded a few pictures as a teaser to facebook. The connection wasn’t very fast where we were, that is pretty much the only reason why I did not upload more photos, because it took a long time.  I woke up about 20 or 30 minutes before everyone else. I listened to music and thought about certain people and various things that have been happening lately.

I got up, brushed my hair and cleaned my face before I went outside. I could tell most of the people were either still asleep and / or were just inside doing other things.  I remember regretting I did not wake up earlier when I went outside because I would have liked to watch the sunrise. Nothing much happened for a while, we all prepared for breakfast and waited for it to be done. We had blueberry pancakes, sausage, eggs, muffins, and fruit for breakfast it was great.  I wasn't especially hungry but I had a little bit of everything.  I felt tired still, I only slept probably 5 hours the night before. Being my usual self, I did not talk much, or at all of course. I did sit with people this time, unlike the day before. I just mostly wandered for the most part the day before while eating at the same time.  I was really full by the time I finished eating.

I should probably also mention the neighbor's Golden Retriever that came to visit us, he likes to be around us every year. Some of us like him and some of us don't. he always sniffs everyone's food and we usually tell him to go away because he also smells ha ha. He just shows up at random. At one point n the trip we tied him to a post I think.

Everyone went their seperate ways once again and started playing games and socializing. I just observed as usual, I just find this more enjoyable. I feel like I get more out of what it happening when I watch than when I participate most of the time.

I did go back inside after a while and started listening to music again. I was still pretty tired as I said above and I wanted to sleep a little more. It didn't take me long to go out like a light.  I remember people attempting to wake me up for the morning devotional, I kind of woke up but I was so drowsy that I fell asleep again. They gave up after the 3rd of 4th try.  I wasn't awake enough to be able to think clearly, all I could think of at the time is how much I wanted more sleep. I kind of regret skipping the devotional, we learn pretty interesting stuff sometimes. I slept through the whole devotional without knowing it. I was finally woken up by another person that was one of my room mates. We were heading to our next activity. I was conscious enough of the fact that I needed to wake up this time that I was able to drag myself out. I was still pretty much not completely awake for a little while longer. I tend to get a little cranky when I am in this state, the semi-long walk to the pioneer park did me a lot of good and woke me up completely. The walk was very pretty and it gave me time to straighten out my head.

I wasn't sure if I would need my wallet or not so I brought it just in case. I also brought some chex mix with me as well just in case I got hungry, even though I knew this would probably not happen. I like to be prepared when I go out somewhere.  

When we got there everyone was walking into the visitor’s center so we could learn what we were doing.  The place we went to was “Pioneer Heritage Park”. I think I am remembering right, and it was within walking distance from my bishop’s in laws house.  The scenery was very pretty, lots of trees and plants were everywhere.  When we went inside we looked around for a little bit, then they told us we were going to have 2 sets of 4 different activities, we would rotate activities every few minutes (I think it was 10 but I’m not sure).   

We broke off into groups determined by date of birth. Some people had to come into other groups because they did not have as many people. In the end all of us had 9 people in our group. We had to take some people from one of the other groups though because we did not have enough people.  They told us where to go after this, we all started leaving the building and went outside to get further instructions.

One of the park rangers told us a little bit about the pioneers and about the park’s history for a few minutes. He told us more about the activities we were going to be doing. The activities we were going to be doing were little examples of what the pioneers had to deal with while they were traveling.  These activities were also designed to build confidence as well.  After he explained a little bit more we went on our way and found the path that would get us to our various activities. Different groups went different ways.

The first challenge / activity we did was all 9 of us had to fit on 1 2 and a half foot board. The idea was that we were pretending like there was a really bad fire and the board was the only safe spot that we could go on. We all had to get on the board somehow and stay on for as long as we possibly could. My group stayed on 3 seconds the first time, and 5 seconds the second round. I think we did a 3rd round but we also did a few practice rounds so I’m not sure.  We all grabbed each others arms and tried to pull each other on at the same time.  It was as tricky as it might sound.  I thought this was a lot of fun.


After we rotated and another group came to we were we went to another activity called “river crossing”. The idea of this one was to simulate crossing rivers with just 6 or 7 stones. We didn't actually cross water but we couldn't touch the ground.  we had to make sure none of the stones were un-ocupied once we stepped on them. If a stone was un occupied after someone stepped on it then that stone would be lost and it would become harder to cross. I’m not sure how we managed to do it but we all helped each other and it worked. It was tricky picking up the last stone before we stepped off of it after everyone was starting to cross. The person at the end made sure that the stone was not lost and they picked it up. We all helped each other, it was pretty fun.

