Almost There

Today is the last day I am 25. I can't believe the first quarter of my life is almost over. At 11:07am tomorrow I will be 26. It is crazy and I actually hate even numbered ages. I've always been like that, it is a permanent peculiarity of mine.

I've just been being lazy and watching Diagnosis Murder. I bought some treats for my birthday as well like 2 Big Hunk taffy bars, some cheeze it's, nutella, pretzels, and a few other things. I'm not sure if I'm going to eat everything, but I just want to have some fun for my birthday. :)

Quack

The Lazy Days

I think I might take it easy for a while and just relax. It's the summer and I should be on vacation. I've started watching one of my favorite shows called "Diagnosis Murder" again. It' a shows about a doctor that helps solve murder mysteries. It stars Dick Van Dyke and is really funny sometimes. The show is 7 seasons and I would recommend it to everyone.

Just a heads up, I might be late on some of these posts in the future. They'll get up eventually, but I'm going to allow myself to get a little lazy again. Here is a pretty picture so I have something for today's post.

Laughing Gas - Part 2

I'm not in much of a mood to type today so this will be short. I got my temporary crown today. I was a tthe dentist for probably 2 and a half hours or at least 2 hours. I still love laughing gas despite the negative effects it has on me sometimes. Somehow having it for the needles and whatever else they do to me sometimes helps a lot. The negative effects like the lack of sleep and anxiety are worth it, believe me. I think I might be a little sensitive to it, so I will try to avoid these situations in the future.

I've basically been watching Disney movies all day since and sleeping.

Laughing Gas - Part 1

Yesterday I started reading the bible again, but I felt too lazy to write so I decided to wait until today to tell you. I don't know if I'll make it through this time but I'll try my best. I'm going to try and try a few things like tetris to help me while I listen.

Today I thought I was going to get a filling. Dr. Creer said that I didn't need a crown but apparently I do. I made the mistake of going on laughing gas on an empty stomach and was nauseous when they had me on it at the dentist today. I am not looking forward to going back tomorrow because it gave me the worst anxiety and I ended up watching movies all day. I even watched a movie with the ward tonight for Family Home Evening. We watched the Incredibles and it was really fun despite my anxiety.


Other than this I just did some listening to the bible and I played Runescape, it helped me a little.

Psychedelic

Bouncy Balls

Equivalent Exchange

 EDIT: I decided to take out the name of the anime and my recommendation because it has some nudity and I don't feel great about promoting it. Whether or not you decide to find and watch it is up to you.

Watching this anime I really like again made me think about a concept they have on that show called the law of equivalent exchange. In the show people follow this rule because they are alchemists. The rule states that to gain something something else must be taken away to balance it out. I was thinking of how much it would change the world if we transplanted this idea into our daily lives. I feel like we are always taking stuff but never giving, at least a lot of the time. If we all believed in balancing things out like this things would be much different. Greed and all selfishness would die. I really believe that this concept is the key to true happiness.

I believe the reason the world is so awry is because it is out of balance. We take from it, but we don't give back enough and that is why there is a lot of chaos and sadness. The concept of equivalent exchange is actually pretty brilliant. Even in the show if you don't give enough in exchange for creating something you can end up with horrible consequences. Another concept I loved in the show is that human life can not have a solid value, human life is priceless and nothing can equal it. That is one of my favorite concepts from the show.

I am glad I finally decided to write down these thoughts. We all need to really think about our actions and what we give and take away every day. In the end if the balance gets too badly disturbed bad things can happen. We see them all over the place but I don't really think we notice because we are so busy.

Anyway, I hope you contemplate this and understand.

Shopping List

I didn't feel like going anywhere far today so I just stick around and went to Harmons for a few hours.

I spent some time organizing the candy isle for fun and then walked around and started a shopping list. The fact that I was hungry was messing with my concentration so I got some Blazing Squash Chili for a late lunch with some crackers. It was amazing.

 
Here is the shopping list so far
 
Here are some pictures of some weird cheese I saw as well

  

I went all over the store and looked at everything.

Later after I was done I walked to Dairy Queen and looked at their cakes. I think I really will get an ice cream cake from them for my birthday. I think that will be super fun.  I am turning 26 on July 4th.

