And Life Goes On (Part 2) - [PICTURES]

This is the continuation of my last post. Here is the link (PART 1) I forgot to put the pictures and I decided instead of putting them in the other part I'm just going to put them here. :)

And Life Goes On (Part 1)

HERE ARE THE PICTURES I MENTION IN THIS POST. I FORGOT TO POST THEM HERE AND SO I ENDED UP PUTTING THEM IN PART 2. --->  PART 2 

VIDEOS ARE AT THE BOTTOM OF THIS POST

I know it has been three months since I have written anything. I just get really really lazy and procrastinate a lot when it comes to writing. What the real shame is that a lot of cool things have happened to me over the past 3 months. For the first half of July I was at Linda's house in California. We did a lot while I was there. I usually never get to be around my siblings very much, so it was really nice to be around her for a couple of weeks. She got to go to Jessica Simpsons wedding and we went out shopping. She bought some jewelry and we walked along the street and just looked at all the shops. I wouldn't even know where to start if I were to tell you everything that happened there. I will give you a few highlights though. I bought a really nice japanese fan in one of the stores. I can't remember what Linda was looking at in that particular store, might have been bags, but along the wall there were Japanese fans and I just fell in love with the one I got.

There was a shop where they sell different kinds of stones, each kind of stone is supposed to give off a different feeling or mean something. My favorite was the polished hematite stones, I was really drawn to those a lot. There was more to the store than just rocks, but I can't remember everything. It had a pretty good feeling inside of it. The other cool store I remember was this one that had a lot of used clothes that people used in different movies and TV shows. I guess the clothes people wear are just like costumes or something a lot of the time and when they are done filming that is where they send stuff sometimes. There were a ton of clothes there and they had a ton of different origins.

Anyway, I'm getting a little bit ahead of myself, let's just start from the beginning.

I took a plane on the 1st of July, I used my cane to make things faster. It's amazing how helpful the people are there when they think you can't see. I made sure to milk it for all it was worth because I just wanted to get through it. I really hate using my cane and I will go to great lengths to avoid using it if I have to. It's not the cane I hate, it's the attention I get. I just feel so much psychological pressure it was driving me crazy and I couldn't take it. I don't even need it that much anyway. It only took me about 2 weeks to figure this out. I am a hands free kind of person, so having to always hold something was annoying. If I ever go to an airport again I'll use it again though just because it is faster and more convenient for me.

I was in Economy class I think on the way there. They don't give you any juice or anything until you go on business class. I was in business class on the way back and it was lovely, though I brought my own snacks and drinks on the plane. There were these mini TVs on the backs of the seats, most of the stuff on them like the TV shows and the movies and stuff cost money though. I had a very pleasant trip both ways.

Anyway, I stayed at my sisters house the whole two weeks, her place is pretty nice and I slept like a baby on the blow up mattress she bought. I never sleep at home like I slept on that bed over there. It was queen size. I got to sleep in Jax's room. I got to spend a lot of time with my cute niece and nephew. I got to help Linda take care of them a lot, and while she was away at Jessica Simpsons wedding stuff I got to help babysit them. My dad came there as well, so I had help. I still get really bad anxiety when I babysit, but he was there to help. There were a few times when I thought I wasn't going to make it through, but I did. I get really nervous when I babysit because I used to have to babysit for my other sister and I guess I got overwhelmed sometimes and it became too much. Once I got through the times when I had to do that I just couldn't do that anymore. It was really stressful and I sometimes nearly lost control. I remember pushing natalie a few times. Baby sitting is one of the few things that scares me and stresses me out and causes me really bit anxiety. I don't want to go into anymore detail, but it was harder than I let on.

I had my birthday while I was there on the 4th of July. Jax got sick the day before though, so we didn't get to do much, but I did get to go to lunch and have an amazing steak and fries. I will never forget that. Linda bought me a birthday cake, it looked like a giant cupcake. The bottom looked like it had a gradient red white and blue cupcake paper cup but it was really frosting and I was surprised. The top was white with red and blue stars. It had some little golden decorations, it was so amazing. I will make sure to include that photo. My sister went to Jessica Simpsons pre wedding BBQ on the 4th, so I did babysit a little on my birthday, it wasn't too bad though because most of the time Jax was sleeping. I am actually glad I got to have a laid back birthday where I got to just watch anime and read and just hang out. Usually my birthday is full of going places like parades and fireworks and it's a complete sensory overload. I honestly as an introvert don't have very much fun on my birthday, it just make me cranky.

Oh yeah, another thing I almost forgot is that we got our nails done at the local mall, the mall was so big and there were so many stores. We didn't get to explore it more because of everyone that got sick, but I want to go back and get my nails done and do more stuff there. I also had the best mango sorbet ever in a waffle bowl at a Ben and Jerry's stand. There is just too much to describe, it was so crazy.