The next one was one where we had to simulate taking a bucket of flu infected rags and moving them to another location. This was not real of course but we weren't allowed to touch the bucket with out bare hands or drop it or one of us would be out or we would have to start over.  We had a series of ropes, I think it was 8 ropes, they were attached to some kind of stretchy thing in the middle. We all got in a circle and pulled the ropes away from the elastic so it would stretch and become bigger. We then carefully fit the elastic over the bucket and walked towards it a little so the elastic would shrink and would get a good hold of the bucket.  we had to be careful that we stayed on balance and didn't tip the bucket too much or accidentally make it drop. We were trying to get the bucket over to a fire pit, the idea was to simulate dropping the bucket into the flames (that weren't really there), without spilling the water, or the rags,  or letting the bucket touch the ground like I said before.  We managed to do it, though we nearly tipped over the bucket while we were stretching out the elastic again, it was pretty close.

We finished this a little early so we played swedish twister while we were waiting, or rather everyone else did in my group I just watched because I thought it was funny. I don’t exactly get what they were doing or now it worked but they managed to make it work without the colors or the mat. It is a little hard to explain.

We rotated to another station, another challenge about 5 minutes after this. Our next challenge was untying 9 different knots from a rope without removing both our hands. We always had to have 1 hand on the rope. This made it difficult as you can imagine. We had to make the loop of the knot big enough that we could slip through it and we had to do this without letting go with our one hand. We managed to get 7 knots untied before the next rotation started.  It was pretty interesting.

It was half way through the activity at this point and the sun had come out, the clouds had also disappeared a little bit so it got a little hotter. I was really glad to be in a mostly tree populated area.

At our next rotation we played some kind of game with sticks and cans. I’m not exactly sure what it was called, the name seems to have escaped my memory.  I think I lost my sunglasses at this one, because I haven’t seen them ever since.  

Anyway,  our next one was more on the fictional side, I think they made it that way so it would be more interesting. The story was that we went through some kind of portal and a giant bear started chasing us once we got so far in. we all had to go through this ring as fast as we could without touching it. the portal would close if we touched the ring when we went through it. The ring was small enough for us to have to help each other to get through. One of us managed to get through on our own first, and another one got through on his own last, but other than that we had to help each other get through the hoop without touching it. It was tricky the first couple of times but we got it eventually in the end.  

At our 7th rotation there was a bunch of L shaped pieces of wood in a pile. We had to each grab one of these L shaped pieces of wood and get in a line. We tilted them upward so they made a V shape. The idea was to simulate getting a stream of water to an area where there were crops or something like that. We used a golf ball to simulate the water, it was easier to start over that way if we needed to.  We sent the ball rolling down the boards one at a time. each time the ball got past the person that was at the back of the line where it started that person ran to the front of the line and made sure the ball wouldn't fall.  We had to get to a certain place without the ball falling or we would have to start over. We got it the first time. We did it a few more times, sometimes we did it to fast and sometimes the people didn't make it to the front of the line in time. It was pretty tricky.

The last activity I am going to mention we actually did in the first half, I couldn't remember what it was when I was typing the others so I decided to save it for last. I just remembered what it was.

This last activity we actually did in the first half as I said before.  There were two long boards and they each had ropes attached to parts of them that made it so people could put one foot under each rope and pull the board up. We all had to work together and move in sync very carefully or we would mess up. I think we were simulating squishing crickets in a field of crops,  or something like that. We had to get across this bridge once, get to a certain place or something similar to this. I actually didn't do this activity because I wanted to take video. I’m not sure if I am going to get that up or not. Anyway, we added an extra element to the game on the way back.  The idea was that the field of crops had started to catch fire and we had to get back to where we started as fast as we could. We did pretty good on our way back. One or two of us almost fell off but we made it before the rotation ended.

Anyway, that is pretty much all the activities we did at Pioneer Heritage Park. Almost two hours passed and we went back to the visitor’s center for a few minutes to get drinks or do other stuff we needed to do really quick. We walked back to my Bishop’s in laws house after this.  

I got most of my bug bites while I was at the activity, at the time they did not itch that much. We were all joking about our big bites and how many some of us had it was pretty funny.

We got ready for lunch not long after we got back. We had sub sandwiches for lunch, it’s something I look forward to every year when we do this activity because they are always amazing.  We each grabbed a little bag of chips, and a drink and went and found a place to eat.  I was eating standing up at first like I usually do when I eat outside but I walked over to a tree that was un-occupied over near the apartment / barn.  I sat down and started eating my food and not long after I started eating people walked over and sat with me in the shade. It was still pretty cloudy, but the sun was shining at this point. It was pretty hot so we were all pretty eager to get in the shade.  

