My whole life I have felt like this. Like I have this unbelievably strong curse on me that keeps me from happiness and drives people away from me. I try so hard, I don't know what to do. My eyes, my body in general feels cursed. Everything about me, I just feel like I bring nothing but bad fortune to everyone and I'm a burden, and a nuisance, and a bother to everyone around me.
I'm not writing this to tell you about this curse or any of its components except for one. The fact that my dental work has been cursed since the beginning. Something went wrong before i was born, something with my genetics and I am missing most of my permanent teeth. I have most of my baby teeth left. I've been desperately trying to keep them intact. I have never had front teeth, ever. I wear a retainer with teeth on it. I lost 2 other teeth a couple of years ago, the one on either side of where my 2 front teeth would be. So I am already missing 4 teeth. Today I went to the dentist, everything seemed fine, but 2 other teeth on the top have to be pulled out now. I want to scream WHY ME WHY ME WHY ME!!!!???? I already feel very self concious about everything that has to do with my mouth, teeth and all. This just really nails 2 more nails in my self esteem coffin.
you cant imagine how I am feeling today.
Another element of this curse that I guess I have. Is that i have been developing wrinkes on my forehead since i was in 7th grade. They are very noticeable, and one of them is particularly deep. It is right across my forehead and i have 4 that are becoming more noticeable.
Every day I ask myself. Who would want a girl like me? But still I try so hard to keep the people I love without success.
Its complicated, this curse I have.
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