My sister got sick as well while I was there, right after we went to the zoo. While I was there I also go to go to Griffith observatory and I also went to the beach. We went to not only Santa Monica beach, but we went to the pier as well. We looked around and got ice cream and checked out the old carousel. I will slow you pictures at the end of this post. When I was at the beach we just put a blanket on the sand and I got in the water and just let the waves crash against me, I even got knocked over a few times. My poor nephew  got completely knocked over and the water went over his face. He got scared, but recovered and was back in the water pretty fast. It was a lot of fun. I could talk about the zoo, but I'll let the pictures speak for themselves. The coolest thing I didn't get pictures of was when we went driving around Hollywood and Linda told us what every place along the streets was, it was really cool learning about the places she went and who she met.

I managed to avoid getting sick with a lot of help from a lot of hand washing and being careful not to touch anything that was touched by Linda or Jax. If I did touch something I always washed my hands afterward. It's not that I am afraid of germs, it's just getting sick there would have truly sucked a lot. I don't get to see Justin Jax, Violet and Linda a whole lot.

One other highlight took place the night before I left for home. Linda needed something at the store, so we went for a night walk to Ralph's grocery store and I got to see the night life and learn about more places around where she lives. We brought along Violet with us and it was amazing seeing everything. Violet actually started crawling when I was there, it was so adorable. She wasn't quite to full crawling, it was more like scooting, but I'm glad I got to see that. I think dad and I being there really helped her start to crawl, she is really attached to Linda and when I was there she would cry every time she was put down. When Linda and Justin were out of the room she calmed down, but we had to keep her occupied a lot. Every time either of them came into the room again she would start crying again. Violet is so adorable haha.

Anyway, I think I have written enough for this part. If I have forgotten to mention anything I will just write about it in my next post. I just wanted to talk about this trip for this post. It's a lot less stressful for me if after a while of not posting I just post the stuff people missed in parts. Part 2 will come soon!

PART 2 IS HERE

Videos

Connections

If there is one thing I really hate it is losing contact with people I care about. I am just going to admit right here and now that I keep tabs on all of my friends, even the ones I haven’t seen for over a decade or more. I get uneasy when it comes to being completely disconnected from people I’ve had ties with, so I just never let it happen. I have a super sharp memory for people so this helps me a lot to never lose anyone. A lot of people when they haven’t seen someone for a long time memories fade and so do feelings, but this has never been the case with me in the slightest. Once you enter any kind of relationship with me you are pretty much permanently cemented inside my heart for life. I’m the kind of person that cannot see someone for 10 years and feel like nothing ever happened, like we knew each other the whole entire time if I see that someone again. There is actually a very good example of how solid my memories and feelings are.

The very first person I remember thinking of as a friend was named Camron. Camron and I knew each other back in the 1^st grade, we were in a small class together along with I think 7 other people. Camron moved after that school year ended I think. I might have the time he moved slightly off inside my memory; I was pretty young back then after all. Camron was my first crush as well and the first person I really developed a deep liking for and a strong attachment to. I remember it always bugged me when he wasn’t there, I felt a lot more lonely. I remember one day when I saw he wasn’t there and I asked the teacher where he was and she said he had chicken pocks, I was sad about that. Actually for some strange reason because I don’t remember when he moved exactly right I sometimes wonder whether or not she was telling the truth. I guess I will never know, and I’m okay with that. I got in trouble a few times for staring at Camron in class. I just couldn’t help but keep my eyes on him every chance I got. We even sat with each other at lunch. I remember one day at lunch I was having a shy moment and I tried to hide from him behind the lid of my hot pink lunch box. I remember Camron was the only person I hung out on the playground and I LOVED to have him chase me, I just thought that was so fun. I think he knew I had a crush on him now that I really think about it, and sometimes I hid from him on the playground just to tease him a little. I’m pretty sure the memory I am thinking of was also when I learned that he was moving, I remember feeling disappointed and surprised. I actually remember saying goodbye to him right before he moved. To tell you the truth, it never sank in that he was gone.

After he moved I got an invitation to his birthday party, that made me really happy. I remember I gave him Play Doh for a birthday present. I wish I had given him something better now, something that he would remember forever. I suppose that is normal because he has always had a special place in my heart. The invitations to the birthday party were a pirate micky mouse, I kept that invitation clear until last year. I remember we decorated some kind of black hats, I literally covered mine in stickers. I remember someone, I think his mom thought that was so funny. We also went bowling, I remember getting Camron’s attention, I wanted him to watch me so badly. I was so happy when I had his attention. Sadly I don’t remember much more than this about the party. I remember I met his brother Austin for the first time though! Because I only met him once it took me a while to remember that. Anyway, that was the last time I thought I would see Camron, the future threw me a curveball however.

I’m just going to take a slight detour for a paragraph, it’s nessicary. The story goes on after this next paragraph.