I just kind of hung around listening to people talk after I finished eating. At one point I grabbed an extra bag of chips and just sat back down and started daydreaming.  

After lunch some of us got out bathing suits on. We were going to do swimming activities again right after lunch but we were told we were going to do Ice Cream first.  I got my bathing suit on and went outside for the ice cream. We had a competition to decide which Universities ice cream was better BYU or Utah State.  We weren't told which ice cream was from where, we were given a sample of each and voted. BYU won, I have to admit I like the Utah Aggie’s blue mint the best.  I had the blue mint and I also had lemon custard ice cream, I forgot which school made that one. It was pretty good ice cream from both sides.

After we ate ice cream we resumed the swimming activities we were doing yesterday. the pool was still out and so was the slip slide. The pool was no longer freezing cold it actually felt good. I stayed in there for about 15 minutes or so. I didn't do the slip slide like the other people, I wasn't really in the mood.  We did the water activities for about 30 or 45 minutes then they told us to go and get dressed so we could go to a play.

We all got ready and got out stuff together. We found the people we rode with when we drove up to my bishop’s in laws house and got in our cars.

It took us about 2 hours to get to the place where the play was. I didn't talk much as usual, just listened to the other people talking kind of, and I listened to the music that was playing in the car. I think if I remember correctly Metalica was playing in the car. The scenery was really pretty on our way to the play as well, I really enjoyed it, I think I might have been the only one that was really paying attention to it though.  The drive was pretty nice, it wasn't boring and it didn't feel like I was in the car forever. I usually have trouble with long drives, that one was okay though.

There was a light rain when we got to the play house. It hadn't been raining at my bishop’s in laws house, I can’t really say I was expecting it to rain at the play house.  The play house was like a mini theatre, it wasn't very big. The play house is privately owned it is managed by 1 family, I forgot their names.  We waited outside for a few minutes waiting for our time to come in, we talked for a while and some of us took pictures. Unfortunately I did not take pictures at the play house, my camera battery was getting low and I did not bring my re-charger because my sister was using it back home. I wish I had taken a few pictures honestly.  The play house was pretty old fashioned, it wasn't very fancy but it did it’s job pretty well. Outside there were posters on the walls advertising the plays they did. I think they make up their own plays if I remember correctly.


They let us in about 15 or 20 minutes after we got there. We walked right in and sat down in our reserved seats. They had reserved seats for our ward near the front.  I was near to the left side of the room. The whole place is pretty much made of wood, it is meant to look old fashioned but still look pretty nice. The seats were comfortable, they had padding. They were kind of like the seats you find in school auditoriums.  

I was thinking about getting a drink and some popcorn but I decided to wait until the intermission to get it. I felt really tired from all the sugar I had been eating.  The stage was decorated with all sorts of posters and other things that had to do with the show. I just sat there and waited for it to start.  The show was called “Who Shot Juanito Bandito”.  The play is about a really skilled bank robber named Juanito.  

(I'm going to try and explain this as best as I know how.)

This old guy came from back stage dressed in old fashioned clothes and started playing the piano. I don’t know the name of the song but if you heard it i’m sure a lot of you would have recognized it.  He was playing the music the whole time the play was going on that old fashioned sounding piano.  Before the play started the audience was given some instructions. They told us a little bit about the characters, and told us how to react every time we saw a certain character. Every time a certain character came onto the stage the guy playing the piano would make an appropriate sound effect for that character and we would make our appropriate sound effect as well.  

There was a sheriff, the bandit, a really arrogant deputy from another town, and a pretty bank clerk. These were the main characters from the story.  

The show was pretty hilarious. The show started off with the bandit Juanito announcing that he had robbed every bank in the USA except for 1 of them that he was going to do soon. The whole play kind of revolves around this little detail. A really arrogant marshal comes into town with one of the bank clerks that work at the bank that is supposed to be robbed.(I thought he was a deputy but now I remember he wasn’t). The bank clerk being a woman, and the marshal being a man you can guess he tries to hit on her the whole time.  So after we meet those 3 people we meet the sheriff, he is supposedly the hero of the story.  He  is introduced and we kind of learn more about his roll, the basics of his character.  Him and the arrogant marshal meet and they kind of start making a plan to stop the bandit. Then it switches to Juanito the bandit and his sidekicks plotting the whole thing, a musical number ensues not to long after this scene starts. The play was a musical after all.

