Thunderstorms

So yesterday evening I started watching a show called “Neo Angelique Abyss”. I accidentally found it while I was looking through anime with the word “angel” in the title. I’m glad I found it because it was a really great show. There were 2 seasons I got half way through the first yesterday night and finished it today. It’s almost 3pm here now, I’ve been watching it for hours totally drawn in by the story.

There was a big thunderstorm yesterday night. It started getting noisy around 5am. I got startled and woke up a few times with my heart beating because a few times it got really loud, it shook the house a little. I didn’t actually see it though, I should have gone upstairs and looked at it but I was still half asleep and when I’m like that I usually have no interest in anything else but just going back to sleep. I really like watching rain storms though.

I’ve been dealing with my every day problems as usual. I’ve always had a hard time communicating with people my whole life, being social, etc. Sometimes I get a big angry and frustrated with people because I don’t feel like they actually try very much to talk to me or be my friend. Sometimes I feel a large amount of hatred for everyone and just want them to all go away and leave me alone. Sometimes it gets so bad I feel sick. I’ve had this problem on a regular basis ever since I can remember. I’ve never really worried about it though because it always goes away with a little bit of time. I’ve become very skilled at controlling my emotions and thoughts and feelings. i suppose that is a very good skill to have. A lot of people these days lack self control.

I spent a good part of yesterday setting up my google bookmarks. It was a fun thing to do with my time.

I’m planning on quitting Destiny Online in 4 days. I have actually been planning this for a while but I had to go back because of my job as a GM on the game. I would have left a month ago if it weren’t for that one thing. I feel like I spend to much time on it and I don’t really think my lifestyle and the game and the people go well together. My beliefs, and my actions are very different from people on Destiny.

Anyway I guess that’s all for now.