I switched schools half way through the 2^nd grade and started going to the school for the visually impaired. Between the time he left and the time I switched schools I remember I was pretty much a loner on the playground.  I was part of a class of 8 people with visual impairments for 3 years, while I was with them I became very close with every one of them. It was in those three years that I struck up a friendship with Eric who would later become my best friend and would remain so all the way through high school. Eric and I didn’t exactly get along all the time when we were at school together, we actually got in fights almost every other day, but we liked each other none the less and we both knew this. Eric lost his dad not long after we started going to school with each other and I guess he felt like he could express his sadness and frustration to me. I knew he was sad and angry so I never held anything against him. Anyway I can talk more about Eric some other time, I have to finish my story about Camron.

Anyway, so I transferred schools again and started going to another local school half way through the 5^th grade. I went to a resource class for part of the day and a regular class for another part just like I did in the 1^st grade. I finished the rest of the fifth grade, to be honest it was really weird and I was in kind of a dream state and I didn’t fully comprehend most of what was going on in the regular classroom. In short I was quite confused and disoriented, something I am glad wore off in time. I had to go to summer school after the 5^th grade ended and guess where I ended up going to summer school? I ended up going to summer school at the same school that Camron went to! I hadn’t seen him for 4 years by this time but I still remembered him of course and I was very happy to see him. The only difference this time is that I was in my shy phase, so sadly I didn’t talk to him that much. This is something I regret still. I wasn’t sure what to say or what to do because I was just too surprised to see him. I can’t be absolutely sure of this, but I think he remembered me. I think that there I a possibility that he didn’t know what to say either to be quite frank. We were only with each other for I think 3 or 5 weeks, I can’t be sure though. I don’t really remember precisely how long summer school was that summer. One day when the class was playing capture the flag and I was playing off on the sidelines because I felt kind of awkward one of the teachers somehow got me to join the game. I told her that I wanted to be on Camron’s team. I wasn’t really expecting her to actually say this fact out loud but she did and I was really embarrassed about that. I don’t think I could have been any more transparent than that. I remember sitting at a table, I don’t know what we were talking about, but Camron was there. The first time I noticed he was there was in a similar situation, I don’t remember what we were doing but I think it was something in groups, I’m not sure. I must have sat somewhere close to him or heard his name or something. I was more than surprised to see him there that was the last thing I expected. One time I was chewing gum and I tried to stick it to the bottom of my seat, it got all over my fingers instead and I was caught, I’m pretty sure he saw that. Haha. While I was there we could do different things to ear tokens, like good behavior and stuff. The tokens were just little paper squares I’m pretty sure. Anyway, at the end of summer school we had this auction and I used my tokens on this stuffed crab, at least I think it was a stuffed crab. I was sitting somewhere near Camron and I remember feeling a little bit self-conscious. I was happy that I got to be around him for a little while longer.One thing I regret for sure is that sometimes I had a tendency to have an attitude sometimes with the teachers on occasion. To be quite honest I was quite bratty back then, mostly because I was going through a really big change and when I was scared in the past I had a tendency to lash out or be rebellious a little.  I’m glad I have learned how to manage my feelings and problems a lot better. Anyway, the end seemed to come really fast, I was sad to have to go, I knew I’d probably never see him again most likely after that. I still treat every memory of him like it is a precious jewel that I want to hold onto forever.

Camron has gone In and out of my consciousness more times than I can count. I guess that my heart just refuses to let go of him completely. Anyone that knows me in person probably won’t be surprised about this; it is very common for me to emotionally never completely let go of people I become attached to. The thing about this though is the amount of people I am attached to I can probably count on my two hands. I don’t open my heart that easily to people and building attachments has always been really hard for me. I’m not really sorry I am picky about who my close friends are though. Anyway I’ve been keeping track of where Camron is this whole time, like just where he lives and stuff. I would feel less than happy if I ever completely let him slip through my fingers. I have wanted to talk to him again for a long time, I think I will end up probably writing him a letter or something like that. I know I could just call him, but just for this time I feel like writing him first is the way to go. I am not 100% comfortable with the phone and I want to save it for later if it comes to that. I really should have kept in touch this whole time, but I had so many other things to worry about and I was a little nervous about it for a while. I think I have finally come to the point where I can’t wait anymore though. I don’t want to enter my second quarter of life with any regrets. I’m not really expecting anything, I have no idea what will happen when I contact him. I am just going to keep an open mind and go with the flow.

I believe that not forgetting is the strongest form of loyalty there is. I always try to be the best person I can be for everyone I care about. It is really important to me to be a good role model; I always want to be someone others can look up to and go to if they need help with anything. I always try to be the kind of friend and person in general that others would want to be around. I have always loved the thought of being the guardian, or the person that keeps others from falling to despair and darkness. I guess I get this from all the superhero shows I grew up watching and all the books I read. Even fictional characters can be good role models. I grew up aiming for the sky, and my dreams have always been very big. I’ve never seen anything with aiming high in every aspect of life, even when it comes to friends.

Anyway, every connection I have is priceless and I never take anyone for granted. I always make sure I know the value of everyone I know and what they are capable of.