Anyway, somehow the sheriff ends of meeting the pretty bank clerk and they fall instantly in love. The Marshall being instantly jealous because scenes before she rejected him, starts plotting ways to break them up. So in the midst of the chaos of trying to stop the bandit from robbing this last bank and making history, this stuff is going on.  The Marshall plans on having the bandit Juanito assassinate the sheriff before the wedding can happen. He is so arrogant he thinks that the bank clerk will jump into his arms after he is dead.  I should probably also mention that the bandit has some kind of dirt on the sheriff but we don’t find out what it is until later.

The Marshall soon teams up with the bandit to assassinate the sheriff, and meanwhile the sheriff and the bank clerk are planning on getting married. The bank clerk being an obvious dominatrix starts listing off the stuff she wants from this marriage and she never allows him to object or she gets angry at him. All this time the scene is going on you can pick up the strong air of the fact that he is having second thoughts even though he loves her. He never backs out of the marriage  but we could all tell that he was having second thoughts.

The sheriff and the bank clerk not knowing what the arrogant Marshall is planning keep going on with the planning of the wedding. They think he is still on their side.  Meanwhile juanito is having a slight change of heart and is contemplating not assassinating the couple because he sees they are really in love. You kind of get deceived into thinking that he is going to change his ways for a scene or two but he hasn't.

Somehow in the end they all end up coming together at the wedding. Juanito disguises himself as the priest, the marshal is off somewhere in the background hiding,  and the bride and groom are there as well. The bandit exposes himself as he truly is and things get a little tense. the marshal tries to force himself on the bank clerk and tries to take her away thinking he is the only one that deserves her. Then, the bandit tells the bank clerk the dirt on the sheriff, that he used to lead a life of crime and was i jain once or twice. The bank clerk tells them she already knew about that stuff. Juanito decides to not shoot the sheriff, the marshal is exposed for the fraud he is when the sheriff stands up to him and get’s his woman back. Turns out he was a coward who had no skill.  Oh, and somehow in the middle of the chaos the sheriff duels the bandit who supposedly has the fastest guns in the country. This is how he gets caught (the Marshall). The marshal is put in the stocks, the sheriff and the bank clerk get married, and I don’t even remember what happens to the bandit, I suppose he got away. The play was all around awesome.

I did end up getting popcorn and a drink half way through the play. They had an intermission half way through it.

I’m pretty aware my description of the play is pretty bad, if you can find information on the play I suggest you look it up and see what it is like and read about it for yourself. I’m not very good at explaining these types of things very well yet.  

The play was very entertaining, and there was jokes throughout the whole thing. There were a bunch of places where people missed their que apparently, but you couldn’t even tell it happened because they were so great at improvising.  At the beginning as a joke they had the guy who played Juanito come out and complain about the title. As you can see from my description, he never actually does get shot (he shoots his sidekicks a few times though, that was funny).

Anyway we left the play house after it ended. We took pictures with some of the cast, and headed to “Juanito’s Grill”. I think that is what it was called. We had bought meal tickets to the grill and we waked right next door from the play house and waited for a person to get us a place to sit.  We had to split up into 2 groups and get in line separately because they weren't ready for all of us at once.  I was in the second group, we got drinks and waited upstairs at a table. The place was mostly kind of out doors, there was 2 floors, the second floor was kind of like a pavilion, and it had a set of stairs on either side that people could go up and down. The downstairs was pretty open, there were only two walls, and obviously a ceiling. There was a kitchen (which obviously was not in the out doors) and a table where they set out the food, and tables all around. Apparently the place wasn't busy most of the time, we made it a lot busier.

We got in line pretty soon and got our food. Most of us went upstairs and sat at one of the tables at the pavilion like place and ate there.  We had salad, BBQ chicken, potatoes, beans, and our drink it was pretty great food.  I really enjoyed the whole experience.

We took a group picture before we left, then we got in our cars.

I just listened to Pandora radio the whole drive back and was thinking up new stuff to write.  By the time we got back it was around 8 or 9, probably past 9 because the sun was already down and it was getting dark.  We had another devotional after we got back and then we all did our own thing for the rest of the night. We were all up past midnight roasting marshmallows, telling stories, singing songs, playing games, etc. I actually spent more time with other people the last night and even brought out my extra glow sticks. I still had about 25 of them. The night was pretty fun and I got a good amount of pictures as well.

We got to bed around near 1am I think. We were talking for a while in the room, I didn't feel like sleeping but I fell asleep anyway. It was a pretty fun day, I really enjoyed it a lot.

