Facing My Fears at FHE (Part 2)

I don't feel much like writing today, so I'll just get to the good part. Tonight I ended up facing another fear, just like last week. We played a balloon popping game where we tied balloons to our ankles, got into taems of pink and white and tried popping the balloons of the people that weren't on our team. It got really funny really fast, but sadly, unlike last week I did not get any video. We were playing for probably a good half an hour at least. My team did pretty well and due to my high vigilance I lasted a long time. I have a fear of loud sudden noises, so I was too nervous to pop anything, but I was fast enough to evade. II kind of wonder if I'll have to face another fear next week. A big part of me hopes I do not

This is the most important detail of today, so I'll just leave it like this.

Facing My Fears (Part 1)

School started today, and I am SO excited. I had Intro to Music and I am planning on getting an institute class soon as well. I think I'm going to take Pearl of Great Price, but I'm not absolutely sure. Intro to Music seems to be an awesome class. The class has over 100 people in it and I can tell it's going to be challenging, but I'm ready for anything. Dr. Smith himself warned us not to expect anything really easy.

Anyway, after school I went to the book store on campus and tried to get my books, but only my philosophy books were there today. I'm really hoping that I can get my other books soon.

I am just going to skip to the evening now. I just worked on Math a lot today after school and a lot of my usual random unimportant stuff. This evening at FHE the ward played Human Fooseball. Some of you know that I am really really afraid of flying objects so this was so terrifying for me. I only lasted about 5 minutes. I wanted to participate with everyone else, but I got really bad anxiety and I was getting light headed. James was there tonight and I won't lie, I was happy to see him a lot. I partly wanted to play because he was there, but it didn't work out. I did take some vdeo instead though. We had cookies after this. Here is the video.

I'll end with a poem about Sam I wrote today.

Shatter

Shatter and then silence
This is now the end
He does make my heart fly
Time to leave the clouds

I tried to keep my wings
Now I must let go
Though it pains me deeply
I will let them break

Who knows what will happen
Only time will tell
Though my heart is broken
I know this is right

See the glass just falling
I will turn away
But I'll keep on wishing
That we'll unite again

Shattering Silence

Saturday Laura, Natalie, Kayla and I went swimming and we went to a Stake BBQ for all the wards in my home Stake. I don't visit my home ward for church often, but it was fun to eat and swim and see everyone. Laura brought peanut butter cookies because they were supposed to have a bake off but ended up not judging or anything. We accidentally left the pan the cookies were in on the table and lost it. When we were at the pool later I didn't really feel like swimming all that much to be honest. I find that that is the case more and more. I have been an anti chlorine person for most of my life. I love water, just hate chlorine. As I get older the less I am willing to tolerate it. Of course some of my lack of enthusiasm might have to do with the fact that I have free access to a pool at the gym and usually when I get unlimited acces to something I don't get as excited after a while. The gym not included as a whole this is the case for a lot of things. Oh, and I almost forgot, after the BBQ I took a walk down the street before I went to the pool.

I've come to a hard conclusion when it comes to Sam. Hom not talking to me is driving me crazy and all I can do it talk so I'm going to put the breaks on the whole thing and just distance myself from him. The way our lives are right now and how far away he is up at BYU Idaho it's only going to damage us both if I keep trying.  I really want to be a proper friend sometimes in the future, but for now I can't so I told him that I just have to walk away for a while until we have a better opportunity. He and I are still friends on facebook, so it's not like I have no rope to him if I need one for some reason.

I've been drawing more in church lately, I'll show my church doodles sometime soon.

Besides church I have been watching Star Trek Deep Space Nine and some Let's Plays. Playing the Portal games was amazing and I have been watching other people play. It's so funny watching how other people react to everything that happens in the games.

Portal Two + Cake is Awesome

We had some left over cake from Natalie's birthday so I decided to eat some while playing portal two! The game has been fun and I'm getting through it even though it's definitely harder than the first one. I have always enjoyed puzzle games. I love the uniqueness of Portal, it has so much imagination put into it. Anyway, I've just been pretty much playing on and off all day. I'm excited for my trip to Bear Lake as I think I've said about a million times! haha. Anyway, I'll have plenty of cool stuff to tell you over the next few days so I'm just going to let this go for today. No need to write a novel like I sometimes do. :)

Crazy Numbers

Just been spending most of my time playing portal. Excited for the ward activity in  a couple of days! I've never been to Bear Lake. I hope it doesn't have as many mosquitoes as I have heard. I absolutely hate flying bugs! Anyway, here is a church doodle I did today.

Portal

So I've been hearing the expresion "The cake is a lie" for years without not knowing where it came from. Well, now I know. I started playing Portal today and I am hooked. Ever since I added James on Steam I've felt like playing more games on there. Portal is a  room escape game and it is fantastic. Chances are most of you have at least heard of it. You navigate through rooms and obstacles by use of a portal gun which can create two portals. I'll leave a video below. The game is fantastic and I can hardly seem to pull myself away from it. The video is spoiler free. It basically just shows you the bare basics without ruining anything.

Slow Cello Music #1

Guess Who Got New Glasses!

Finally got my new glasses today. I've been waiting for a while. They are slipping down a lot, but I don't think I'll end up wearing them for stuff other than movies and TV as usual.

Proper Bedding.

Guess who got proper bedding? :)
No more sleeping on top of a comforter for me. 

Eventually I want something really colorful, but for now this is perfect. It's the only thing I've seen that I solidly like so far. Mom got it for me. :)

End of Summer BBQ

 Today my ward had an end of the summer BBQ and I brought some mini cinnamon rolls from Costco. We originally started outside, but it started to poor, so we moved inside. While we were outside getting everything ready I talked to James a little bit, and asked him what kind of games he likes and other stuff.

When we were inside I actually got to add James on Steam, I will probably play more since I have him as a friend on there now. He accepted my friend request after the BBQ. At the BBQ we had a mini devotional and talked about Bear Lake as well. I am really excited to go there and I also saw that James took one of the packing lists which makes me happy. I really want to get to know him a lot more, I've put it off for long enough.

There was chicken, salad, fruit, the usual stuff you know at the BBQ. People also brough chips, brownies, cookies and lots of other stuff. I had a lot of fun talking and eating.  Truthfully, it took me a long time to get the nerve up to ask James what his Steam username was. i am not really used to so casually talking to him yet.

Anyway, here is a silly picture I took.

Carmel Apple

Today nothing much happened. I tried a Zapple apple for the first time today, they are new in the mall and so far I am impressed. I also went out and got grilled cheese for lunch, it was great. Later I just played minecraft and a bunch of random stuff.

Someone

Essance of Night

Dreaming away now
Floating on the clouds of night
Silver moon shining

Starlight wind blowing
All of their eyes are closed now
Fantasy and sky

All is so quiet
It seems as if time has stopped
Soon the sun will rise

Too Quiet

Nothing much happened today, I just turned some Rhapsody of Fire on earlier when no one was home. I decided that since no one was home I might as well play it loud and that was really fun. It really was too quiet. Later I went for a walk and took these pictures, it was a nice walk.

Brunch?

I thought it would be fun to walk to Harmons and have brunch there. I got a yogurt, an egg salad crossant and an orange juice. I sat down at one of the tables they have there and ate. Overall it was a nice experience, and so was looking around the store for what I wanted to eat.

I ended up going to the mall and walking around. During the end I went to Cold Stone Creamery and I got a churro caramel crave. I've never tried any of their specials before, but now I want to try them all.

Anyway, later I took our my new cello, played for a bit and took a picture of it out of its case!