I will probably talk about stuff like this again in the future again. For now I think I should leave it like this, it is really late now. I really should stop going to sleep at 4:30am. Haha.

Butterscotch & Coconut

You know those gloomy days where you just want to just sleep and eat candy and be lazy? I had one of those today, but I didn’t give in, well not the whole way anyway. It was windy, cloudy and sprinkling rain all day, the feeling of everything today was just quiet and mellow.

It was cloudy with a chance of meatballs all day long. I had that cream of wheat I made yesterday for breakfast today. I am glad I saved it today because I also had one of those mornings where I just couldn’t think up anything to eat. Anyway I don’t want to talk about breakfast.
I reeeeeeally didn’t want to get up today, if you read my last entry the reason will be obvious. None the less I pulled my behind out of bed and went to the gym. I did the usual, just did more sit-ups and didn’t swim today because after doing an hour if cardio and my personal trainers routine I was exhausted.

I gave in today and made a little purchase at See’s candies. I bought a dark coconut cream and 5 butterscotch chews.

I went home after I was done there, when I got home I cleaned up and ate some of yesterday’s Mac & Cheese. My mom, dad, and brother were talking about heart rates, and I discovered that my resting heart rate that is 105 isn’t normal. My mom measured it with this finger clamp thing. She said that it is really great that I have started going to the gym because it’s like this. I’ve been overweight most of my life, so my resting heart rate wasn’t really surprising. I can’t wait until I am healthier and in better shape. It was after this that I decided I’m not making any more trips to see’s candies. I just think for now my heart is better off without that kind of thing at the moment.

Anyway, so my nieces were down here for a few hours tonight playing old games on our Nintendo 64 and GameCube. I just lied on the couch like in doing now for a while taking various Harry Potter quizzes. I also watched some random my little pony panels and fan animations on youtube.

We had chili cheese dogs for dinner tonight, they were so great. There was also potatoes just in case we wanted to put the chili over those instead. I still got some, but I put sour cream on my potatoes instead.

 My sister also made a simple but good salad. I ate while watching Black Butler season 2 on my phone.

I got a nap in sometime while my nieces were down here not to long ago, I fell asleep watching an oldschool simpsons episode, the one where Bart drinks am all syrup squishie.

Sadly I did not get to go out for a walk today. By the time I realized I wanted to it was almost too late and my phones battery was low. I am looking forward to going out again tomorrow for a walk.

Anyway, sorry if today’s post was is kind of lazy, if I forgot anything I’ll mention it tomorrow. I’m just super tired. I just want to crash now.

Patience & Ponies

I spent the better part of tonight catching people up with my last entry. It is now 4:44am. The entry says that I finished it yesterday, but I changed the date because I like to be organized and that is when i meant to finish it. I covered the past 2 and a half weeks as much as i could. I excluded the days I posted of course. The entry took me around 5 hours to do, mostly because I had to word things carefully and think about details a lot. I have a bad habit of being overly detailed sometimes. To help with my concentration I’ve been listening to Harry Potter and watching and listening to My Little Pony videos, and commentary videos all night. I don’t think I could have done it if I hadn’t. The youtube channel I was watching and listening to is BlueStarBrony.

My sister made home made macaroni and cheese tonight, I ended up eating that, corn, and salad instead of the cream of wheat I made right before. I had never made cream of wheat before and so the first time I messed up, I put it in too small of a pot, and put too much salt. I had to dump it and try again. I got it right the second time needless to say.

Anyway, before I get ahead of myself, I slept in today. I got a ton of sleep last night and I needed it. I woke up to my sister and dad bringing home a church food order. The LDS church has a program that basically provides free food to those who need it. This program covers a lot of different foods, and even clothing if you need it. My family is in a tough financial situation right now and we can’t afford food at the moment and so we asked for help again. This isn’t the first time we’ve been in this situation.

I had a cheese sandwich for lunch and an orange. I listened to music for a while and just I did some random surfing on the net. After a while I got bored with that and went upstairs for a while. I was going to play some Tetris Splash but changed my mind. I started watching Sailor Moon on Hulu on our TV, my brother watched it with me, after we watched 2 episodes I changed the show to Death Note. My brother had to go not to long after we started the first episode so I turned it off.

I think after this i did some stuff on Anomo, facebook, Puzzle & Dragons and other usual stuff for a little while. It was not to long after this that I made the cream of wheat and did the other stuff.

I am really tired now and can’t wait to get to sleep. It’s been a long night and a long fight with patience. I am proud of myself for finally getting caught up on here. I am looking forward to getting better at posting and sharing the future with you all. There is so much to tell that I haven’t told before, but it can wait for the future.

Flashback

I know I haven’t written in 10 days, I am still working on my procrastination problem. I am determined to tackle it before my 25th birthday in July. I would hate to make the big mistake of not writing anything in the 2nd quarter of my life like I did in this one. I suppose starting to write in my journal and / or blog at 17 wasn’t too bad, but now people will be missing so much. My life before that was quite interesting. There are a lot of details about my younger years that I have forgotten so sadly you will only hear it in fragments now and then in my entries. 