In the morning I was the first one up in the apartment, I got to packing right after I woke up. I got dressed and put the rest of my clothes back in the suitcase. I rolled up my sleeping bag and put it in it’s bag with my pink blanket and pillow.  I didn't finish packing right away, I just got most of my stuff put away, not everything though. I decided to take my time and listen to music for a while before breakfast. It wasn't to long before everyone was up and the apartment was abuzz with people walking around and packing.  

We had breakfast about an hour later. I think it was cereal, muffins and fruit. I wasn't especially hungry but I was glad they had cinnamon toast crunch. I think I should probably add that I might have mixed up Fridays breakfast and Saturday’s breakfast, I’m not sure.

Anyway we all just sat around and ate breakfast and chatted for a while.  Nothing much happened for a while.

After breakfast we began to do our service project. It’s something we do for the family every year we go there. We clean up their yard, weed, take care of the plants, just clean in general. It helps them a lot. I just helped clean the apartment a little and then went around and took video and pictures.  After we did the service project we all finished packing. I told someone else to take the left over candy that I had bought 2 days earlier, because I had not desire to eat it anymore. One of my room mates happily took it.  We finished up cleaning the inside of the apartment, I took my luggage outside and just hung out there the rest of the time. We had lunch sometime after all this stuff happened,  but I don’t remember what it was.

I was just standing an walking around for a while, it was pretty hot, I listened to more music on my iPhone while I was waiting for people to get done so I could go home. Some people started going to the temple, I think my original ride was one of those people because he was nowhere to be seen so far as I could tell. I arranged a different ride not to long after I realized this.  We left not to long after I got the new ride, I put my stuff in the trailer and got in the car and we left after this. I was really sad to go.  I’m not sure if I am going to see that place again, I sure hope I do though.  

Nothing much happened on the drive back, besides me going to the convenience store once and getting an Icee, it was cherry flavored.

The trailer hadn't gotten back home yet so my luggage was not there yet when I got home. I watched anime for a half an hour and then went and got it.  Knowing me I’m going to be lazy unpacking it.

Nothing that interesting happened after this, I just hung around with my family, watched movies, and played with my nephew.

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Getting Ready

(July 23rd) I forgot to post this the day I wrote it soo sorry! I typed this one up in google docs because I had to wait to post. I forgot about it. Can you say Do'h?! I will post it as a July 6th entry since that is when I was supposed to post it.

 

Feeling anxious today, this week has been kind of tough on me as you have probably guessed. My birthday was pretty fun, but I've been around too many crowds this week. I also never eat a large amount of sugar, I am guessing that is part of the reason why I feel so wiped out this week. Crowds plus sugar make me VERY tired.

I am really looking forward to going to my bishop's in laws place for our church activity. I have been the last two years and I always have fun. It's so relaxing up there out in the open. They live on farm land so it's in the middle of nowhere, lots of space and has a beautiful view. I am very anxious to go there tomorrow I need the relaxing environment. I will be with lots of people in my ward from my church, it will be nice to spend some time with them, I usually don't really hang out with people or go places. I really need to change that and learn how to use the bus.

Anyway so I went to the store today and bought some sunscreen. I have been slowly packing all day. All I need is one suitcase, but I prefer to take my time packing because I find myself taking stuff out again every now and then sometimes throughout the day. Some stuff I don't pack until the day I leave somewhere usually. Stuff like my toothbrush, deodorant, and a few other things. I don't like opening my suitcase over and over again just to use something I already packed. 

I forgot to get a  beach towel as well. I don't know if I will even end up needing it but I usually bring one because we usually have some kind of water activity. The last two years it was boating, I think we are going to do something different this time, i don't know exactly what though. I'm sure I'll manage with a regular towel most likely. I just have to be careful not to use one of the white ones because of my newly dyed hair. 

Anyway, I have to get some other stuff together and I have tl clean up a bit so I will end here. Things have been interesting lately, for the past couple of weeks with my sister and nephew here. I will tell you about that later though. Nothing much has happened today besides this.  I have just been hanging out with my family getting ready for the activity.

 

 

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

My 4th of July

So yesterday was pretty much awesome.

I could not sleep the night before yesterday I was excited for my birthday and I started to think about friends, my mind was loud and it was hot in my room. I only got 3 and a half hours the night of my birthday it was insane. I fell asleep around 2:30am and had to wake up at 5:50am to get ready to go to the hot air balloon launch.