After I was done and walked home I had some vegetarian stir fry that mom made. I think it had peas, kale, quinoa, almonds and cheese. It was great and really filling. I aspire to become a vegetarian someday, so it was really interesting for me.

The day was pretty normal after that. I did make a list of my favorite candy though. This is off my facebook.

MY FAVORITE CANDY IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER.

Hot Tamales (any kind)
Symphony (toffee / Blue letter one)
Sixlets
Black Licorice
Pay Day
Mr. Goodbar
Milkyway
Big Hunk
Hershey's Cookies and Cream
Ghirardelli mango chocolate
Lindt assorted chocolates
Baby Ruth
Heath
Bob's peppermint balls or sticks. Also all natural peppermint twists.
Starburst
Cherry Jolly Ranchers
Salt Water Taffy
Take 5
Necco Wafers
Hichew

Anyway for the rest of today I just listened to music, watched Goosebumps, took a nap and played iPhone games.

Zevia

Today wasn't very interesting. I just hung around watching Goosebumps and drinking grape flavored Zevia. Goosebumps has been amazing, if you haven't watched it in a while you should. Anyway, here are some pictures to make up for today being so boring. I DID take a walk today so I could tan my shoulders more but that is about it.

  

And then Savage Chickens.

  

Scavenger Hunt

Today I woke up at 11 and ate breakfast. I wanted to go somewhere and so I decided today was a great day to go to the gym. It’s been a while because I didn’t know I had a working bus pass. I got my tank top and shorts on and packed everything I needed for the gym including some extra clothes. When I was ready I went out the door and headed to the bus stop. I waited around 20 minutes for the bus and then got on I was glad to be on it for the first time in weeks. When we got to the mall I decided that I was going to go get some deodorant from Dollar Tree first before anything else. I can’t believe I forgot that one important item out of everything. I was running low anyway, so i guess I would have ended up getting it soon anyway.

I walked to Dollar Tree in the blazing heat and knew I was going to get sun burned with the combination of that and the fact that I waited for the bus earlier for so long. I was tempted to buy some other things, but walked out of the store with just deodorant in the end. I immediately headed straight for the gym after this.

When I was at the gym I just did cardio on the stair mill, eliptical, and bike. I also did some swimming and sat in the hot tub for a bit though. I also did the steam room and earlier the sauna right before I swam. Pool noodles semed to be popular today because the guy I was sharing a lane with and some other people were using them today. My ears don’t like water very much and so sometimes I use them to keep my head out of the water. Sometimes I’m fine, but I didn’t want to get water in my ears today because I have to keep my headphones out of my ears for a few days when that happens.

I cleaned up and packed my things after I was done swimming and headed to the mall where luckily we were having FHE (Family Home Evening) today! We were given a list of things and actions we had to do as a group (there were 5 groups) and we had to take pictures of these things. Some of the things included taking a picture of a manaquin wearing something blue, dressing up in funny clothes, taking a picture in the Disney store, and taking a picture with a bear. There were other things of course, and we had a lot of fun looking for them. We finished all the the listexcept for 4 things. I was actually happy I didn’t win becauseI am there almost every other day and I feel I would have felt like a cheater. Some other groups did better or just as good or were just barely behind us. We had rocket pops after we were done and took a picture. They accidentally got me while I was adjusting my blue headband. I look totally weird in the picture.



I got a ride home with someone from the ward after and they drove me to the church were originally everyone but me started out. We all parted ways after this and I walked home. I had chicken and a mango for dinner when I got home. The rest isn’t really important. I did watch a few episodes of Goosebumps. I’ve started watching that again. I forgot how good it is!

Father's Day

It certainly is summer now for sure. Yesterday and today were both blazing hot. I can't say I mind much though because I love spring and summer a lot. I have always prefered to be hot over cold unless if I am overheated or dehydrated.