I guess now I should catch you up. I have a lot to tell. I will just start from yesterday and go backwards. I will do today’s entry separately. If you find this confusing, I suggest you read the paragraphs backwards or something like that. :)

21st

The day started out with dad making pancakes. He makes the best buttermilk pancakes in the world. I had them with cherry raspberry rhubarb  spread and a bit of butter on top. I had some of my sister’s home made bread also for breakfast.

I got my stuff ready to go to the gym, I decided to wear my green tank top and my green headband. Instead of bringing them with me I decided to just wear them on the way there. I grabbed my backpack and bus pass and left to catch the bus.

I switched up my routine at the gym and did more of what my personal trainer told me to do. I alternated 25 pull ups, 20 sit ups, 20 push ups and 30 squats 3 or 4 times. I did some cardio for 30 minutes, did two more rounds of my routine and then 30 more minutes of cardio. I finished up with 20 minutes of swimming, 10 minutes in the steam room and then a shower. Once I was cleaned up I did my usual routine of going to See’s Candies in the mall, and getting the orange chicken and teriyaki chicken samples from the food court. This time they gave me a butterscotch chew at See’s candies, I love those. Oh, I nearly forgot to mention that the swimsuit dryer at the gym ate the green headband somehow, it was bizarre. I won’t be putting my headbands in there anymore with my swimsuit.

After looking at shoes in some of the stores I went to Farr’s ice cream and got a cup of half salty Carmel and half pistachio, went outside and caught the bus home.

Nothing all that great happened after I got home I was pretty tired and so I took a nap while I listened to Harry Potter for about a half an hour. Other than that I just listened to music, watched a few episodes of Ben 10, and some minecraft videos on youtube.

20th

I stayed up late the night before so I slept in really late. My day didn’t start until around 3pm. Days that I don’t go to the gym I usually don’t do much. I went for an hour long walk, I like listening to techno music and thinking about friends and other stuff when I take walks. Other than that I started watching random My Little Pony commentaries, and started watching Sailor Moon again.

19

I ate a big breakfast and got ready to go to the gym. I couldn’t find my shoes so I had to go grab my asic running shoes. I wasn’t very happy about this because I hadn’t broken them in and I was saving them for much later when I can actually run.

This was the day I started doing more arm and ab workouts. I also tried out some of the other cardio machines like the star stepper and something similar. I did not do any swimming this day so I cleaned up when I got home instead.  I ate some Cheerios and apple slices before I left and went to See’s candies to get a sample. They gave me a coconut cream flavored chocolate covered in dark chocolate.

When I got home I spent most of the day just doing the usual, you know listening to music and random internet stuff. One thing I did that I normally don’t do a lot is try and find past friends. I actually successfully managed to find my childhood best friend Eric on Facebook and his wife. It looks like they are very happy. I sent him one last message saying how sorry I was for how I acted in my teens, and for being such a jerk to the person that he ended up married to. I didn’t add him or anything, but left it like that. I want him to remember me in a good way, not the way I left our friendship 6 years ago.

18th (read 17 first)

I couldn’t find a ride to church so I attended it at the nearby chapel. After I was done there I went home and just relaxed. We celebrated my sister’s birthday again mom made garlic chicken, rice pilaf, and salad. We had coconut cream pie again for dessert. More of us are able to be together on Sundays without work and stuff.

I randomly started searching for social networks for introverts sometime in the evening. I found one called Anomo, it’s an app for android and iphone.

17th

Had a dream that these men were after me snd wanted me for some reason I’m not sure of. I remember one of them was fat though. I went to Darik snd Dylan’s house and found places to hide. Was going to hide in the closet but it was full, was. I remember something about finding some place to hide in a big drawer under the bed. Something about various people wondering about where I was, something about a flexible sword with snake like qualities. Dylan imposter or something like that, thought it was Dylan or maybe it was but I don’t know. I don’t think I got hurt, he might have left me alone after trying to pull out the drawer he pulled out the bed I was scared.
 
I remember something about escaping to a space ship and going to a pokemon planet or something. I think I was an alien. I’m not sure about this part. I think it was connected to the first part but not sure. The dream changed. I remember something like trying to find Dylan in a bowling alley and then at a club, friends were with me and then with nieces for some reason. Finding Dylan at the party or someone like him. Something at the party about lord of the rings VIP party that cost over 1000 dollars, I think was a party club pass membership or something. Went and found some stairs, there was a long line. Previously decided not to buy admission to other floor of party. Downstairs there were Instagram picture booths where groups and people were taking pictures thought Dylan might be there had a picture taken by some people I had on weird circle glasses on that had changed dark because of the lights. Went upstairs cause nieces or someone was calling. It was pretty random.