The hot air balloon launch is an annual thing we do over here on the 4th of July. It is basicly what it sounds like, we just go watch a bunch of awesome Hot Air Balloons inflate and rise into the sky. It is a lot of fun and every year hundreds of people go. They also have a police fundraiser every year where you can buy breakfast in order to help the police, the breakfast is pretty good.  We didn't do that this year though because we are all a little strapped for cash.

It was actually pretty cloudy in the morning we weren't sure if it would rain. The balloons ended up inflating and then deflating right after because the wind currents were too strong for them to be safe.  It was still awesome though to watch them inflate.  We were late to the balloon launch anyway so because of the complications we got to see the balloons. Usually if we were as late as we were they would have already been in the sky. The balloons usually launch around 6:30am, and we go there around 7am.

My dad made egg and cheese breakfast burritos in the morning right after we woke up to get ready. I was going to have him make waffles but the burritos were great as well.

We went in 2 cars when we left. I went with my sister and her husband and my nephew Jax. Everyone else went in the other car. One of the reasons why we were so late is because Justin's car wouldn't start. We had to wait 10 minutes before we could try again, it worked the 2nd time though.

After the balloons and everything that happened in the morning we walked a couple of blocks to where the parade route was. Our relatives saved a big space in front of where they live and we sat with them near the beginning of the parade route.  We got there an hour early so I just played on my phone, and ready my book while I was waiting. I took a photo as well.



I didn’t really watch the parade, just mainly talked with my relatives, and read my book a little. About half way through I started playing with my camera a little more and took some pictures of myself for fun. My mind was caught inbetween daydreaming and thinking of what I wanted to do afterward. The parade and balloons were not my idea, they were something I just let my family do every year. I really hate parades, not to fond of big crowds as some of you know, and the balloons are cool but I don’t like going for the same reason as parades. I wasn’t really paying attention to anything around me at the time, I texted Sam a few times, but he was busy.

This is some random photo I took of myself while I was there.



The parade was okay but I was glad to get away from the crowds. We left right when it ended, I was glad because they start shooting off the cannon at the end, i hate cannons, to loud for me. I’m not sure my nephiew would have liked it either, it would have scared him a lot.  

We walked back to our cars, it was a semi-long walk back and it was getting hotter because the clouds were moving away.  I don’t mind heat as much as my other family members, but it was nice to get away from the sun and into the shade finally after a while.  My nephiew began to be more energetic again once we got into the air conditioned car again.  

On our way back home we stopped at Smiths, Justin (my brother in law) needed to get some allergy medicine, I went in with him because I wanted to find some silver nail polish I used t wear, i couldn’t find it though. We started to leave the store but decided to go into the Sally’s Beauty Supply right next door to Smith’s. My sister and I went in this time. Justin just stayed in the car with Jax.  Linda and I bought my hair dye, and a few things of nail polish. The color of hair dye I picked is lighter and more red than the last one I used.

When we got home we decided that we would do my hair right then, before we had our picnic up the canyon.

My sister dyed my hair, I left it in for about 40 minutes or so and then we washed it out. When we wash my red dye out when we dye it it looks kind of like  horror show haha.  I brushed and blowdryed my hair after leaving it in a towel for about 10 minutes. When I saw my hair dryed for the first time with it’s new color I loved it a lot, I still love it a lot and so did everyone else. Red seems to be my perfect color, it matches me well and goes good with my skin tone.  


Various people were watching Star Trek The Next Generation around my house, we didn’t do anything for a while after this.

We decided to go up the canyon and find some place to have a KFC lunch. My parents had bought some while they were on the way back to the parade. We drove up the beautiful canyon and my mom and dad brought us to this really random place up a short trail. It had a couple picnic tables but it was mostly empty. We all pretty much protested at this spot because it had tons of bugs, didn’t look very pretty, and the ground was uneven. We all pretty much decided that we would move to another loacation. We did not know where we were going.

We drove up to another random place at Sundance and started looking for a picnic table. We walked around this place at Sundance, I don’t know what it was but we were all feeling pretty irritated by then from searching for a place to just have a picnic lunch.

After walking through a park a little, we found this little grassy area in front of a little hotel. I think it was a hotel anyway. We just sat down and ate. It took a few minutes for the tntion that we had built up to dissappear from the air. We all became a lot more relaxed once we sat down and ate. I took a few pictures here as well.



After we ate we just packed up, and waited for a shuttle to take us to our car that we had parked a ways up. My dad decided that he would go and that we would just stand in front of the place near to where the shuttle came.  We just stood there for a few minutes and talked about various things.

After a few minutes my dad came with the car and we went home.  