Saturday we celebrated Sam's birthday, he turned two! We went up to this park near Salt Lake City and some of Kayla's relatives (Paul's wife) were there and also Sam's friend that was turning 3 as well and his relatives and some other friends. We were under a shaded canopy or whatever it is called, you can see in the pictures below. We had pizza, fruit kabobs, and later vanilla raspberry cake with vanilla ice cream. The pizza was from Costco and was great as usual. The cake was made by Kayla and you can also see that below. We just hung out at the park, the kids went and played on the splash pad, and us adults just sat around and talked. I didn't do much talking, but I did walk around and look at everything. If you don't know what a splash pad is you can see it below. It's that water covered place that all the kids are playing in. Sadly I didn't know what a splash pad was and so I didn't realize that I should bring a bathing suit.


            
I was blazing hot and ready to go. The party was over after almost an hour and a half I think, but it felt longer. Today I learned that I don't like to hold still in hot weather unless if I am under some kind of water like a sprinkler or something. After mom and dad were done talking to people we headed to the freeway where we droveto the Whole Foods store. That store is great and I'd never been in one before. Mom and dad picked up a few things and I tried a bag of funky naturally colored potato chips. I hope that Whole Foods comes closer because I want to explore their store more, it is so awesome.

We went to Costco next, I'll have to tell you more about whole foods some other time with pictures. At Costco it was fun because it was a different costco than we usually go to and so everything was in a different place. They were givng out free Creamies today and some other samples like pound cake it was fun. Oh there was this one sampl that was bread, turkey and cheese or something, it was so good! I didn't pay much attention to what mom and dad got so I can't really tell you other than eggs and some produce stuff maybe. After costco dad and I went into Home Depot and picked up a new sprinker and I looked at those sprinkler nozzles that have settings that you can change. I have always wanted one of those, but I forgot about them for a while I guess!



We went home after this and just did a bunch of random stuff like played runescape, watched anime, stuff that isn't important or interesting.

Today was father's day and we had Parmesan chicken with potatoes and salad for dinner. Mom and Laura were experimenting with coconut flower and made some really interesting cookies that turned out to be a complete flop. They were edible but we probably won't try baking with coconut flower again. I personally liked the chocolate chip cookies even though they were a bit weird. These cookies were a special request from Dad. I was taking a nap sadly so I didn't help at all with them. I am really glad I have awesome parents that love to experiment with cooking even though it doesn't always work.

In church we just walked about repentance, and forgiveness, and some other things I'm blanking out. In temple prep we talked about what we need to do to become worthy of entering the temple it was a fun lesson! We talked about the Holy Ghost in the 3rd hour and it was an interesting lesson also!

I am looking forward to the start of a new week. I think It's going to be interesting.

Limits

Today I thought we were going to celebrate my nephew Sam's birthday, but turns out it is tomorrow. I am glad I cleaned up and got ready to go out though because today I ended up going out. Occasionally I'll play this game called "Limits" that is what I choose to call it. Limits is a game where you chose an amount under $10 or $15 and you see what you end up buying. My only rules for myself are that if it is food I have to really like it, and if it is an item it can't be anything I'm going to end up throwing away soon. These rules make me really think before I buy, and it makes it more fun.

Today's game of limits I did a $3 limit. I hadn't gone out for a while and I wanted something challenging that would make me go to more than one place. I ended up taking a bus (that was very late) to the mall. I didn't look at much in the mall because I already had 3 things in mind for the game. At that point in time I was going to get some ice cream, get 3 things from Dollar Tree, or some sort of treat from Harmon's on the way back if I didn't find anything. I wanted ice cream to be a last resort, so I headed to Dollar Tree first. On my way to Dollar Tree I made a stop at Joanne's and looked at their fabric for a while. I found a few I really loved! I am thinking of just making my own bedding instead of buying some.

 
  
I was going to go look through more than the fabric, but I changed my mind and went to Dollar Tree. I didn't find much there, and the stuff i was interested in I'm not ready to buy yet. I looked through their 4th of July stuff and found some cool decorations but I don't want to buy anything 4th of July themed yet. I also found cute piggy banks in assorted colors and some peppermint candy that I am kind of fond of. I looked through the whole store, but wasn't super interested in anything they had to be honest. I can get 4ht of July stuff later and so I left the store empty handed.

