I knew I would feel this way eventually. I feel like my life is moving too fast, and now that I am going back to college soon, and possibly getting a job I am getting a bit nervous. I just realized this today, and I have been thinking about it for a while now. I never thought of it very much in the past couple of months but sometimes I doubt if I am ready to start my life again. I just assume that everyone feels this way sometimes so I am not terribly worried but it is making me feel nervous. I am worried that I will lose confidence and motivation when I go back and I won't be able to do as well as I want to. I am worried that I won't be able to understand what the teachers try to tell me. I am afraid I will be slow and will fall behind. I really don't want to fail again. I am also worried that having a laptop won't fix my problem of not being able to take notes because I am too slow at writing with a pen or pencil. I just need to express these things because expressing my feelings on Xanga so far has helped a lot in the past. I am worried about all the hardships I know will come to me when I start living my life again instead of just sitting here on the computer, playing games, writing stuff, and talking to friends. I am afraid of the pain I will feel as I start running and working out, and all the stress that will come with it.
I am feeling a lot right now and I just needed to write it down.
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