We were pretty much scattered around the house for a few hours just playing games, watching movies and TV and just hanging out. I spent a few hours just watching anime, and a few movies, and playing on my phone. I was pretty worn out from all the stuff that had been happening.  

We eventually got together and said happy birthday to me and ate the cheesecake.

I went back downstairs ate my cake while watching a Harry Potter movie. I was down there for a little bit and fell asleep. I’m not sure how much I slept but I was woken up by my sister. She told me that we were setting off the fireworks. I just wanted to sleep and almost fell asleep again but I somehow dragged myself out of my bed, grabbed my glowsticks and went outside.  I was feeling really irritated for a few minutes and I just wanted to sleep. It passed though.

We could tell it was going to probably rain soon so we tried to set off as many as we could. Pretty soon it started to rain, but other people in the neighborhood started setting of their fireworks. This year is the first year they have let us use the kind of fireworks that shoot up into the air, we could see various fireworks shoot up into the sky and we could hear some others that were just on the ground. I don’t know how they managed to light them but it was still pretty awesome!

We just watched the neighbors fireworks for a while, a lot of people were shooting them off. I got out my glow sticks and started snapping them so they lit up. I gave some to my family members. i had quite a few glow sticks.



It stopped raining, it wasn’t raining hard or anything, that is how we still managed to watch the neighbors fireworks.  We tried to light some more fireworks of our own after the rain stopped but the wind started to pick up and it wouldn’t let us light the fuse. We tried about 8 different times and managed to light ONE!

We could tell the other neighbors were probably having this same problem because the fireworks started to die down a lot. We went back inside after this.

I listened to some music and read some posts on Xanga for a while and then crashed and went to sleep. I was SO tired.

It was a great day. :)

More random picture, mostly of me.

I forgot about the mascara under my eyes so that is why it looks like I have dark circles. ><



Sunday, July 3, 2011

System Overload

Yesterday was pretty fun, we decided to to the the fireworks at the end of the "Stadium of Fire". They always have really great fireworks. The "Stadium of Fire" is an annual 4th of July celebration we have here in Utah, it is usually held in BYU stadium here in Utah. They usually have some famous singer give a concert and there is different stuff that happens like dancers, and other things I don't remember, but it's really cool. The fireworks that they have in the finale are SO amazing, they shoot off a lot of them. There are a lot of people that just come over towards the end and sit on the grass with a blanket and just watch the end of the fireworks. You don't even have to be inside the stadium to see them, just sitting outside the stadium on the grass is enough. That is what we did.

We went to the stadium and put a blanket down on the grass somewhere where we could hear the concert pretty good as well (you can hear it from 5 blocks away so didn't matter really). We had gone to Costco earlier yesterday and bought Sun Chips, chocolate, water bottles, oranges, and a few other things. We brought some of the stuff with us to the Stadium just so we could have something to snack on. We had to park 3 or 4 blocks away because there was NO parking at all. There were a lot of streets blocked off and a lot of Police, and barriers and stuff because there were a lot of people that were in the same situation as us and had to walk a couple of blocks. I did not use my cane because I did not want all the people glancing and looking at me. It is already hard for an HSP Introvert like me to be around big crowds, the glances and stares would have just made it worse. I was fine without the cane and decided to try my glasses again. It worked fine, but not a lot. 

Anyway so we just sat there listening to Brad Pasley sing, he is pretty good. I liked this years selection better than last years. Last year they had Miley Cyrus singing at Stadium of Fire. I hate Miley Cyrus. I just played with my phone and ate snacks and watched my cute nephew playing around.  As you probably guessed I ended up breaking my diet again (I'm never going to try HCG in june again ha ha). It's not really possible for me to keep a diet at this time of the year I have found out **laugh**.

The fireworks came around after a while, they just started with a few at a time and just increased. I took video of some of the fireworks (I'll post it later).  Jax (my nephew) was a little scared by the loud noise, we had to cover his ears so he wouldn't freak out. He got used to it after a while and calmed down a little but still got startled and complained a little bit. He is only 10 months old so I don't think he has ever seen fireworks like this before.

When the finale came around we left right after the fireworks were done. There were thousands of people going to their cars afterward, we had to hurry. Being around a lot of people like that is very draining to me since I am an introvert down to a T.  I knew I would probably be out like a light when I got to the car because I find crowds and lots of social interaction draining. It was noisy, crowded, chaotic, absolutely insane. We kind of drifted along with the crowd that was going in the same direction as us, I tried to wear my glasses and it didn't really do anything so I took them off and it was actually better.  Right then was not a time to have my awareness dulled so it was a good thing I took them off. I get lost in crowds if I am not careful (like I said two posts ago). 