Had a Ben 10 marathon, didn’t have anything else to do. It was my sister’s birthday and she went out for lunch. Later we had coconut cream pie, we didn’t have enough money to do anything else together. I spent the rest of the evening playing around with my computer changing the colors, font styles, and overall theme. I figured out how to make my browser colors high contrast.

16th

After I ate breakfast on this day and made the usual preparations I headed off to the gym. This day was the first day that I officially saw my personal trainer at the gym. We talked about my goals, nutrition and went through my routine. I nearly passed out when he had me do a quarter of a mile as fast as I could on the elliptical. I think I felt sick for 10 minutes after that. Anyway, that is all we had time for, he set up our next appointment, sent me an email with my routine and we said goodbye to each other. After this I just did my usual stuff.

After I was done I got a cashew brittle sample at See’s candies and also made a stop at The Body Shop. I wasn’t sure if I was going to buy anything, but I ended up buying some new foundation, powder, lipstick, blush, and lip gloss. I also got a membership card to get a discount. The card cost me $10, but it’ll come in handy in the future.

In my blog notes I have something about a video written, but unfortunately I have no clue what that is about. This is why I take more detailed notes now. -.-

We had shepherds pie sometime in the evening and I actually fell asleep early.

15th

Sadly I don’t have any notes for this day, I remember it was boring though. I think this was the day I meant to catch up on, including the stuff before my May 12th entry. I’m still planning on doing that here.

14th

This was the day I set up my appointment with my personal trainer. I asked someone at the front desk to send a trainer my way because I’d never set one up before or scheduled or anything so I had no idea what to do. This was also the first day I wore the tank tops I bought the week before. I’ll talk about that day later.

I did some makeup window shopping after I was done at the gym. I went home after this and accidentally took a longer nap than I intended. This was while my sister and my niece went to my other niece’s violin concert. I’m not too fond of violins so I’m holding off on going until she is better. She is only 12 right now so there is a lot of room for improvement.

After I woke up from my nap I realized I was really behind on my calories and it was around 9pm or something so I had to think up something fast. I ended up making some eggs with cheese and ketchup on top. They were scrambled eggs. I make my scrambled eggs mixed with cottage cheese because it makes them fluffy and stuff. After I ate I started watching D-Grey-Man and I did that for the test of the night.

13.

Boring day, I don’t think anything worth note happened. This was the day after my last entry.

Now to the stuff before my last two entries. This shouldn’t take too long. I’ll try to not be overly detailed. This is everything in the first 10 or so days of May.

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Well, usually when a new month comes around, I get my bus pass from vocational rehab. They know that I need a means to get around and so they have been providing me with bus passes so I can get around and job hunt and stuff. It just so happened that my sister needed to go get some medical papers for a school meeting for one of my nieces on the day I needed to get my bus pass and so she took me to the office. It didn’t take long, she drove me up to the office and I was in and out of there in a matter of minutes. We left right after to go pick up the papers she needed. Once we were done we went out to eat at Whendy’s. I got a spicy chicken sandwitch and a frosty. I guess my sister lost track of time and so we suddenly found ourselves in a hurry because she had to get to my niece’s school meeting.

She didn’t have enough time to take me home and so we just headed straight to the school, it isn’t too far from where we live.  When we got to the school, we met up with dad that had just walked over to meet us. He wasn’t sure if the house was open or not, he told me to go and check. He thought that my sister would drop me off at home, so he wasn’t prepared. He and my sister went inside the school building and I walked home hoping that the door was opened. It’s a good thing I didn’t get my hopes up, because the door was locked, in fact both doors were locked. I walked back to the school and tried calling my dad again, but he didn’t answer. He had told me that he would be out in a little while, but I had my doubts.

My phone was almost dead and I didn’t have my wallet or anything, so I just sat outside on the car, and then after a while on the grass. I waited and waited and waited, and i got more and more and more irritated. Basically it was two hours before dad gave up and came out. He said he thought it was going to be shorter, but it turned out to be a lot longer and more important than he thought it was going to be. I was in a very bad mood, but I hid that fact. On top of everything and the fact that I wanted to go to walmart and to the gym 2 hours earlier I had gotten a very bad sunburn. I just wanted to get as far away for a while as possible after that bad experience. I hurried up and got my stuff together, i wasn’t sure if I was going to get to go to the gym because I wanted to buy some workout stuff at Walmart before I went there. I wasn’t sure how long I was going to take, but wanted to be prepared anyway just in case I did have enough time left.

Dad saved me some time by taking me to the bus stop that had the bus that went straight to walmart. originally I would have had to take a bus to that bus stop and then catch that bus to walmart. I was glad hat I got to save probably 45 minutes. Anyway, I had to wait a few minutes for the next bus, but I was fine with that. When I go to walmart I was there for a lot longer than I originally intended. I tried on a ton of different sports bras, and some tank tops. With my new sunburn it was pretty uncomfortable, but I lived through it. In the end I got six different bras, 4 were sports bras and 2 were regular bras. I picked out black, blue, and green tank tops. got some cranberry juice, bai 5 juice, and something else i don’t remember anymore. I walked around the store for a while after that because i realized i didn’t have enough time to go to the gym anymore. I just love taking my sweet time shopping… alone.