It had been a few hours since I left by this time and I walked back to the mall. I looked at Claire's in the mall to make sure they didn't have anything on clearance, and I also got a chocolate sample from See's candies since I haven't done that in a while. In the end I ended up not getting anything until I went to Harmon's on my way back home. I picked up a turkey pot pie for dinner that was on sale for only $2.29! I headed home after this and made it after I had a little bit of ice cream. I was blazing hot from walking out in the sun and I couldn't get a ride home because everybody was gone. The pie was great and I watched some anime while I ate it. I've been working on watching the first series of Fullmetal Alchemist again. Both series are great, and it's been a while since I have watched the old version. There are two versions of the series, one is more accurate to the Japanese manga than the other.

The rest of tonight wasn't really that exciting. I've just been watching random videos about people taste testing foods from other countries. I find people's point of view on food to be interesting.

Anyway, I guess this is all.

Loyalty

I am a very honest person and so I only expect honesty in return no doubt.

People might wonder why I am so picky about friends. I make it no secret that while anyone can become my friend I only think of a few people as TRUE friends. My true friends aren't nessicarily friends that I hang out with a lot or people that I talk to a lot. I judge true friends based off of the things that are the most important to me. If you are loyal, honest, kind, confident, positive, charismatic, encouraging, understanding, creative, and motivated you are more likely to become one of my favorite people. This of course is just naming a few things I look for in a true friend.

I know that expecting all my true friends to have all these great qualities in abundance isn't really realistic. I have a lot of different kinds of friends in general, so of course I would understand that I can't have everything perfect. I do feel like at LEAST 3 or 4 of my true friends have all these qualities in a great quantity, even if all of them don't always realize it. Energy is also really important to me. Some peoples energy just attracts me more than others giving them an advantage. Most of the friends I consider as true friends I feel have amazing energy that always gets my attention. From my point of view everyone has a different feeling about then or an electrical energy and some are more attractive to me than others. It's a sad but true fact that if your energy isn't right than you probably won't have much of a chance of getting close to me. Some people might think this is unfair, but it's the way I've always worked so I just roll with it.

Of course I wouldn't demand qualities from a friend that I can't match. I know my potential as a friend and I always try my best to be there for my friends and I always let them know that I care. I know I'm quiet and sometimes fly off of peoples radar, but I am always watching and I always care. I am a really loyal person to those that deserve my loyalty. If you are a true friend to me it only makes sense that I will be a true friend to you. Because I have had turbulent relationships and I've had people leave me behind I understand how important qualities like this are. I have been betrayed so I understand how important it is to never do that to anyone. I never want to hurt anyone and I never will because I have been hurt. I could have chosen to be bitter and to be negative and depressed, but thankfully I took the other road and I'll never regret that. If there is one thing that I am proud of it is my loyalty and friendship.

I just want my friends to know once more that even though I am pretty much nearly mute most of the time I do care and I do watch. Words aren't really everything, and I prefer actions most of the time. Words paired with actions are extremely powerful. The only reason I bother to type stuff like this out is that I know I can and will back it up with actions.

It's Finally Gone

My copy of my blog that was on Xanga is finally gone. I didn't know how to get rid of it without subscribing again, but I finally figured it out. I'm really glad that that chapter of my life is through. I loved Xanga, but the current Xanga is only a shell of it's former self and I'd rather have that copy of my blog remain just a memory. If I had let it exist the way Xanga is now I feel like it would have been an insult to the whole blog. All my other Xanga friends moved on and ended their blog on Xanga so it was only right that I did the same. I am glad that it is finally gone and I don't have to think about it anymore.

We had Hungry Howie's pizza for dinner tonight. Dad got Hawaiian, pepperoni pizza, breadsticks, and root beer. After being stressed out about dinner for a while we all decided to go the easy route. Today was a simple nice day and I watched anime on Netflix and took a couple of walks though they were very hot. As much as I have loved taking a break and not going somewhere every day for a couple of weeks I'm going to enjoy being active again and going to the gym. I wish I had known that my school bus pass had been active this whole time because I would have done a lot more this month. I guess it's better now than later. I am a bit low on money, even after mom fixed my problems, but I am a creative person.

I love this blog and I am looking forward to starting the improvements. :)