We eventually got to the car after about 20 or 25 minutes of maneuvering around crowds.  I felt so dead when we finally got to the car. When I sat down I could just feel the urge for sleep coming over me.  We managed to only get stuck in traffic for about 10 minutes which was a miracle since there were thousands of people trying to get out as well. Lucky for me we have lived here so long that we know how to avoid situations like that and get out of traffic fast. We took a different way home.  I was drifting in and out of sleep the whole way home, it came over me really fast. If you know the way and introvert's brain works you would completely understand why, even if you don't if you know what and introvert is you will know why I was so drained after that.  On top of this I am HSP (Highly sensitive person).  This makes it much harder.

By the time we got home it was around midnight. It took us probably 35 minutes to get home. I was so overloaded and every little thing was annoying to me. I wanted to just be alone and sleep, everything, even my bones felt tired. I used every bit of energy I had pretty much to be able to stand that huge crowd of people.  I went downstairs as soon as possible and went inside my room. I decided to wind down a bit and listen to some New Age Music to get more relaxed. I listed to music for about a half an hour and then went to sleep. I slept like the dead yesterday night.

I did not want to wake up in the morning. I think my radio was on for 30 minutes before my brain decided to respond to it. I took a shower yesterday evening so I wouldn't have to wake up earlier today and take one. I know how my brain works so I knew I would be fizzled out and I would need that extra hour and a half of sleep. I usually wake up at 7am on Sundays it but today I woke up at 8:30. I got ready for church, decided what I wanted to wear, did my hair and stuff and got my purse. I had an orange and a glass of milk right before I left, when my ride came. I was still pretty tired, not really recovered from yesterday.

We were a little late for church today but we made the sacrament portion of the meeting. I was semi- fine for the first hour of church and stayed awake pretty well even though I wanted to sleep. The 2nd hour though I fell asleep after just kind of bending over in my seat and letting my head droop. When I managed to get myself to at least be half awake I decided I should probably just go plug my ear buds in my ears and go sit out in the foyer and listen to the scriptures. I was pretty much asleep when I was doing this but even when I was sleeping I could still hear what it was saying.  There were a few times in the 3rd hour of church when I was sleeping out on the couch and listening to the scriptures on my iPhone that I went into this state where I was awareness where I was semi-aware of things going on around me and my body and stuff, not like sleep paralysis or anything like that, that is different but it was still weird. It was like I was asleep but became aware of that when I was sleeping, kind of like I was kind of awake but not really. I could still move a little bit. Then another time I actually had a mini dream that I woke up to late after church and everyone was gone. For some reason in that dream I was carrying 3 purses haha. That was super weird. 

i did not want to get off the couch, my brain knew it had to wake up again though and so it did and I felt SO drowsey, I was stumbling everywhere and if everyone didn't know better because we were at church and none of us drink they probably would have thought I was drunk or something. I really felt like I could fall asleep standing up. I found my ride and we left o go home. i could not wait to go home. The hot car kind of made me wake up a little bit but I was still pretty tired, wiped out from yesterday.  I didn't say anything to anyone in the car on the way home. None of them really tried to talk to me I told them I was feeling really wiped out.

When I got home I went straight downstairs, got on my casual clothes, and went back upstairs for a few minutes to eat something. My dad made waffles right before he and my mom went to church. I ate some waffles and drank some milk and went downstairs. I checked facebook and Destiny Online and a few other things and decided to turn off my computer because it would be completely silent. I turned off my computer and turned on Pandora Radio on my iPhone. I had it on the New Age Mix station. I climbed back into bed and was out like a light within 2 or 3 minutes. 

I had a few times during my 3 hour nap when I would kind of wake up a little and I would be aware of my body. My body felt heavy, I could tell it really wanted sleep, my brain could tell this too because I went right back into deep sleep after I realized this. The music and the mixture of silence really helped me a lot along with the extra sleep. I felt a lot better when I woke up. It's amazing what silence and quiet music can do for you along with sleep when you are an HSP Introvert like me.  I no longer felt like I would collapse any moment after I slept more.  I'm still a bit tired, but nothing sleeping later can't fix. I'm still not completel recovered but I think I will be by tomorrow. Tomorrow is my birthday, I am turning 22.

I just watched Star Trek Next Generation and ate a Sandwich after this. I also turned back on my computer and I have just been watching anime and stuff. I don't think anything else will happen tonight but if it does I will remember to update.