By the time I was done the buses had stopped running, buses over here stop running after 6:30, and it was after 8, so I called my dad, waited outside for a while, and he took me home. Nothing much happened after that, I just spent the evening watching random stuff online and just hanging around the house. I showed the things i bought to my mom. My sunburn was pretty bad by now and it had come out in full.

I made the mistake of going to the gym the next day, I was okay working out with my sunburn, but when it came to swimming when I put on my halter top swim suit it was so incredibly painful. On top of this I actually was crazy enough to get into the hot tub, I’m sure THAT was horrid for my burn, I guess I wasn’t thinking about it enough. It’s probably a good thing that i did not go into the sauna or the steam room that day. When I got into the pool I got some relief, but I was so glad when I go to take that swim suit off. After that trip to the gym I made my monthly purchase from See’s Candies and then went home. I learned my lesson after that trip to the gym and took a break the following week from the gym. This stuff happened during the first weekend of May.

Anyway, because I decided to stay away from the gym due to my really bad sunburn for the first full week of May that week wasn’t really all that eventful. Of course there is the possibility that I forgot some things because that week i did not take any blog notes. that is a mistake I will not be making again. Most of this post would not have been possible if I had not gotten into that habit now.

One thing i do remember is that I was on a Veronica Mars marathon for a lot of it, I actually finished the series and the movie by last week. I also went to the Cinco De Mayo carnival at a local elementary school, it was a pretty awesome thing. Every year they throw a carnival to raise funds for the school. You can get various punch passes for various amounts of money. I got a 40 count punch pass for $10 dollars. I used it on things like cotton candy, hand made bead rings, nachos, chips and salsa after the nachos, and spinning a wheel for candy. There were a ton of people there and there was bidding on cool baskets, there was face painting, a giant inflatable slide, a rock wall, a candy cannon, and a lot of other stuff I don’t remember. I went to last years carnival and it was just as cool, only back then I got to bid on one of the baskets. I didn’t win the bid, but it was still fun.

Anyway, if I remember anything else later I will talk about it in future entries, the same goes for any memories before I started blogging. I will be sharing those memories from time to time randomly. This entry took me a long time to write and a lot of patience and I am done now, so i am going to go take a break and sit back and be proud of myself. Hope you enjoyed the post! :)

Bread & Eggs

First off I forgot to mention last night that sometime late in the middle of the night I temporarily lost connection to the internet. I really hate it when that happens. I have no clue what happened, but the good news is that obviously today in the morning it was back. I hate having to use the LTE on my phone so much because there is like 9 people on our data plan.

One of the things I love about the days when i go to the gym is that i get to have huge breakfasts. I usually burn around 1000 calories when I go so I always eat the amount of calories I am going to burn. Today’s breakfast was milk, chips, salsa, hummus, and cheese on bread. I think that totaled up to over 800 calories by the time I was done. I usually have a protein bar with me to fill in the other 200 or 300 calories after I am done working out. I am usually very hungry by the time I am done so that is why I do this. In case you are wondering the protein bar i like is Cliff Builders Max. There are a few different flavors. My favorite is Mint Chocolate.

I just did the usual today at Gold’s gym. I did 35 minutes of bike, 35 minutes of treadmill, and 40 minutes of stair stepper. Last Friday i started working on my leg movements in the pool, in the past I haven’t been that great when it comes to moving my legs properly when I swim. I usually swim for 20 to 25 minutes right now. As I get better at swimming I am going to increase that slowly as I go.

I am quite fond of the sauna and the steam room, I always make sure I get enough time in them when I go. I love to stretch in the sauna, it’s so great for right before I go on the treadmill. I have noticed that since I’ve been stretching in the sauna my muscles haven’t been nearly as tight when I do the treadmill.

After I was done working out and stuff, after i cleaned up and did my hair I headed over to the mall. I like to walk over to the mall and go to Bath & Bodyworks. I usually find a perfume I like and use the free sample bottle to make myself smell good. Today I went to The Body Shop instead  however and used their Cherry blossom perfume. I’m thinking of getting a job at The Body Shop, there seems to be an opening. I saw the opening when i was browsing jobs yesterday.

Two of my favorite shops in the mall are Claire’s and Icing. Icing is the more grown up version of Claire’s. The stores sell stuff like jewelry, hair stuff, and all kinds of other accessories. It’s basically very girly. I usually get most of my jewelry from these two stores. All of my earrings except for maybe 2 pairs are from Claire’s. They also have these sparkly light switch and plug covers that I REALLY want a lot. In a few weeks i am planning on buying my makeup brushes from Icing when i do my makeup shopping spree. I will probably buy a light switch cover and a couple of plug covers as well. I haven’t owned makeup for a long time, so it will be fun to experiment with it finally. I probably still won’t wear it a ton, but it’ll be nice to have it around in case I want to make myself look a little neater. I know it will come in handy for job interviews and church for example. I am planning on buying the actual makeup at the Bare Minerals makeup store in the mall. I love going in there every month after I get my haircut, they give me a free makeover when i go in.

The weather was kind of weird on my way back home. At the bus station it was sunny, but it was also raining and windy. I really hate cold windy rain, it is my least favorite kind of weather. I can’t wait until the cold weather goes away, that will be nice. I love going outside and finding out that the weather is warm, that is always a great way to start the day.

When I got home I listened to some music, I’ve been really into the Burlesque movie and soundtrack, and some anime OST as well. I watched some Futurama episodes as well today, I am sad that the show ended again. I was so happy when Comedy central brought it back, they did some pretty awesome episodes. I can’t wait for the Simpsons Futurama crossover that they have planned. I read the comic and loved it, can’t wait to see it!

Other than the usual stuff I am still working on fixing the photos and videos in some of my posts. I am almost back to 2011 now. You can still see the all the photos in all of my posts, but some of them are linked from my blogger blog copy and not directly uploaded onto here, that is what I am fixing. So far as the videos go some of them were taken down so i am finding replacements and re-posting them. I also have to fix the videos that came from my channel because I recently moved youtube channels and had to re-upload everything. I deleted my old channel.
My sister has been making bread the past couple of weeks. She made 4 new loaves of oat bread today. I love eating her bread, she is really great at baking and cooking.  I really want to learn how to make bread someday, I love baking. I’ve never been one for cooking, but baking is really enjoyable to me. I guess baking is a form of cooking, but whatever.
So it’s the end of the day now, a little over an hour ago I was having a calorie crisis and was behind in calories. On occasion I will eat too few calories and that isn’t great for the amount of working out I do. I was around 700 calories short, so I drank some apple juice and made myself a plate of eggs and cheese with ketchup, salt and pepper. I usually also make my eggs with cottage cheese, you can’t really taste it too much and it makes them all fluffy and light. Mom was the one that taught me that trick. My eggs just aren’t as good if they don’t have cottage cheese in them.

Anyway, so I am listening to the Mindcrack Podcast right now as I write this, I will probably go back to watching Veronica Mars when I submit this. I’m pretty sure nothing else will happen so I’ll just end here.  I took a short nap earlier, so I’ll probably stay up late again tonight, not too late though. :)

Mother's Day

I know it’s pretty sad how I always zone out or fall asleep in church. I really do care about what is being taught, I just have the attention span of a goldfish sometimes. I managed to stay alert for the second hour of church today and so I know the lesson was something about the talking donkey story in the bible. It’s so hard to concentrate when your childhood best friend is sitting next to you.

I haven’t talked to Devin much for over 10 years, I still really like him though, he is a cool friend. My other distraction is of course my iPhone. Well, I guess it would be both a help and a distraction. Sometimes it helps me concentrate, sometimes it just makes me zone out even more. I didn’t want to distract Devin, so I only had my scriptures open in my phone and not any games or the internet like I usually do. I ended up leaving the room a few minutes early because I was so tired.

The third hour of church I actually slept through. I only got around 3 hours of sleep last night because I was watching Veronica Mars. I originally was planing on resting in the foyer for 10 minutes or so, but I guess my tiredness just came over me. I really should stop staying up late on Saturday nights. I slept straight through the last hour and just happened to wake up 5 minutes before the third hour was over.

I just went ahead and caught the end of the lesson, there was candy at the end, I grabbed a good handful. I am trying to lose weight, but I allow myself a little splurging now and then. It was just some Milky Ways, mints, and chocolate coins. I was pretty hungry, so I was happy to get the candy.

We didn’t do much today for Mother’s Day, just had Mexican haystacks. I made sure to put a lot on my chips, stuff like meat, beans, cheese, lettuce, tomatoes and sour cream. I am pretty sure the rest of the family just spent the evening after that watching TV or something. I went downstairs when I got my dinner, so I can’t really say for sure what everyone else was doing.

I checked my Youtube home page and watched SethBling’s Building game Mother’s Day episode. I love watching people play that game, I am glad Seth came up with it. I have never gotten to play it, but I want to someday. Some of the things people make with minecraft are so amazing.
 http://youtu.be/k-Uey__ZP9A
I have been fixing the images and videos here on tumblr today. When I moved my posts here yesterday from tumblr with the blogger to tumblr website the tool only linked the pictures and videos. I am going through all my posts and manually uploading the photos and posting the videos again.

I’ve been working on that for most of the evening. I am taking a break for the night now and I’ve just been watching Veronica Mars. I’ve been on a marathon for the past few days. I am on season 3 now and I’m loving it so much.

Can’t wait to get to the gym tomorrow, I accidentally went over my calories today.

Anyway, so much to talk about, I think I’ve done enough for tonight. There will be plenty of time to write about other things later.